a
w day. It felt like a continuation of the
ded to be done. Lily's door was closed, the soft glow of her nightlight visible beneath it
ing to my shoulders. When I looked at myself in the mirror afterward, my face seemed flatter, drained
nd asked if she could wear her favorite sneakers again. I said yes
. A friend who borrowed her pencil. I responded when needed, nodded when appropria
I didn't check my phone either. I drove straight to work, gri
r. Predictable. I took comfort in that. I answered emails. File
because that was eas
uzzed in my bag. I ignored it un
to the bathroom an
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e misse
ext fo
get to shut
the words, my
ply, deleted it
barge into my life
idn't
nto my bag. My hands were shaking again. I leaned m
didn'
idn't
n't thro
st kept
way home. The aisles were crowded, the lights too bright. Lily sat in the
time," I said
eckout, my c
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hen
tomach
quickly to the cashier.
at me, curious
ent through t
barrassment even though no one seemed to notice. Outside, I loa
t, I sat for a moment
the part Eva
. Where mistakes had consequences.
lped Lily with a drawing she was determined to finish. T
ble while I cleaned up. She hummed soft
" she said
"Ye
dy coming
hcloth in my han
ed, then ad
ed to loo
d on her paper instead. Her small
od?" I ask
ged. "He mak
swall
okay,"
t in the way only children could manage. "Y
d harder than anyt
hed beside her chair. "I'm work
ment, then nodded, satisfied en
of bills spread out in front of me. I sorted them carefully, making no
one buzz
pick it up
a voicemail from Evan. Hi
id. "You're acting like I d
without listen
er notificati
from an unk
. I think we shoul
the screen fo
Adu
ace down on the tabl
that was already clean, just to give my hands something to do. Outside, a car pas
light fade and st
didn'
dn't fa
e counter, aware that this was only the beginning
a slow pull.
utside Lily's room. I opened the door just enough to see her,
oor quietly and w
d come whether I
eet it the same
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