The One He Never Put First
take his ex-wife to the emergency ro
d - she was having a baby. I just wish he would'
ve been bette
. For a while, it was the best thing I'd ever had. I
hink that was what made it wo
he effort a
car
ven anything and everything
on random days. Sometimes it would be cute little sentences
ing, he would then come back from work later that day to ex
without my knowledge. I'd been so mad because all the clothes I'd been washing ended
ove for you won't." He'd whispered to me and
d always said a queen like me should never bother herself wi
my colleagues had a thing for me so he wan
urity guards. I think all is partly to do with th
tter what I was going through. Talk
h other's c
t
started off happening every now and then, he would miss dinners because of 'work'. And t
e. That's not the person that he is, at all. Especiall
g on, which is some
ful man in the country right now. He's al
ded that was it for him, relax - he married young and the marriages didn't last very long. He'd decide
ght at the end of a ver
self wholeheartedly to someone that he loves. But when you
the demons he'd accumulated through the many years. In my case
ts wo
ot three kids in total with three of them to the 'simple' fact that these were people who meant the w
it couldn't have been that bad, could it? Yes, they were his ex-wives but
e night as we laid in bed, and when they would sh
ap. Because he'd said that about me, I was forced to then be 'understanding' all the time, even when I really didn't understand,
sed my mind up for a while until I'd decided I wasn't going to do
on
hing we fight about
I know will never change. So when they call, I put a smile on my
unced, I make them a nice meal becau
han me disrespect me, I 'try to understand
ling and showing up, when his kids don't come around,
ruggle to sleep most nights. He sp
that
r through the misery of always be
be the one he
this baby is not go
elly at the thought then swerve a little to
lease call
ired of that reque
stupid fight we had before he left, I just need him to
for me. The incredible passion
s he doesn
hed the voicem
ntment come out i
ves again, I won't. If he wants me to be his pretty
s phone and tell me that he's ok a
ch that I don't notice the aggressive dri
t I'm too late because not too long after
for a
y seemingly disfigured body and th
until I realize it's too thick to be water and it's dripping ou
smile when I reach it without having to stretch too much
ething about being married to a man who's old e
in love. I
e hasn't answered my last 200
w up for me, just like he'
unds again, I feel my heart getti
stil
oblems. I'm sorry I was a horrible wife to you. And I'm sorry that I don't have any family so you're goin
much Aaron. Nev
message then I feel my
se not l