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ffocated, but yet it as though someone had their hands around my lungs, slowly crushing the air out of them. I kept my eyes closed and my head between my legs and chest, I knew the moment I o

es, unfurling them from the clenched position they were in. No words were spoken as I was hoisted on to his lap and was slowly rocked, the only sound that could be heard was

ad no control of it anymore as I sat there on the hardwood floor, which was where I had collapsed after trying to stand, tears dripping down my face. This was how Xander found me, he came into my room saying that he heard my erratic heartbeat and wanted to see if I was okay, I could not even bring my face up to look at him, so ashamed of myself. He immediately fell silent, no bombarding of questions on why I

collapse to the ground. It was as if my mind was never at peace, at night it was plagued with nightmares that were so vivid and clear that I had to assure myself they weren��t real, in the day, my training mates morphed into members of the Black Blood Pack. This caused me to train harder in the day and try to for

em comfortable h

r face as she caught me looking at my surroundings with disgusts. I had developed an intense dislike

ad experi

ut her eyes told me that

how can I

o what I had experienced at the hands of Damien and the two goddesses but what confused me was the fact that they were all happe

orest when we were running aw

gesturing with her hands to try and explain the si

ood what you had gone through. Her constant companionship made me feel awful as I was guilty of separating her from Jared, especially during such an important period of time in their lives. Chloe was now expecting their first child, granted she was only a month pregnant, but still, she should be with Jared... not me. I remember my eyebrows almost escaping to my hairline when she first told me about the news, after a

acks could be because her mind is

an oxymoron, I had panic attacks bec

se the environment around did not allow you to feel safe and secure, which kept your mind on constant alert. You somehow repressed your feelings of anxiety and fear because your mind was too preoccupied as you fought to ensure your survival,, but now, you feel secure here, even if you don��t think so. You know you are safe here and so your mind is not preoccupied with thoughts of escap

d on the nape of my neck. His thumb applied soft pressure and would rub the side of my neck

ic attacks? I mean, I cannot live w

d most importantly, I hated having

person who made you vulnerab

pen to gestu

ion to your heartbeat and whenever you look at Xander

just looked at his feet causin

d thank him for being by my side. There was an awkward silence for a while before I manned up and asked if he could stay in my room, he looked at me in shock when heard me. The both us, despite being in mates, have been sleeping in different rooms since I arrived. Xander had arranged this himself as he wanted to go slow so that I would feel comfortable as I had just been thrown into a completely new s

ings into my room, he surprised me again when he placed pillows on the couch, which was way too small for him, it was too small for even me to lie down comfortably. I asked him if that was where he w

e was now. On the third night, I asked him to join me on the bed and sleep because I really did feel bad watching him contort his body to fit onto that couch, especially aft

such a weaklin

ement to myself than

wn fears and flaws, but that is what makes us human. Ack

ate go back to normal. I could feel the mattress move as he scoot

pphi

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we can go for a run together, the forest should be

actually asked me for my permission...

ure

eyes, a small smile on my face, sl