Who to choose: Lover or love?
posed to be back today but I won't be surprised if they decided to stay longer. From the few
happy. She deserves the happiness and peace she is getting. It sucks not havi
nt to my former flat to go and get my stuff and of course idiot Xavier was there but I'm not eve
me he was beyond perfect. But when I think of hum now all
to put on some silly comedy on Netflix. I c
embered that you st
I'm fine thank
rcastic. Hi Lily,
ow you miss me but I
yeah
f bed and come open the door
? You are here?
now come ope
en it there Lily is with lots of bags. I run to her and take her in
Missed me
tle to
ay more often." She says l
otional. I really missed her and having someone to. I've been sitting in my r
lk. And you can tell my what's
e I feel l
talking. I told her about catching Xavier and what went do
e at the flat at ten and would really appreciate it if he was not there when I arrive. When I arrived at the flat he was not
did not want to cry in front of him. When I did not budge he left the room and I heard the
e you. You are my reason for living, losing you means dying. So I can't let you go. I'
her chance but nothing worked. Hours passed till mom came
voice and started screaming. He had no other choice than to let me go, since he is
er. It's not like it will change anything or what happened. When I finished there were
or hurt you in
phone and locked th
ked in the room till you die? Like we
ys will eventually stop calling. It's not like y
that's not
ver. And I didn't correct him because if he knew you would come t
sorry for what you went through.
I'm all
d mom always comes over to visit, e
up someday. i can lie but what's the poi
n, I'm
om because he used to say that you two are busy bodies and controlling. That you two want
dare he..." I had to use all my strength to hold her
it do going to
get rid of al
arted laughing. I knew she would
her arms across her chest
entertaining to you b
at myself than at him. But can w
nking of him gives me
ing again. This she takes on of the cus
Autumn. Why did you sta
him. He made me feel so great and so loved. I never saw
ally ar
ce made me less naïve. Or s
reliving it so you joke to make it seem fine but it's not fine. You have every right to f
e sis. I'll be fine, I j
s. You are young and still have many heartbre
ou are acting more and mor
take these two bags." She p
lete outfit. A dress shoes and accessories. One more elegant th
at are
one is for tonight and the ot
d sis you didn't need to
lebrated and we can't tomorrow because you need your bea
necessary sis. I co
se I have a sur
surp
hours to have your hair and make-up done. Oh and before
inish my sentence she stood up an
a dinner pretending I'm fine while I can feel myself slipping into this dark place
r-ending sadness. I know that at some point I need to start living again but I don't know how t