Lightless Sunshine

pte

bit anger on his voice. He was seriously putting a cold compress on my face as he sat

n't tell him what really happened on me. That's a family matters I

ip. "Watch every step you mak

s, he put a cute band aid on my l

oked at it. It looks cool. I never thought a

here was a hint of smile on his lips. "Wh

s looks good in

ile wi

agpagan ang sarili. "Come on, it'

d person. Sumimangot ako. "You don't ha

first we've met, it was when I went on their house together with Dori. I could really say he's handsome way back, kahit naman h

o!" Dori exclaimed as soon as we stop

inic." I said and looked

imple nod and

riendship?" alalang ta

ang kaniyang braso at hin

ako sa pisng

and she scanned me. "Baki

and caressed her arm. "I'm

y nito?" tanong niya at

inned. "Ang

er eyes twinkled in amazeme

laughed

ght now. Icarus really never fails to lighten up my mood just like my two bestfriends-Preece and Dori. But in a different way. H

ped to the hallway where I

no

as no doubt that he is indeed blood related with

srespectful if I wouldn't face him. H

asked f

he greeted and dis

ewis

s brow and bit

d I wanted to throw myself into my bed and close my eyes until I fall asleep. I wasn't able to have a good sleep las

abas? May ibibigay lang san

y eyes seve

my I.D and take a picture in it and send it whoever you wanted just

nodded. He sighed.

t the seat across his and we were quiet the whole time until the food he ordered has b

ay?" I asked as I look

man who proclaimed himself as Preece's brother. He sipped on his drink

brother's bed after they clean

a slight pain on my chest, a sudde

misse

it." he said. "It was said there that it's f

aniyang kamay. He pushed it through the table.

iya bago ko binuksa

st tig

a room, at sa soccer field. If I never got mentioned, Preece was fond on taking pictures. He often spent time hangi

my lips. Preece was such a t

uge smile on my face and u

ed. "Drop the kuya,

n sa labi. "Okay... Sin," I sa

his feet. "Hindi na ako magtatagal.

ok my head. "N

at ibinigay ito sa waiter. He messed my hair. K

ays sticking around w

nang biglang tumambad sa aking hara

xed against mine. Sa paraan ng pagkakatitig niya sa akin ay para ban

ped h

iya sa harapan ko at sobrang

ine." he said grimly making

could even hear the jealousy on his voice. If I am not mistaken. His hazel br

n niya, tumitibok ng malakas ang puso ko. Di ko alam na sa simpleng mg

rus

to mess with

d me to hang out with my friends pero dapat daw umuwi na ako bago pa man daw mag dilim. Sinundo ako

, D

st left us... it would be more happier. Na-miss ko na siya. I set aside that feeling and I looked

e house. Siguro ay sa mga classmate

at hinatak ako. I smiled and

ught I would see him today. 'Di ko mapigilang mapangiti.

o. Good morning po

bent down her knees to hug me. "G

r back. "Ok

daughter. Magsi-swimming ba kayo ng

amed. "Yes, mommy!" siya na

y, dar

ep

a binili natin kahapon?" k

head cr

na ako! I guess it wo

ang umakyat na kayo ng kwarto

and her were really look alike. Sa sobrang

atak na ako ni Dori p

ong namamangha sa tuwing bumibisita ako. May queen size bed na color purple at may piano sa gilid. Floor-to-ceil

ted as I sat on the soft mattress

iendship!" s

o lang siya. I wandered my eyes around her room. Walang wala ang kwarto

akarampot na tela sa kaniyang kamay. Sh

pie

tap

usuotin

g ganoong damit. Isang pares ng light pink two piece ang isuno

a kang dalaga na talaga!

led. "

hay. Pagkapasok pa lang namin sa pool area ay mabilis kong n

attention and continued to swim. Walang alak sa amin

nge at nagpahid ng s

aito, Lexus, Thulius, Eleazar and Neus, the grade eight basketball team members, sipping on their juice

aalis sila ngayon ni ate Gret

date

gur

ettle, 'no?" I h

dad lang natin siya, matagal ko na siyang niliga

." Allison giggled. They looked like a kids

ldn't help bu

n't here. Not that I care about them. Duh. Ininunguso sa akin ni

v-neck shirt and a khaki short, hands inside his pockets and Grettle with her s

insecurity on

ong may malalaking ngiti sa labi. I wonder, what are they talkin

h glare not until our eyes met. His lips

Icarus sa beywang. Mas lalong nagtagis ang bagang ko. Nagt

e lounge chair, reaveling my body. Dumeri

ir anymore. Humugot ako nang malalim na hininga bago lumangoy

so much ngayon naglalandi na siya

ita ko silang kasama. Siguro dahil may paghanga ako sa kaniya? He

ang may bigla nalang humublot

in ang natatawang reaksyon ni Eleazar. Sumiman

med, panting. Kina

outed at him. "Sorry,

my eyes. Sinuklay ko ang buhok gamit an

ntary pa lang. Madalas rin akong isinasali sa mga competition no

t's bette

utan ang

le scenario came flashing on my head. Nararamdaman ko,

n why my

t akong

kinuha ang towel. Nagpaalam ako sa ka

kaya silang dalawa? Ano kayang ginagawa nila ngayon? B

something,

mainit at mabangong hininga ang

en I saw Icarus st

tled me!"

imbes na sumagot. Sinamaa

kiddo?" he asked, tiltin

t him. "Anong ginagawa n

address her as Ate? Like how Dori and your friends call

singhal ko. "Ano bang ginagawa

hy

ako!" I stomped my

Bakit naman kita sasagu

ang noo

.." naiiling na sabi niy

w kayo ngayon sabi ni Dori? Magd-date ba k

e stare itself could make my blood run up to my cheeks cau

ily before putting the few str

hiv

?" mataray kong sabi at p

los tumayo na lahat ng b

ngit mo, Sunny.

ko. "Hindi ako masungit!

of white teeth showed. Adoration and amusement

miled slyly. "Grettle an

o ko at nakaramdam ng si

he smiled and

a aking sikmura. Nangingilid ang

Sunny. We're dating.

I have a c

is brows

ht?" tiningala ko siya hab

rowed as he n

ve known it would gonna be painful

'yo, Ica!" I stomped my fee

iyang labi at n

a maganda siya? Eh, maganda rin naman ako, ah!" Para

lumaki na ako!" I added and

o ang iba

as his jaw clenc

e I'm already fifteen! Ilang taon ka na ba? Seven

ied to keep his laughter. "You really

I sobbed

too young, Sunshine. Mawawala rin 'yan.

asabi? Nagkacrush k

s ng tingin. His ears

kin? Pangit ba a

beautiful. As always, Sun

a ulit ang

ality and such. You were attracted to me because maybe, you sees me as an older brother. A brother material. As much as I don't want to break your heart, I also don'

my heart j

ked a

uli ang mg

ng hapdi sa

n mo iyan." I said while looking straight at his