A Wolf's Tears

Vesper's POV:

"Lady Vesper! Come back here!" The courtier hissed as I giggled and ran towards the garden.

I heaved a deep sigh and sat on the hammock chair in our wide garden. I rarely go outdoors... Especially when Emperor and the Empress are here. I sat on the hammock chair and feel the calmness of the wind. Aside from my bedroom, the garden is one of my favourite places in the Kingdom. When I found out that my parents left, it felt as if my heart was touched by an angel sent from above. I closed my eyes as I felt the cold breeze of the wind on my skin. What lovely weather tonight.

"What have you done, Lady Vesper?" The courtier catches her breath as soon as she saw me sitting on the hammock. I gently smiled at her and she nodded her head as she walked towards the tree and stood there silently. She is watching me from afar as I enjoyed the view of our garden.

Inside the Kingdom... Numerous people are living inside the kingdom. Nobody hesitates to talk to someone like me. I am the eldest, I have four siblings. And to believe it or not... I never talked to them. Not even once. I envy them. They can join my other siblings while I am separated. I tried to ask a servant once, I tried to talk to her; she couldn't help herself but respond. Later on, she got kicked out and banned from our Kingdom. Since that day, I never hesitated to talk to anyone. I have no right to talk to them. Especially if it is not relevant. Whenever my parents are here, usually I am staying inside my bedroom. It became my comfort zone. When the sun shines passed through the gigantic window, my soul awakened as soon as I heard the servants. One thing is for sure, they are not going home tonight.

I am happy as if I felt my freedom tonight. Freedom in one night. No one is going to be strict with decisions. No one will command me tonight, servants will obey me. No one is going to be furious about how irresponsible I am. I stayed outside, in the garden while the courtier is standing in front of the tree. I stayed there for several minutes and watches the starry night. When I am done admiring the stars from above, I decided to come back inside. As I walked into the dining hall, I could feel the presence of the courtier behind me. She is following me from behind and I didn't even bother to look at her.

"Food is served,"

Inside the dining hall, there are several seats. There is a long table in the middle and numerous foods. I simply took a breath as I smelled the aroma of the food. I could feel my hands trembling. I am starving, for goodness sake! I cleared my throat when I noticed that my siblings are sitting in front of me. We never talked. They are aloof when it comes to me. I have no reason why they are acting this way when it comes to me. I also don't know the exact reason why they are forbidden to communicate with me.

They couldn't hold eye contact with me. That makes me sick. I could feel how my stomach flipped when our eyes met and all I could see is disgust and terrified emotions in their eyes. How pathetic. Every day and night, we are gathered inside a dining hall. We will eat together but the only thing that can be heard is the noise of the utensils. And the awkward whisper of the atmosphere between us.

As if we are all a stranger gathered at one long table. I only know their names, but since I realized that they were my siblings, that is the time that my curiosity started to bloom. There is a huge hole in my heart. Longing for someone's love. The love between me and my family. When we are done eating, the servants cleared the table. I am a careless person and I am aware of that. The wine glass accidentally slipped on my hand and the wine poured all over my dress. We are obliged to wear fabulous light gowns for our casual outfits every day.

The servant was about to help me but I told her I am going to be fine. There, our conversation ended. As simple as that. That night ended when I decided to sleep in my bedroom. I never thought that I would nod off since I am expecting that I could stay until dawn. However, I was wrong. I woke up when the ray of sunshine touches my skin. Indeed, I am more in love in daylight than I am in love with the moon.

Light gives me hope. Unlike the darkness... It throws me into sadness... And worst, in madness. As I am preparing myself to face the Emperor and the Empress downstairs. I couldn't help myself but feel uneasy as I stared at my reflection in front of the vanity. I was about to fix my hair when I heard somebody knock on my door.

"Come on in," I stated in the calmest way possible. The door opened and it revealed the woman who is wearing the servant's uniform.

"Lady Vesper, the Emperor is waiting for you downstairs." She stated before she slightly bowed her head. I plastered a smile and she closed the door before she walked away.

And for the last time, I glanced at the mirror and fixed my hair before I walked downstairs. I don't know how to explain what I feel when they are around. The only thing I know is I want to breathe. Their presence makes me feel exhausted. But there, when I saw them. I plastered my sweetest smile. Along with my welcoming gestures. What a lovely day to start with a messed up mind and troubled heart.

Inside the huge kingdom, there was a lady who is chasing her freedom.