Pain under his spell

e I spend time with him, the more I'll fall. The longer it goes on, the more I

nt to walk away but... I know that no matter what I do, someone will pull me back. I don't want to leave him

is my half. I spend most of my time with him. We spend more time together than my parents. So... so how do I get out of this? How can I get up? How can I avoid it? He is p

y rare. Consisted of an honor student, family-oriented, campus role model, and a standard. I'll admit that he's not hard to lo

onfess..." I whispered while st

om completely closing the door of this room. I know there is no hope. So I should stop. I'm his best friend and I need to remain on that stage. I don't wa

e last thing I heard Aze say before

n the company of others is not. Never because I just want to be me. I just want to be the girl he cooks for. I just want to be the girl he will take care of... the girl he will ride on his motorcycle... the girl who will always be by his side...

s always with...

come into his life where they will share the lov

up and bear all of the emotions that showering my system. I know that there is a small part of me that wants him to like me too. Of course, who doesn't want to be liked by the person they like? We all want to feel the love that we have already given t

can't blame Heart because she's the one who wants the person I like. This is love... and in love... not everything we crave

most panicked when

. I don't know what to answer. I don't wa

nestly said. "I miss M

e down. I sniffed the reason why I smelled his manly scent. No..

ght catch a cold and get sick from crying too much. Next month, y

is shoulder. Why are you so numb? Why can't you feel that I lik

out me? How can I remove these hurtful fe

kly let go of his embr

.. I want to get away from him first. I was so attached to him that I l

because the gaze that met me was so soft. He looked at me softly

s waiting for me to say I was

ook his head "No.

ip on me. I tried my best to fake a sm

e memories here, Cha. Besides, you can't

can live with m

if you have projects, it might be late at night. What if you always go home

ake my laugh even deep

eone is worried about me. Someone is afraid that something bad will

u're not around." he hones

gentle eyes. "Let's practice not b

he asked

ence "It's not good that we're always together. Loo

Look, Cha. Your point is clue

ant to get used to always having you by my side. You always have my

f," he said in disbeli

e that. We can st

ed. "When are you leaving

wants me to move already? Why is it as if he has n

asked so that I would be ready. I will also help you organize your things. I want to..." He stopped and hugged me. "I really want you not to move

ear. I just want to escape. I just want to forget. Is it possible that when I walk

u treat me, Aze." I sto

-w

you kept on handling me gently? When you always prioritize me first. When do you always take

the chores... always you. Just.." I shook my head and s

ourself, Cha. If you need me.

t him to take away this sad emotion. I want him to handle my heart softly like how

ise because the house next to ours might complain. Maybe I

thout stuttering. Even though my whole being is disappearing. I still

oon. I really don't want to drin

turned his back and was about to

"L-are you going to date

rom his mouth again even though I know that I know the

he simp

ully before jumping into my soft be

the closing of the door, my tears started to fall

rts s

be. Aze is not hard to love. Many girls can fall in love with hi

lder. I immediately raised an eye

ing to bed?" His handsome fa

blanket again. I'm still sleepy

not right that you're all asleep because it's not t

We ate in silence because I wasn't in the mood to talk, and if h

yers. Will you watch?" He asked as he leaned agains

nswered simply whil

h so we can go home together

ll

wrong?" he asked gently s

"I just answered your questi

joking or what "Do you have a problem, Ch

Aze. I'm stressed because of my

ed and sitting down. I raised my eyebrows to give him a

subject are you struggling w

"I can

ut I want to he

ty," I said laughing before sitti

e wants to talk to me so that I can forget t

led him so he

litating his looks were. I stopped my hand

that neither one dislikes the other. I'm just curious and there are many what-ifs in my mind." I said wi

cted like he wasn't surprised. He chuc

chance? A chance for us to

ship, Cha. I want us to stay as best of friends with each other. So

ions. Giving me a chance to be your girl or letting go me as your frien

rthinking and stop thinking about those what-ifs. Maybe you'r

he could answer. I don't know why I'm acting like this. Maybe because I know that this is the time that I'm not yet ready... to see Aze lov

," Jake pointed

ace towel. We are here today at the school gym and instead of wa

th Hanzel?" he asked be

mpus. He is the tall and handsome reason why many g

h basketball now." I was able to sneak

add more salt on it. I know that they can pull the best couple here on campus. I know many wi

know that he's flirting with her? So you

s handed to me and wiped some sweat from hi

aining with Heart. Heart might think I'm a side chick because I'm always with

ate them. A few more students stopped

riend I'm good with it since I know it makes him happy but I know there's a part that tastes bitter. I just hope that even if

going t

ed in front of us. Jake and I stared at each other

I simp

st looked at the girl while eating. I raised an eyeb

You look like a couple." Sh

lmost the few people next to each ot

I've been watching them for a while." I heard the w

blame them sometimes because out of nowhere I assume that a woman and a

ke chuckled as he combed

has meaning or something. I just watched some of Jake's teammates dribbling on the court. Be

" I noticed that

ose and it's only because of Aze tha

lly angry because those two are missing in action." He grinned and handed me his phone. "Hold on... it's only 5 mi

ead of watching Aze and Heart who are having a moment. I'd rather choose this. I still don't

nish you

eased before poking my side with his index finge

mind again," I tea

re throwing the face towel with his swea

" I preten

he still held it and put it on his t

I know he's smarter in silly things. Sometimes I burst out laughi

uch called bef

fused, I just stood up. He held my wrist and helped me to go down on the bleachers. I couldn't do anythi

ooking and watching our moves. I'm still not really used to being looke

maybe you can ru

ace is

e that Jake pointed out. I noticed that I was holding a lot. Bec

" I joked to Jake, wh

I'll list you later." He jo

ile they were talking they were walking to one side. I looked at the oth

stion of the woman who s

him earlier. They ate in the canteen. Is that Magjowa?" Asked a

s. You're still gossiping about Perez." Sh

ook my head. Ever since it happened and I found out about his problem, we haven't been able to talk

ha

nt to give him a glance. I just

d again so I

was next to him so I made my smile bigger "Oh! Hi, Heart

.." he

an angel. He is very beautiful and I know that even though his aura is a

tried my best to hide the pain that kept on eating me. I don't wa

watch the tryo

ide so I stood up. There is no space for

uce me to Hea

nodded "Heart, thi

Poena Heart Nazario. You can

eyes. You can call me anyth

beautiful," sh

too

n't you out there to wa

tching the game too much. They followed me and in every step... I f

abou

od to watch basketball

ching basketball,"

eone on the basketball te

watch basketball today. Alright, are you guys leavin

back to where I was sitting. I acted like I was ex

ow, everything is starting to change and I have no choice but

ppier with the woman he likes. He will be more complete with the girl he loves and I'

rt is the o