LOST IN LUST

:The life

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people says, I didn't find a perfect match for that's why? No... My case is t

e but I had it. And it's treatment took long, s

e would have never do such mistakes. She loves me, so am I. Parents love there children it is normal. I was so shy to talk about it. I also start ignoring the matter that this Can even cause my life. When it itches, I used to pour warm water and it feels good but only fo

rt working, not like hiding. Now it

of cancer. And the doctor told us clearly I can not do any sexual

ner. I share my sorrow with my best friend only but it an

art gossiping that I slept with so many men that is how I got the s

e anyone came across to be friends with me.

with me, who want an disease in return of love and I am the only women in world . B

nterest in me. Why would the

every one k

I will have Noone by my side ever. My mom used to cry for Mr, cursed me and compl

side. It will be easy. No tension about b

ze this family is life. I understand,

s hurtful. You will understand it when you will be alone and noone by your side. It can feel great

start crying and after

lf is here. I am looking after my

ney. My job give me everything, I can live by it only. My medicine, food, clothes etc. And aas like this life runs and so as I. It

n child, bringing them up, doing house hold work and one day for park walk or family

my only motivation. Noone is here to look after me, when I become sick, noone was there. Crawling on my own

share your happiness but noone share your sorrow or tear.

Every one think that I will die soon but still run

k me all not to cry. You can call me a j

ucky they are! Some people curve for comitment. Some people can die for a men

Untouched burden. I clearly remember he said with a sadistic smile on his face "Eleana, you said you are virgin. I attacked me most

nything with you. I can only watch you beauty but what next? If I can not love you and can't make babies with you. Why should I waste my time on you! I

the use of it. I can not do what a men wants from women and they don'

g them with mean name. I fell bad for them an

urt out heart, it feels like stabing on heart by

life, they have to add more salt in

eyes. I look at my scarf, think I should hang up. Some times in crying I fell in sleep. And sometimes I make connection with my scarf and fan to check, how will the deed will done. After eve

happy but around other pe

n home and doing my home, sleep,

n old women and noone believe me that I am fine now. I can do sex and have babies. Everyone think I am telling lie. I try to date b

g anyone my life. I start lovin

ke that. I know it cause harm to helath but I was the way to mak

d to to get married and hav

e and me alway

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