To Our Pinky Promises
head down. For some reason, I fe
scending way. I meant that in a 'ever
em and stared in a way that scream
ed at one point but it had ended years ago so I don't quite remember how I should act to cope with bullying. I mean who would've thought that I'd get bullied as a f
nights ago. I was laughing at something, looking at Ty as I slightly leaned at him, my elbow nudging his side as we stood just outside of the door to t
ds 'PARTY SLUT' were print
y happened. But it was easy enough to understand why people was gossiping about me. I knew I didn't do shit with T
ay, I fel
just stricter on myself more than anyone else because I was raised
r watched. Note the heavy sarcasm here. I knew it was pointless because I already knew who did this and I knew I
aven't passed my locker and seen the decorations, they've probably received a soft copy of
s just something about being humiliated this way. Maybe it was because I've forgotten what it feels like to feel bullied and am no longer numb against it. I didn't know ho
s. I didn't want anymore of my pictures to be taken and printed to be pasted on my locker door an
hings, I simply hugged my bag to my chest and scurried
cled it a few times, trying to f
overing it from view. There was a fire escape door right by the hidden corner but unless God decided to light the
udent's dream for their school to catch on fire one day and have school cancelled for the rest of the year; I'd be even more delighted if the fire would melt my locker and burn th
anicking and be too busy trying to s
What can you do about being humiliated? I wasn't the type of girl to pick fights. I avoid confrontations u
ne went the extra mile to hurt me was that I'
I muttered angrily at myself as
gs to myself, the fire emergency exit door that I
se, it
, after all. Again,
urned to see who came out of
tleman, then walked out the last p
nder
foot like it weighed nothing and st
ut a box of cigarettes and a lighter. He took a cig out of the box
the cig away from his lips
ough the gap between his lips. He flicked the cig, something that looked
ight of me crouching by the bush, watching him silently the entire time. I didn't m
anquility in me, it was more the expression he had on his face. It was the lack of the creases on his forehead and
matter how much I brushed away my tears, I will still look lik
lone in this hidden corner. My legs started to ache from crouching so long so I just decide
ound and get snuffed out by the sole of his shoe before h
nd sat beside me, facing the
' He asked, s
prise wore off. 'They
w people are. I've long accepted that but I guess it's still hard to be okay with it. But neither of us
a of who it was. After all
an I have, had a crush on him. This was public knowledge and Diana was my friend. When I started getting close to
asically hated my guts ever since. It's been 4 year since everything happened so obviously, she's moved on, but I was fore
r since but she's never slammed
definitel
sn't his fault that this was happening and I knew he didn't wa
ght have heard guilt in his tone. But I didn't want to make wild guesses
hat he won't be able to get through her. She has no leftover fe
t knowing what to say, so i
king the shift in the m
to do,' I pursed my lips, trying to do a smile. I g
walked backwards, 'uhm,
as Alex head tilted to the sid
o fist, trying to stop myself from hitting my
Alex, yo
ilding, my unspoken guess was
arties with EDM blasting through the speakers has damaged some of the
see her leave the party with like 3 other guys aside from the one that was in the p
irst sentence or curling up into a ball and cry at how m
ect her like, 'For your goddamn information
ere directed at me, made by the guys, was so off pu
and a tall wall with broad shoulders covered
ple 'Mind your own business,' had the girl th
their own shit again, I finally felt li
ds that came out of my m
now you might've changed, but I haven't. I would still li
t surged back to me got redirected and
xplanation or an apology from me
row as I stood there on my own, staring a
y, and I'd be lying if I sai
to know how much I misse
dn't want to
n twice. There wasn't a
ve trouble eating, falling asleep. I'd constantly wonder what I did wrong, what I could've done
f I can go thr
, but this time