The Zing Between Us

Have you ever felt a spark between you and someone your soul desires?? Well, for those of you who are lost like a baby bird without a clue in the world, I have a story for you! March 2020, was the month I chose to end my first very real in-person relationship. In that particular relationship I felt trapped, misplaced and unsatisfied. During that 3 month relationship with a fellow member of the LGBTQ+ community I cheated on my partner... Well, technically. I was entertaining another person via Snapchat.

That only consisted of texting throughout the day, sending selfies back and forth also considering future relationships if the other person considered exploring their sexuality. Oh, his name was Caleb by the way. Teehee, I also purchased matching red Iphone cases to match our phones to honor our cute lor friendship. I was 16 during my official first gay relationship, any relationships prior to this just consisted of video calling and that's it. No commitment, no telling family members or friends about one another or purchasing gifts for each of us. I mentally considered this cheating simply because I knew that I shouldn't have been doing this because romantic feelings were being involved with 3rd party individuals. The reason behind me stepping outside of my relationship is because the person I was dating was not my personal preference when it came to my type in men. Oh, it probably would be best to explain that I'm only currently 20 years of age and haven't been in another serious relationship since the pandemic. For entertainment purposes my ideal type till this day baby is A tall medium ugly in the face looking, slim young man with bob-length Locs who has a big personality. Nonchalant 50% of the time is what I prefer. Me on the other hand, I am nonchalant ALL the time. I don't give a FUCK about a damn thang! Okay!? I am very slim and petite with A rather feminine shaped body with A soft backside that pokes like A cute lor peach or sum. Darskin copper brown locs that are almost to my neck. The unique art about my locs are the form of them. They are in layers, the top of my head is more thicker locs while as you get to the bottom of my head they start to get thinner. I even have several different color congos in my head.

The day i fell in love was the day I decided to spontaneously link up with a guy i met on an online-dating app. Every lor gay boy's WORST nightmare. GRINDR. I know. This app is predominantly used for sexual linkups and many other interests. this particular gentleman was 6ft, light skinned, slim, and has a medium curly, black afro. LAWDDD HAVE MERCYY!! A handsome young man who resembles the image i described in my head when praying to god asking for a relationship with a man. A very detailed one at that. We conversated back in forth that day with plans to meet up later on that same night before he went into work. He was an Amazon production warehouse associate. While conversating on the topic of sex, the raging question was asked by the guy. We're going to name him Miguel. Did I mention my name is Tionn?? I'm sorry that was rude and late as hell. Everyone knows me by TeeTee though so you can call me that Boo. He asked, "You got a condom ?". Of course my freak nasty ass that we could fuck raw. OFCOURSE both participants are free from all std's/sti's. Paperwork and results included. Laughing my fucking ass off!

I walked 40 minutes to his house in the nearby neighborhood. He did not live that far from me car wise. But walking distance was a bit of a stretch. He met me by the front porch and guided me through the humungous backyard they owned. Which I hoped we had sex in. A dream still waiting to happen lol. It started to rain so he asked me did I smoke. When I replied, "Yes". He said, "Okay, because I had just rolled up and was not really sure if you had smoked tree on the regularly daily basis you know??". He led me in the house and downstairs to the basement where a seperate room locates. If you don't understand what it means to roll up, that's when you prepare to have smoking session typically with 2 or more people but you can definititely do this alone. That i personally recommend. Buut you roll up a tobacco leaf wrap with marijuana to smoke. some are familiar with the acts of such Earth grown Herb. I was honestly thrown off. For a good reason of course. Most sexual linkups are normally quick and most likely in a place where you have to keep your voices low and no smoking allowed. for obvious reasons we were cable be of doing everything that night. We smoked and talked as we got to know eachother very well. We actually hit it off pretty well and easy it felt like water. His astrology sign is Aries, even though they hold the fire element under their belts. which makes their personality crazy in a sense. A good crazy, our connection was fluent and did not need extra effort to spark a flame. He reminded me a lot like my previous friendship with a guy I fell in love with. He also gained feelings for me as well but that's another story. Muah, big checks. Miguel was funny and had a wide range of humor. He complimented me so respectfully and vulgar too plenty of times throughout the night. Easily time went by and I had already spent 4 hours at his house. His vibe was unmatchable, something I had not experienced before with another man. He was fine as fuck. Like I would describe him as a medium-ugly guy. Those types of people are normally seen at as very fine in a sense. But that was only in pictures for him. As I was walking to his house I imagined what he would look like in person and I just knew instantly in my head that he was going to be the finest looking thing walking this earth. He definitely was I could not stop admiring his facial features. He made me feel tremendously comfortable and welcomed. The feeling that I received made my body feel warm and loose.

The sexual tension quickly began to rise. Picture the mood being in a low dim evening room with candles lit and a warm bubble bath waiting in the bathroom,