Lost in Amsterdam

**Muriel's Pov**

Ever since I lost my father, my joy and happiness ceased and I felt so dead and numb or should I say I've been a robot. It hasn't been easy for me to understand myself and I can't even remember when last I had my bath.

"Muriel we want to talk to you" Anna said after knocking on my door without getting any response.

Anna is my mother, my biological mother but I despise her so much because she never truly loved my father. It wasn't up to 6 months before she started seeing Ben, my soon to be step father, Ben has been trying to be nice to me but hell he will never replace the love I have for my father. It's fine if Anna wants to move on already but I won't be part of any of these stunts they're trying to play, I will never become a Müller.

There was another knock on the door "Muriel are you in there, Ben and I have something to tell you". Said Anna.

Sigh I guess I'll have to answer them, I walked sluggishly and lifeless towards the door of this gigantic room in Ben's house . I could hear them whispering behind the door. I opened the door and saw both Ben and Anna standing in front of the door with a suspicious smile on their faces.

"What do you want?" I ask them

The smile on Anna face slightly turned to sadness but I care less.

"We've been thinking about this and we think you have all right to know about our decision" Anna said and paused. She gave Ben a kind of look and Ben nodded his head like he was motivating her to say whatever the fuck she wants to say.

"Well..Muriel you're well aware of the fact that Ben and I have been courting for the past few months and he has been supporting us with everything we need" Anna took a deep breath and continued "We're getting married in 2 weeks time Muriel" she smiled.

I don't get why she was smiling, what's happy about her getting remarried in just some few months. What's happening right now? Well I should have expected such from the beginning of everything expecially when Ben told us to move into his house because our rent was due.

I was lost in my thoughts that I didn't realize I was getting mad and my face was changing it's colour to a red demon.

Anne noticed my facial expression but at this point I don't give a fuck about whatever they think.

"Okay" I managed to say even tho the words came out broken, I had expected it to sound tough but I guess I was being too emotional.

"Muriel I love you n Anne so much and I don't want to see you suffering in pains, trust me I'll take good care of the both of you" Ben said.

At this point my anger subsided and my colour was back to itself and all that was left was numbness the feeling of no feeling . My face was pale and emotionless as I stared at the soon to-be married couple in front of me.

"Congratulations" I said with a fake smile on my face. They're not as dumb as not to notice the smile was fake. Ben sighed and gave me a "take care" look as he left to his room and I was left with my mom who was standing in front of me with her eyes piercing through my skin.

"Your husband has left here, go meet him. I need to sleep" I said as I shut the door.

I stood by the door till I heard her footsteps moving away from the door then I completely broke down and tears from no where started to rush out. "How could she?" Was the only question I kept on asking myself.

I don't think I can continue in this house anymore. I walked towards my closet and packed most of my needed clothes and underwear with some shoes into my dad's old box. I don't want to ever loose this box. I sniffed the catarrh that was trying to slip down my nose while I was staring at myself in the mirror.

"You got this Muriel, you're no longer the kid you used to be". I said to myself.

**Authors note**

*Do you think Muriel is making the right decision? What's going to happen to her*

*Let me know what you think*

*So this is the first chapter of the book and I hope you enjoyed it because I really want to know what's going to happy next too (─.─||）(─.─||）btw XOXO*