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a's
and, Dorian's twe
. Happy days didn't really exist inside the Ha
econd, before I was fully awake, I thought: today might be different. Then I heard the voices outside
t seven when the
trust me to dress myself. I'm not sure she trusted me to do anything, if I'm honest. Exce
omen walked in, carrying bags and cases. Vivienne walked in behind them. She was already dr
looked at
problem that needed solving. "Add extensions. Lots of them. I won't have her walking around today looking like a peasant. My son is tu
gue. She just agreed, which was w
I see exactly what yo
eflection in the mir
long time ago, that saying anything on
at chair fo
were pressing into my scalp. Every time I opened my mouth to say anything... even some
lipstick needs to be set perfectly. If you keep moving, we'l
ist in the mirror. She p
n August. The silk is pulling at the waist. It makes you look..." She paused, as if searching for a word that was just polite enough to say out loud. "...fa
. There was absolutely no
ick and glossy, her makeup was flawless, her dress was simple
looked like a doll that had
r at all. I didn't re
~
y began
n and flowers that probably cost more than most people's monthly rent. Servers in white j
t the Hargrove world was beautifu
for. I heard Dorian mentioning it once, almost a year ago. I remembered because I always paid attention to him more than he ever paid attention t
m near the
. His tuxedo was perfectly fitted. I
hday, honey. I got you something. I spent a long time finding it. I thou
is eyes were scanning the crowd over my shoulder,
d. "Don't try making tod
our birthda
sun. She might get a headache. I need to bring her a drink before sh
and tried to ke
e entire job tonight is to carry drinks. Can't you stay here for
ce tig
ting my feelings, but because he didn't want to create a scene. "She's my mother, Nadia
d right
lder. He just stepped around
I had gotten very good at breathing through moments like this. It was either th
ind somewhere to sit, a
introduced to Dorian by Vivienne a few months ago... a model from a good family, Vivienne had said, as if she wer
reaching out to touch Dorian's arm. He was laughing back. He looked
ugh my chest. And I
th another woman at his birthday party. I wrapped my arm through Dor
g to wonder where you disappeared to." I turned to look at Lena, still smiling. "Oh
a bug on her shoe. Then she
oks." She glanced at me from head to toe. "Some people just
red at my elbow. She was older, elegantly dressed,
ning color. That shade of blue is absolutel
suddenly, Vivienne mate
oked at my dress and then looke
Nadia doesn't really have a strong eye for fashion. She tends to gravitate toward things that look expensive but aren't, if you know what I mean." She laughed softly. "It's difficult to teac
nicured hand. She made a sound tha
n is practically a language. You
slightly uncomfortable. She glanced betwe
in my face, then
is mother to stop. To defend me, even once.
at the ground. Like
ss for me. He picked it himself. He told me it was the most beautiful thing he'd seen in years." I looked at her steadily. "So if you
hat followed
ell open. Vivienne's expression didn't change exactly,
lt a hand
ri
me away properly because that would have been too visible. He just gripped me and leaned i
not talk to my mother like that. Do you understand me? This is her event. These
orward. I kept m
quietly. "In front of the stylists. She said the dress makes me look fa
ying to h
jaw was tight. "She is cruel. And you stand next to
d works. You don't. And instead of being grateful that she tries to show you, you stand here and make scenes and make me look like I can't c
go of
were red marks where
ing because I didn
ather in law, Richard's voice cut th
by men in dark suits. Richard himself was tall and broad, he was the kind
sed hi
to know that he's become such a fine young man." He smiled. "He has a great deal still to learn, about
rden e
Dori
lasses. I raised mine too, because I was
wn also. He stood for a moment, the glass still in his hand, and hi
untain and the people who h
anded
s eyes were warm. It was the only warmth I had felt all day. Then, just as quickly as it happened, he mov
h I hadn't realiz
~
to the gi
fectly wrapped gifts from jewelers and designers and the kinds of people who
hat it was from me.
to nobody. My voice was barely a w
ther now, deep in a conversation, probably planning a wedding that didn't include me. I looked
ooked at
having, by all appearanc
he family name. I had given up the friends who made me feel like myself because they didn't fit the Hargrove social calendar. I had give
It wasn't even love anymore, if I was hone
ass of wine from
cided to grip my arm again. I stood in the middle of the beautiful, g
asy to mistake beautiful for good. It was so easy to look at marble
ersation with one of his business partners, gesturing
ne who had looked at
Dorian," I said
to run until 4pm. It wa
traight and holding my glass correct
o it for
ee years. What's one
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