After Grace
of his cheeks and valley of his eyes but there was nothing. He
ked, not as much a qu
know you were tr
stood and hung the wet jacket on a branch. He pulled a cig
asked, confused
other children who get cu
I
. I stood there in the dark, words and thoughts failing me. I walked back through the skeletal forest, his words rattling between my ears. I
who took care of me when I was a child. I had been passed through the community like an unwelcome house pet, not as much
d. When the anger of his accusations finally settled in my stomach, I realized he was right. The o
lay two others; members of the community who hadn't survived our last move. Dead leaves fell around me as a chilled November wind came ripping through the tops of h
t a name or any semblance of a story for the boy, there was little else he could do. Typically, when we gathered to bury one of own, the
side me matching each step. The chatter usually didn't st
e? He could have led them righ
uple ahead of me and the girls behind all spoke in hushed tones, no one could keep quiet. I listened t
ph said, when he realized I was ju
nized me,
" he
om
g. Before I could wonder why I heard
d the angry hiss of someone whose patience was running ou
y he
h the uneasy crowd until I realized no one was holding me there. I walked around the elders in front of the line
or put both his hands on their shoulders. He spoke too low for us to hear. Mike turned with a sour face to the pastor, as if to ask, are you sure? The pastor nodded and Mike stepped aside. Tom marched into the armory an
off shotgun stuck out from the duffel. People began filtering in as Tom quietly talked to the pastor. Joseph moved c
around me swayed on their feet, each talking over the othe
, " Tom said. "You won't be in danger,
it on the ground. "We're leaving." He took Da
epped in his way. "It isn't safe to leave until
planning? You want us to w
people prisoner. I s
m not going off into a town I don't know to fight for people
d a few tears for a dead boy, but when
astor said. "There's plenty of
camp toward the Southern exit. The forest spread North for miles, South of us there were
oking at me from across camp. A
M
t, nineteen
I said, fee
you s
he's a child, " he said. I wanted to argue the
come, " Tom
re. We can't save everyone Tom.
looked me in the eye. He turned back to Josep
" Joseph i
w what?"
he's a manipulat
d I'm the liar?" he picked up the rifle. "If hiding in the forest is how you al
about? Know what?
you, just not when he lied. I scanned the crowd, their eyes were half watching me and half trying not to. I knew this feeling well, only it h
as I followed Tom. "What don't I know?" I asked
d. I ignored him, my
My heart beat dang
eyes on this thing, help
t shoot, I never l
teac
r spots, all waiting for it to end. None of them willing to take a single step fr
it here and hide all your
without thinki