Towards the Inner

for Patrick – as this way it is the most beautiful, the most romantic, and full of love; just them, dedicating themselves to each other. This Caribbean holiday was for her

one in her Homeland and the other on the Island, she essentially had the right for two places, two participants free of charge. It was natural th

e, fearful, closed young university student with a good heart. He came as a part of a 2-in-1 package

liked people and was always positive, loyal and socially-minded, after so many years of solitude, after five year

etimes she would prefer the "Honeymoon" and to be alone with her dearest one, just some sweet

wed daddy into the bedroom for the "bedtim

fact that he became

did not hesit

wish so. At least, you'll have som

roning, packs for them when they go travelling; can advise what to wear, cooks, and jokes with them. Yes, she did like humour; for her, it was the salt of life. She

nderstand her body language; to know that although her responses come with a straight face a

ast together, time on the beach together. The only exception was those two days

t in their room playing cards or reading. Every evening, Naomi prepared the clothes they should wear for dinner on th

o need to meet or to get to know any other guy. Her life and the only man in it was him – Patrick – and everything around them had turned into a grey fog. If she happened to communicate with another man, then it happened not because he was a man, but because he was a person who had or wanted some information, a joke, simply a commun

due to the lack of sex, as because of the last minute change in their booking, the hotel had only one suite available

he expressly required her company, enjoyed intellectual debates and "academic topics" along with her. She even dug

the clouds; out of happ

holiday was. She thought about ten steps ahead. He felt the love from her; he had to feel it. It penetrated their skin, but it was only skin-deep. In the firs

you want a

to that awesome show Coco

, " Patrick winke

the sellers coming.

em!" shouted Patr

h with me, so I'll get them,

ed guests in the hotel lobby, to organise the transport to get them to the club. Naomi had bought VIP

crowd on the bus, and so she did not even try to brin

ty, self-sufficiency comes. Her life taught her not to need anyone – in terms of material world and the forms of security. However, after two years with Patrick, she brought that even to some level of extremeness. She bought everything herself, even for them. Her generosity knew no bounds when it came to gifts or flight

she criticised him about how she has to take care of everything and how he does not buy her anything. These were the "fatal" conflicts that repeated in incre

peating on and on. At least Naomi did not understand; she did not get why she still felt both absolute proximity and completely repulsing forces at the same time. The flirting that happened a few times was nevertheless never supported by her interest in someone else, not

h they went into was just another slap in her face. Patrick with his son separated after entry, and both went their direction. Naomi, keeping her head held high, marched to another section. They all met at the cashier

show, where it is all happening "all around", everywhere and nowhere, as if you are an interactive part of the show at all times. In the rungs on each floor of the arena, the local "Collectors" (not of taxes, but of performers) choose someone from the crowd – a hottie, a gentleman, a fat man,

ed for dancers to perform. She felt Patrick's response behind her, about three meters back,

ays have to stand out; you just can't sit in one place l

ove all, it belongs to the program, completes the overall effect, and ordinary participants compete

ssing between Patrick and his son. But not with her. The more spontaneous, more alive the discu

ere silent for the whole flight back from the Caribbean to Europe; they were silent on

verything; put everything back in its place, put on

enc

ld have been cu

ed as if they had forgotten how to talk. A speech the

urn, everyone in their daily r

re, her cousin was three months pregnant. It was unthinkable that they should not meet. Under normal circumstances, she would, of course, invite her to visit at her home, but that was impossible now. None of them would feel comfortable in the tense atmosphere of a dead aquarium that her home turned into – really, to invite her was inappropriate. So they ag

l be home around 9. I'm writing this to you, as we'

hin

eact

aybe wants to say something but says nothing. Silence. Naomi is not going to search out where he was. Her dignity does not allow her to start a cross-examination.

? What bothers you so much?

the airport? That you we

woman in one shop. They met at the cashier where everyone paid for their items. She felt bad about it. She threw at them an arrogant look and a harsh reaction when they wanted to

maid, not an equal partner. With that in mind, which she has now, these reactions would certainly not happen. She was the only cast in the running film. She saw herself in a mirror – Patrick did just what she engineered him to do through her behav

ut them, they would not work their way out to a total humiliation at the most primitive level. Without t

k "beautifying cure", since there was a stifling silence in the house, she only cried, "I'm off to the beautician and the mass

fficient. Basically, she does no harm, and that is precisely what hurts him. That there had been no fatal reason; that she had surrendered to their domestic rules an

five years of solitude, business, and hard work, she was accustomed to ending her day at her company, or the last working meeting at nine or ten o'clock in the even

l contracts, and her employees were working through the night at work, and she tried to change everything and adapt to a new life. It often took longer than expected be

o continue… The problem was how to combine everything: a new family and her duties, expectations which she felt as set, smooth operation of the company, securing funding and other things for many more years into the future, in order to still have enough on her account and to continue to be independent and materially self-sufficient, to

ifestyle (it indeed seemed pleasant and nice in greater peace and ease). On the other hand, she had to figure out how and where to win contracts of a necessary amount to have savings for at least 20 yea

he had no PR meetings, business lunches, let alone business dinners. When she needed to deal something really important (it was done strictly on an opera

utely everyth

other her; it was more peaceful and harmonious in that way. It only hit her that she had to e

ot at all that a wealthy partner would take care of her, no; it

problem

lved it. H

p started e

aomi with her temper back then had no need to

arted packing – fast and furious, recklessly. Patrick found her already in the process of throwing the last bag c

that

both

maybe just destroyed something so beautifu

not han

id not know whether they