My name is Nadege. I am a lesbian. Discover my story
Chapter 1 The cursed child
My name is Nadege. My parents kicked me out of the house the day I was 17 years old. It was my aunt Celine who agreed to put me up with her until my situation stabilized. Everything changed in my life when I had the courage to confess to my family that I was a lesbian. First, I didn't want to tell them anything. But I had to do it because my best friend CLARA showed me that it was the best thing to do. She no longer wanted me to live in hiding or pretend in front of my parents. Clara wanted me to show off so that I could live a happy life.
It was really complicated for me to broach the subject with my parents and I didn't know where to start. Eventually I did and things went wrong. The day after my confession, my mother cried all day while my father scolded me. My two sisters no longer spoke to me.The whole family considered that it's a curse for me to be a lesbian. I was abnormal in their eyes. Only my aunt Celine supported me. The contempt my family had was no surprise to me as I expected them to get angry. The surprise was just the fact that my father threw me out like I was trash. He no longer considered me like his daughter. I had become the saddest girl in the world.
¶ AT MY AUNT ¶
It was late and I was lying in the room my aunt Celine gave me. This room wasn't as big as the one I had at my parents', but it was clean. So, I take my doll and look at her sadly. It was the object that I used every time to distract myself and especially if I was sad. I really like dolls.I had it since I was born and it was the only thing that slept with me. Next to it, I had hung a picture on which there was my best friend Clara and me. I gazed fondly at this photo and remember the day we made it. I was with her in a park and we were having fun. I had spilled my ice cream on her t-shirt on purpose. And remembering this memory, a drop of tear comes out of my eyes. It's because I was sad. So I wanted to call Clara. The truth is that I am in love with her and I would like to confess my feelings but I immediately imagined myself in a context where she was repressing me. It cooled my desire to call her and suddenly, I fell asleep without realizing it..
*** THE DAY AFTER ***
The rays of the sun filtered the curtains of my room in poor condition. That morning, my aunt came into my room and she was sad. She sat down on my bed and she was breathing deeply. Afterwards, she stared at me tenderly with a pretty smile. I felt that she was pretending. She strokes my hair and she says :
« I have great news for you. »
I look at her with red eyes because I've been crying all night.
« What is happening ? »
« Nothing serious my dear until you don't like what I'm about to tell you.Actually, you're going to live with me permanently. It's not your fault you know? But your parents don't want you in their house anymore. It's hard to believe it but it's the truth. They have definitely abandoned you.» said my aunt.
My aunt Celine although she hosted me, she continued to beg my parents to let me come home but it was almost impossible. After listening to my aunt, I replied.
« I hate them and I don't care. I can do my life well without them. I could hide the truth from them but if I revealed it to them, it was only because I wanted them to really know me. I was tired of pretending. »
« I understood you Nadege and honestly I support you. I will never judge you because of your sexual orientation. You like women okay and that doesn't concern me. Don't worry. Your parents will get used to this and they can forgive you. Calm down and give them some time. » Said Aunt Celine
« Thank you very much my aunt.» I answered
Following my words, I gave him a hug.
Indeed, I lived in a family whose since very small, my parents neglected me because I was born during a bad period of their life. They never really liked me. I have two sisters ANNA then LUNA and I am my parents' second daughter. My other sisters were treated well, unlike me who always lived alone because of my parents. I was simply the cursed daughter of the family.
« However, I have prepared some rice for you. Get out of bed and come eat.» said my aunt Celine.
« I'm not hungry » I replied
« You haven't eaten anything since yesterday and this morning you don't want to eat anything again? » asked my aunt.
« I swear to you that I am not hungry. I don't even have an appetite. Thinking about what my parents did to me makes my stomach swell. » I added
« Please my darling. Make an effort.» urged my aunt
« OK I understand. But first, I would like to take a shower. » I answered.
« Thank you darling.» said my aunt.
After my words, I get out of bed and go to the shower. Meanwhile my aunt Celine headed for the kitchen. We are foreigners living in Culiacan.
Indeed, Culiacan is far from being a perfect city where a child should grow up. It is the capital of the state of Sinaloa in Mexico. A city where cartels dictate their laws and assassinations are frequent. It is in this city that I grew up. From a young age, I witnessed murders between gangs. It had become a habit for every citizen of this city to see corpses in all the streets. It's downright jungle here.
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