She met him as a child, he raised her like his daughter...until she fall in love with him. She was the princess of a kingdom, betrothed to another strong king. He was a young priest, swore to only love god and never touch or even think about any woman. Will he be able to resist that love and temptation, and stop himself from doing the greatest sin? Did she ever get the love she wanted? Or will she be trapped in a loveless marriage? And will society ever let them two together or the pure love will be treated as a sin? •••••• I chuckled hearing his answer, he was talking like a possessed man, without any emotion. I already knew I was going to get rejected by him, but still, I tried... He is a priest after all and had years of experience in resisting seduction. What was I even thinking when I decided to tell him my feelings? “ Sure Father, I won't get late”, I replied and turned around as I get the worst idea of my life. I can't be more shameless, can I? It's all worth it though...for him, I have no shame. My heart was pounding, and my whole body was shivering because of fear. Was I really going to do this? Hell, yes. The soft silk gown fell from my body when I removed it. My long golden-brown hair was hiding my back but still, it was outrageous to stand naked in front of another man, and it was even more sinful if that man is your father! I saw his lascivious gaze when I turned around after sitting in the bathtub. The rose petals were hiding my body, but my bare shoulder was still visible. It wasn't even allowed for me to reveal my full face to anyone, but here I am, naked in front of a priest. I tilted my head, smirking at his darkened gaze, " Oh, I thought you left…do you want to join me, Father? The water is still warm…” " Stop this madness Xenia, it's enough.”, He grumbled, glaring at me... resisting me. But his eyes, it said it all he was trying to deny. I smirked, " It's not enough, not yet...I know you want it, the way you are looking at me now…” " It's wrong.” “ So you are not denying that you are thinking something immoral for me?” I asked, smirking, and slowly removed those rose petals from my hands. My entire body was on the show for his eyes now, clear, bare...waiting for him to devour like some forbidden fruit. As his eyes took me in, the cold silver cross around his palm turned red. Blood, dripped down his hand as he was taking deep breaths with a clenched jaw…his darkened ocean eyes were still on my bare body but he hadn't taken a single step to come towards me. He could do whatever he want with me, I was wet, nacked...helpless, begging for him to love me..fuck me, use me as he pleased, but there he was, standing like a statue, just staring at me. Never in my life, I'd begged like this before. I am the only heir of this kingdom, the future queen. But I begged for a man's love like a vagrant. And the worst part is, I could gladly beg like this my entire life as long as he wants me to.
Chapter 1 Prologue
5 years ago,
Nicholas p.o.v.
“ Father, the cart has arrived"
Ronald, the young servant boy, informed me. He was so excited since the day he found out that princess Alexa was coming here to live with us.
The way he was taking deep breaths, I knew he was coming here running like a horse. How many times I had warned him not to do it…
“ If you keep running here like this, then one day these stairs are going to break into pieces”
I scolded him, putting the documents and letter aside. There was so much work at this time of year. Winter was coming, and I didn't think there was enough food for the people here…
“ Then why don't you renovate this old tower or leave it... come stay with us in the church.”
“ I like it here in solace"
He rolled his eyes at me after hearing my reply. When was he going to act mature?
After putting everything aside, we walked towards the entrance of the church. The Royal guards were roaming here and there, controlling the people who were excited to see only one glance of the future queen.
She will be the one to bring this kingdom's prosperity back… The hundred years old hatred and rivalry between the two kingdoms will turn into friendship and alliance, the brutal deaths of soldiers and the starvation of people will stop, and the kingdom can become strong again.
And this all depended on this one thirteen years old child. How will she manage that much burden? Even I was afraid when I had to just guide her to that path…
" Princess" I kneel when she came and stood in front of me.
Even after seven years, bowing in front of anyone still feels so weird. However she was the second person, before her there was only one king in front of him I bowed; my half-uncle...but still, it felt so strange.
She was wearing a golden cloak and her face was hidden inside that hood. Poor child, I wondered how she could walk like this…
The king and queen must have a strong heart to leave her only daughter here in church for that long time…
Everyone stood up again when she nodded her head to acknowledge us. We returned inside, and then those big gates closed, leaving every royal guard and public outside.
I chuckled when I caught her peeking outside from her hood. She must have wanted to see this beautiful place.
“ You can remove it if you like, princess”
I said when she again tried to peep outside from her hood.
“ I didn't allow to…" She replied and stop at her place.
“ I know commoners are not allowed to see your face but here, every child is the same, there is no princess and no ordinary… You are like the others here”
I explained while kneeling in front of her because I heard her sniffing. Was she crying? I thought. Perhaps she was missing her home…
“ So, can I remove the hood? “ She asked, wiping her tears.
“ Yes you can, so what is your name, princess?”
I asked, although I know her name was Alexa still, I asked because kids like to introduce themselves, maybe she will feel like a normal kid like this…
“ Xenia Alexandrovna, but everyone calls me Princess Alexa.”
She replied and removed her hood. Xenia… I didn't know it, Probably no one in the kingdom knew her real name… They should have at least told the real name of our future queen.
“ So Xenia, do you want to meet others? They would like to be your friends”
She nodded her head, and we started walking inside the church.
Her golden-brown hairs reminded me of Samara, her big blue eyes were like mine… If Samara and I had a daughter, then probably she would have looked like her…Perhaps they both could have become friends, but again, if Samara and my unborn child were still alive, then I will not be here.
It's been eight years since she was killed, seven years since I took celibacy…I was just twenty-one when I became a priest. People used to say that I am too young to be a priest, too immature. And now, after seven years...at the age of twenty-eight, I still heard that same thing. But it does not bother me anymore.
I became a priest to find peace but didn't find it yet. Perhaps this was fate, that brought me here, so I could help the princess, and she could become a strong and intelligent future queen. However, my only work was to teach her the bible and guide her on god's path, but I will also teach her to read and use a sword. I knew it wasn't allowed for women but after what had happened with Samara, I believed every woman should learn to fight, so she can protect herself.
I glanced at the little afraid girl, walking beside me. Maybe this was my second chance to become a father…
Chapter 1 Prologue
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Chapter 2 Xenia
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Chapter 3 Xenia
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Chapter 4 Xenia
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Chapter 5 Nicholas
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Chapter 6 Nicholas
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Chapter 7 Nicholas
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Chapter 8 Xenia
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Chapter 9 Xenia
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Chapter 10 Xenia
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Chapter 11 Nicholas
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Chapter 12 Xenia
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Chapter 13 Nicholas
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Chapter 14 Nicholas
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Chapter 15 Nicholas
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Chapter 16 Nicholas
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Chapter 17 Xenia
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Chapter 18 Xenia
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Chapter 19 Xenia
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Chapter 20 Nicholas
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