Untangled Faith

nd date that I'm currently living in, but my mind and heart want

en an antidote can erase them. All my emotions are submissively expressed

ow. Yesterday was really a traumatizing event that happened in

Nakakatawa na ngayon ko lang napagtanto na umaga na pala. I guess my room is connecting in

ma at parang pasyente na hindi makagalaw. Raindrops on my eyes are continuously flowing on my cheeks,

because of a car accident, and her best friend didn't wa

cause that's the only chance I could provide for myself to express my feelings for her.

my door like he wants to destroy it in order for her to

h are u

a while to take

? Come on Criziah, come to your senses right now becaus

o hear it, i know my sister very well even though she's behin

litang 'matalino at matapang'. Siguro hindi na mabubura sa kani

en value my self and keep invalidating my opinion and thoughts! I can't even differ

ntal illnesses occupied my brighter side of my self. I can't

emically good!! In terms of life? bulshit! Criziah can't

ight now? how to en

an mo tong pinto for God's sake!! I know you know, we both know that its an ACCIDENT!! Hindi mo

or pretending that

y if you knew that before my best friend died i didn't have a chance to say this words

answered for the reason that I'm not brave enough t

troying. I gave up laying my bed and slowly carrying my energy to

my body already walking towards the direction of my door because my soul still on my bed. I don't want to open the door b

elf. I hope she's ready of what might she encountered of me. My sister produces a lot of air

sy

cause of end

eye

e l

after the accident, she automatically gazed her eye

are ev

cating every s

k r

have alre

e, she encountere

right now. Coming from her reaction, I'm 100 perc

f silence

door in order for her to vanished from my two eyes. I hate that other people pity me, I know that I'm a loser but I

u

ta

o baho mo na kasi wala kapang ligo, kung

etending? I admit that I never experienced this side of her. How can she

ngunit binabago niya ang mga desisyon ko.

ang maglilinis dito tutulongan na kita basta maligo ka mu

akatayo ngayon upang pumasok sa kwarto ko. I l

right now but I'm probably sure I will di

A

e people lending me their hand in order for them to help me but she still does. Ang pinaka ayoko ang mga taong tumutulong at kinakaawa ang posisiyon ko, just mind yo

ssed m

eed your help, coming from you that I'm brave

head on my direction and

eed my

i pro

ons but that will never be a reaso

g yourself from me will do. It's enough that I face you even though Im damage physically and mentally but what

gain and wiping my t

ile you're aware of how I look like. Ate kung pinapasaya mo ako by cleaning my room, hindi yan uubra dahil ang kailangan ko ngayon a

mained

y a loser for saying this to my

too fragile to accept her opinion. I need to distance myself from this house because its so unhealthy for me to stay her. As i lea

eed

y questions, i will be back to my sister and hug her tight. Hin

AYOS KO PA ITO. Malaki ang epekto ng pagkawala ni Ino

se my parents left us while we were young, my father died bec

i will commit suicide so that I will burr

t now, he