LUNA'S Diary

May 7,1990

Dear Elena,

Tomorrow will be the day. I'm afraid to know the truth about my brother's condition. I'm scared- I don't know what will happen to my life; My classmate Ruby always asks about my brother's condition and I found it so annoying. I know what's running in her head. I know that she secretly loves my brother but she's so annoying every 30 minutes she always calls our house. Now I know why my brother never gave her a chance. I'm praying right now that it is just a normal bruise and he only had anemia and nothing worse than that. I don't know what to say; Elena. Whole Day I'm just thinking about the changes that might happen to us. My room is my heaven place in this house full of negative vibes. Mom and Dad are always fighting, they always blame each other for some reason that they don't want to tell us. hayst! Elena, I don't know what happened to our family? We used to be happy and content in life and unexpected circumstances happened. And here we are struggling about our organized life.

I just wish Elena that everything will go back to normal. I'm not used to it.

Sincerely your friend,

Luna Sandivillan

Heavy-hearted , I closed my diary and put it back in my drawer. I look at my face in the mirror. I sigh; I look like a real mess right now. I close my eyes and shake my head. I looked again in the mirror and nothing happened.

" Those movies are not real" I said and got the hair brush to brush my hair. While brushing my long black hair. My little sister Amy rushed to my room and hurriedly locked the door.

"Amy, Are you playing again?" I ask

"Yes, Ate!" She happily said to me,

" Is that hide and seek again?"I asked again.

She just happily nodded at me. I crossed my arms and looked at her.

" Amy, it's 8:30pm you should go to your bed right now" I firmly said to her.

"But Ate I'm not sleepy " Amy protest

"I'm older than you Amy, you should follow your ate" I said to her.

" But I want to play and Amanda wants to play also," She explained.

I just sigh and walk her way. I squat to make eye contact with this kid.

" Look Amy I know that you and Amanda want to play but it's already late. And you know that we need to go to the hospital tomorrow for Kuya's Check-up right? " I calmly said to her. She slowly nodded her head to me and hugged me.

" I want to sleep," Amy whispered to my ears. I just smiled because of his cute action that made my heart flatter.

"Okay, Sweetheart" I said to her and I carried her back to her room.

I gently put Amy in her bed and kissed her forehead " Goodnight Amy" I said to her and I looked at the Doll beside her. " And Goodnight Amanda" I said to the doll.

I silently leave Amy's room. When I left her room; I saw Kuya Lenard standing at our parent door. I immediately went to kuya to ask him what he was doing in front of our parents room.

"Kuya" I called him

He immediately looked at me and weakly smiled; My heart tightened when I saw his smile. So weak, So tired.

" Why are you here on the outside? " I asked him.

He put his index finger in his mouth telling me to be quiet. I nod at him and look in the door of our parents. After a few seconds I heard the shouting and cursing of our parents. They blame each other again; It's a never ending blaming game between them.

" It's because of me" My brother suddenly said that makes me feel sorry for him.

" No, It's their problem not us" I said to Kuya Lenard to make him feel better.

"No, Luna. It's me. If I don't have an illness. They will not fight" He said

I shake my head as a sign of objection. I immediately held his hand and looked into his eyes.

"Kuya Lenard, It's not your fault and besides we don't know if you have an illness. Please just think positive that it's just a simple anemia and you just need vitamins and exercise to feel better. " I said to him. I will do my best to lift his spirit; I know he needs it right now.

I don't want my brother to have an illness. I don't know what to do if that ever happens to him. He's my protector and my saviour. I will hardly pray for his good health.

Oh God, Please give my Kuya good health. He has so many dreams in his life. And there is a bright future waiting for him.

After what happened in our parents room. I go back to my room and hurriedly get my diary and sit at my study table.

Dear Elena,

I hate my parents right now. They make my Kuya feel that all the bad luck happening to our family is his fault. And it makes my kuya weak not physically but mentally and emotionally. My parents are the worst!

I hate them. I feel suffocated because of their actions that they don't think. Elena, what should I do? I know that I need to be brave for my kuya Situation but I'm afraid. It's okay to be afraid right?

Sincerely yours,

Luna

I close my eyes and think about what might happen tomorrow.

"I just wish that it's all a dream"