A'S
onths
rent window mirror, my eyes bla
ttempted taking my own life a number of times-so much that my
bed my belly, and I
gotten pregnant from th
ted in me. I mean, the three of us barely had enough to feed and c
where he was now, what he was doing. What my parents had
e more information ou
till going after nume
d intensely a
m would count as one of those numero
the first few months of our
as just one of his flings, and whatever the
d yet and sometimes caused strange s
ar
jump off the balcony?" my mother screamed in pan
had been standing at the edge of the balcony that w
at beside her and spoke, her voi
uicidal thoughts? You shouldn't think of doing
ust taking in the cool evening br
rry and calmed down a bit when
anything since morning? You
hat would cause her to worry more. Instead, I r
ws will be arriving in a few hours' time. They dec
kly regained my composure and re
me while I go heat up my
nd shut the door behind me, I
days' time, to a sixty-something-year-old man
age, and they had obliged immediately-happy to have found a man who would
blame them. It was
hat I was carrying a baby but didn't seem to
ght of? Escaping?
on hadn't cheated on me, if I didn't know A
-
ays l
ctivity going on in e
be in high spirits-
regnancy bulge, I tried my best to force a smile on my face to at least show a
refusal to eat anything. I just wanted to die to escape this bondage in the form
d into the room and announced, and the fe
trance of the door, ready to walk down
. "What would other people think if they
dness and pity in the de
smile on my face, but it see
e the guests cheered loudly. I reached my seat in
glimpse of 'the groom,' and I
ugh to be my father-or in b
hed me a smile that showed off his crooked lowe
f the priest came out loud and clear as t
n slowly approached me, a crooked
... o
loser to mine, I rec
egs give way and my h
I was having
by some unknown force. The red spot on my neck sudden
look unwell," I hea
om a faraway distance while I was bei
voice in my head...
at
rgent, and demanding at the sa
result of my starving
y and remained still, as
ere are you?" the voice
-I
h speaking, a commot
ront of the ceremony hall, closely
und of a groan, followed by
on the floor, his face twisted into an ugly, pai
down, and as if being controlled, I
ad stopped for a moment
bed into mine as if sc
from him screamed d
y mind refusing to proc
front of me was Asher Fenri
m say this same word t
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