Scarcely Bemused

illating the ceiling. Arms extended to both corners of the furniture, a blanket half tugged on her body,

she's not feeling well. This day is not analogous to the days she forked out i

did she really desire? Did she solely think of him the whole day

friendliness of her surrounding for she is not going anywhere around her knickkna

s writ

ed in sk

with the queries of her. A dominant statement that mistoo

excavate ano

hesitated,

uainted with Baron, her brother. Whoever he is, he still shan't have stolen her prope

s entwined. Kane bit her lower lip, staring into noth

e air, her breathings slower, her feelings weighty. Whe

l of her mocking chaos, and her eyes glum in a haze of her watery eyes. Her shoulder

lass, and a frame beguiles her focus. Not the lilacs in he

and the visua

s sleeves, shaded dark; four girls vertically lined at the front while three boys are at their back, and their s

my

llect it from her memories perfectly without a mistake as if she's c

ses that one specific subject: her party. There's something horrible, excruc

jour

d slate-tiled floor of her apartment, her fuchsia nightdress

she knew she has to wash her face for it's not thirst, it's a habit of her

ruts toward the kitchen, at the left, where there are only a sink, a cupboard, a coffeemaker, and other necessiti

sink: her brownish eyes with a glint of pain and disparity, lips

been com

the sink as her hand crawled onto the sides of it, soak and rough, as her gawk never left its mouth. Then the stability

rtling her. She lets out a subtle sigh, palms fetching water. Leaning closer, she rinsed he

ed, and sobbed. Supporting her stand, an arm on the wall, tears rolling down disguisi

st journal that's been written

ody's entries? Kane has plenty of drowning inquiries she can't understand and she can't analyze. Especially that, why is she in

ge in her intellect. She felt cold, weeping drained her

that it's consented

by its jinxes. They are jingling in Kane's mind, and one last ti

with what she intends to express, but she knows none will dive into her to discover that the despair in her is upsetting.

stern her tone. "Heav— Heaven knows. It knows," her s

nightmares. Sometimes, she's frigh

to drink her pills, it may help her take a nap. She scanned the kitchen, gets c

ed, tensed. Please, you

She is but troubled and nervous. That she'll cry all nigh

from her past, they cause inconvenience in

bed it. Trembling, she dared to pull it with all of her remaining strength, b

wobbling knees, and her running tears did not conspire. Kane shakes her head, her

a new set of trials. She may have to bring about her expens

hone call conversati

chotherapist, Kane?" her Kuya Baron asked over the p

a whisper, "in the result, and to what will

rned to

been cornered by the bottle of her medicine, the wall beside her sets her body

her first month or the previous months when she was in college as a senior, she has this sequence of terrors as sh

dimmed, and she's suffocated by her breathings,

r miseries not sicken her this time? Would her episodes be l

to satisfy. That if she ever used this last resort, it co

NED being

e, she pulled her blanket on the bed and tossed it somewhere at the top corner of it as her knees kissed

can't find it. It took, at most, three min

re. Her weeping discontinued, no tears left to cry, no sobs left to hear, no he

ed, Baron's voice can be

rd to learn the language that beguiled you. Now, look at you in you

ow can I communicate with my students who aren't eloquent in our dialect?" Kane reasoned out, sitting on her single sofa, clasping the mug of coffee in her hand. "I don't want to get farther on teaching esp

ou'll do will be for yourself." He sighed. "It is only us now that is living the life of our clan, and we're the only ones who are

at it when she went home, has bathed, and embarked on resting. So she too

by her side, the only person she can lean on to. Th

pick up. She stilled to try, frantic to talk to him over a call so tha

wn. She bit her lower lip, arms quivering, heart beating fast. It rema

cried her feelings, her soul. What Kane did, it's a way she has at that

is a

erted by no on

n't go after yet. She didn't take her medicine, exhausted enough to slumber. It's a stew of sensible frenzy and quandarie

head, threads in her heart. She slept in her slumber, unqualified for what hereafter c

n the window near the foot of her bed, a bare of timidly light black. It has farewell lik

een tw

kend ha

ains not to

ection is the goblet of her soulless seas. Set on her alarm is ratio four and twenty-two. H

, her mind kept up with troublesome thoughts. It's a pursuit for her agony, something she has to pa

, trousers, and shoes, she began her exercise. Perhaps this is better than staring at nothin

redeem

sun uncloaked itself in the sky as a straw dress glistening amidst the blinded populace. There still are a few

in it like serene predestination, addressing the clueless ground with its majestic entrance.

cold metallic piece of a balustrade as the other is on her chest, her top clothes soaked in sweat as it feel

e there fo

reathe for the betterment of her days to transpire. Someday, she'll be doing fine, laughing her ass o

her lips halfway disclosed, her hair intact in a bun style, t

om Eli Bethsaida, a capital, a part of the metropolitan area, filled with high-end buildings standing tall and proud. She once visited that and

She came here for that, however, not most of the time. For she would like to

ike abstract. Her feet strut closer to the guardrail, the tummy of hers bussed by its cold silve

her lifetime rarely to have a glimpse of demise's wrong pacts for she thus cherish

er on its support. If she continues this habit, she may not be able to be normal for the rest of her liv

never anticipated. Minute by minute, the sun in

gs barking in the background, wind c

ith its typical rush

, screaming, her voice at the prime of

. The city lights are one by one being turned off like the radiants o

ter, vibrated. With a furrow and

n the guardrails. "Kan

ister

widened, nec

Sanctuary." The boy chuc

"Clarence?" All she can utt

ence assured. "The one a

hesitated,

azel cal

nd

he guy stated, pulling off a gus

spond, tickle

," Clarence continued. "Includ

ho has wr

th, and Clarence must be liable for that event. S

nd, undoubtedly, sh