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ngle line of the doc
urring into something meaningless no matter how many times I tried to force my focus back onto them. M
on. Meetings happened. People walked with purpose. Phones ran
hing ex
er into my eyes until light fractured behind them. For a moment, I stayed like that, hol
ched for my
t there, I p
lling something tight across my chest. I listened until it cu
elf time to think b
rang. And t
e than necessary before immediately reaching for it again. My thumb h
anyway.
tened to the automated message, her voice absen
started, t
to a different version of me, one that had not a
all without le
felt small
r behind me. My jacket hung over the backrest; I grabbed it
oked up the mome
have a me
cut in, already moving p
thrown off, but nodded
not slo
ticking down with an almost deliberate slowness. I shifted my weig
ing lot, my thoughts had narrowed in
ed to s
I stopped at intersections, though I could not recall making the decision to do so. My grip on th
she not a
her building, my chest felt tight, li
here for a moment, my hands
I step
p landed heavier, deliberate, as if the gro
d once. T
ugh the hallway, swallowed qui
an
the door, my ears straining
again, louder this
ed for my phone once more. I dialed her number, lifting it
for a moment longer before knocking again, harder
ock cl
just enough for a
op
a split second before her expression hardened,
ed to clos
, my hand pressing agains
Wa
old approach," she said coolly. "Showing up uninvited and then physi
d to se
sement. "Of course you do. That seems to be a pattern
aze, steady.
ely. "So you can finish whatev
ned. "I am not
her head slightly. "Apologize? Rewrite history? Pretend you
did
nough to carry weight. "Do not stand here and try to e
," I said, forcing my tone t
reading through it now. "That is all," she repeate
d slowly.
htening. "You do not get to say my name l
into the apartment, searchi
here, is sh
ost satisfied flickering there. "You cam
r the q
er gaze dragging over my face a
ou said. After everything you did. What exactly ch
ngers flexing sligh
see her,"
shaking her head slightl
he only o
moment, then laughed softly,
ng about what you need," she said. "It would alm
e strain creeping into my voice despite my eff
t her, say a few carefully chosen words, and
walking awa
outh before I could
something flickering across he
he said slowly. "It would have m
rom behind her,
oph
shoulders shifting as he
sion composed, though there was something
," I said, strai
lied, her tone polite but distan
e to se
moment, taking in more t
uld that be?
f the question settling mo
eak with her,"
ncredulous breath. "That s
lightly, silencing her wit
he said, her voice even. "Before things reached
tened. "What d
ued, her tone steady, "
as if the answer might cha
ill she
d my gaze. "Sh
felt narrow
stion more quietly now, edged with
slightly against the doorframe.
m ask
osing not to ans
ck at Mrs. H
in her expression, just slightly
id. "And for now, that
ent longer, the silence
he movement slower tha
lri
expecting me to push further, to a
tepped back, my hand fal
ex," Mrs. Har
y head slight
losed with
wood where it had been open seconds before,
of my footsteps following me down the hal
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