erbert
ll to his apartment building through a dam
y used to park his Porsche in the back alley so none of his fraternit
ntic. I told myself real intimacy needed no witnesses, that wi
ad ever made came floodi
inner because he had a headache and insist
master bathroom for two hours, curled up on the hard
the upscale apartment building
rm, looked up from the front
Herbert. Mr. Pittm
here to pick up some tax
evator and watched th
, I stood in front of
s. It was the anniversary of his grandmother's death,
ort and sharp, and the re
d and tr
ight blin
appeared on the dis
tly in the s
clicked fro
yway. He was still wearing his tuxedo pants, but his bow tie
h an undertone of Sherry's
his hand froze on the brass latch, a
't work," I sai
is gaze sliding past my sho
"Sherry came by to help me pick cufflinks for the gala. She said
as if he were disc
s bare feet, then at
ir of green satin heels ha
bedroom. "Did you find my silk robe? The shower wa
gid, his jaw
ce and blocked most of the d
voice full of caution. "Tyler spilled his drink on her in
ed pas
didn't have a
as only the half bath off the kitche
augh slipped o
the laugh of relief, of an
tending not to care for? Joey, you humiliated yourself at that gala tonight. Slamming a ke
rd and my birth certificate," I s
for the familiar signs: the tears of grieva
und n
till as a frozen
ised ego sent his tempe
ness function for my father's company. That's how the real world works! You hav
rawer,
nd retreated into
you get your head smashed out th
e manila envelope holding my personal documen
ssy printed brochure
said, arms crossed, leaning against the marble countertop. "Forty thousand a year, decent benef
lope and opened it t
certificat
ort was t
the library three days ago and quietly tucked be
ven bothered to o
hat my life was supposed to run on t
ics brochure lyin
eed the jo
y sc
at some nonprofit, aren't you? Joey, wake up. You have no fallback. Your gra
ted at renting a studio of my own, whenever I mentioned applyin
oneliness into a c
ting his eyes, holding them. "Which
ut before he could speak,
d in her own cream silk robe, her d
d when she saw
l, tight with alarm. "What is
dn't loo
d on me, his breath
me papers," Avery said, and e
ped the black thrift-store coat up to m
after me, hurrying to
old and turned my head
from down the hall, "I'll make it up to you. We'll go to Chicago, just the two of us. I'll even post a picture of
ught four years of humiliation could be wiped out with a weeke
y evening, Av
door shut behind me. The electronic lock c
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