To Our Pinky Promises
immy asked when I ste
iving her a
lates on the table and I gratefully sat d
er. The hammering of my head had dulled down to a sl
e as I ate, as if she was afraid
to reassure her tha
I told her, waving off her concerns. 'It's just been a long time since I
but I was okay. The weight that clung onto me had become familiar
d I didn't blame her. She was my closest friend and after having though
ddle school,' I started to
ed to tell her the story I've bott
m. But we were kids. Eventually, our friends found out about how close we were and started to tease us. I would overreact and lose my shit at them for bringing up something so incredulous and say that I'd never consider being with him even if he did like me. I would cal
nd looked at Kimmy, I won't
rew sick of how I'd overrea
shed back t
ld stop being fr
ow these people can't mind their own businesses and leave us alone. I wasn't exactly thinking straight so when I
ers hitting my phone's keyboard with a l
to realize what just happened. When everything finally dawned o
meekly, 'Remember that promise you made? That if you
typing the next mes
his reply came in. 'I don't like
wasn't his fault that I acted like a dr
type up wa
in front of the mirror and stare
real
glow I usually
as that
one that I could get r
rs to come. It was the sadness that makes everything reminder of him. It w
that's all it's g
as it?' Ki
d. 'That's hal
anged into a completely different p
ou okay?'
o look at
at, too, was something that had started to occur freq
curiously. I didn't think I did an
u stopped being close with Alex. You look like
hit
lly look
It was like a heavy necklace that I had gotten used to wearing. The weight didn't
smile but for some reason, it was really har
thy Kimmy sent my way as she r
mile before continui
p him win her over so she tried to 'repay' me. She got Alex to give me another chance at being his friend and so Alex and I became fri
morning because of the same reason. I made sure not to let history repeat itself and kept m
was w
bitter again, and I had to fight
ything from me started lying. Long story short, I couldn't trust him anym
4 years ago, E
m as we just sat there an
.' Kimmy said
y attention. I
oved him. He was like a b
d, 'No, I mean you
hat she said and cons
d
bility. I locked my emotions up in a cage and threw the keys away.' I looked at Kimmy and smiled. 'In the end, I got so confused with my feelings that
y had a sad lo
never seen you get so down over anything before but one mention of him had
hat's a g
as my first love.' I sighed, stabbing my f
to end a