To Our Pinky Promises
think we were actually going to be able
soccer team but I was a pretty lousy runner. He could've probably outran them
deadweight and he basically carr
ex pulled me along for a few more minutes to make sur
ed up on his knees as he tried to catch his breath while I staggered forward to lean on the alley wall, loo
't calm down soon, I'll black out in the middle of this alley. I gaspe
oked at me, noticing that s
e asked as he ke
ack that was about to hit me wouldn't allow that. I nodded my he
taught me and focused on fighting to subdue the attac
xhaled, picturing how it expands and contracts. I felt my chest rise and fall and focused on the rhythm. It took me some time to calm down, but when the black spots h
atch me, his body falling with mi
ardly to respect our respective personal spaces. He stayed crouching,
ind my hair that acted as a curtain. After gathering my courage, I f
ate gesture right then so I gulped and opened my mouth to say something b
, twisting his body around to lo
enough.' He said out of
t. A simple thank you would suffice, don't waste your breath saying
he was throwing at me for my sassy beha
this was the most Alex ha
t he was still here and showing me kindness when
trailed off awkwardly, looking aro
just as he was about to
softly, unsure that h
he
me again and paused, befor
e ground in front of me, hugging my knees together
ight another panic attack and I didn't want
rid of those thoughts before I
brush off my back, conscious of
your shit t
borhood. There were no people walking down the streets and there was only one or two cars passing by occasionally. Most people would t
x and I ran came from to find my way
,' he said, a
rprise by his sudden appearance. Alex raised his hands in surrender as he stepped back to
guys jog towards Alex who was visibly ca
the ground as I watched
s, w
is arm back before throwing a punch at A
tartled gasp that forced itself out of my
trophy Alex had shown me 4 years ago, I thought tha
or at least run, the boy in question didn't move an inch. My fear spiked
cience screeched in panic as
was facing his back so I couldn't see the look on his face or tel
rk again to bring me closer to the group of guys. I
they say it's never too late to make up f
meroom teacher in front of the entire class 4 years ago. I've beaten myself up f
g wedged in the middle of
while taking my phone out of my bag and waving
d, my panic seep
side to see who was screaming a
yelled as I go
courage to actually move closer towards them but I d
sure you face jail time. I will make sure to bring up any charges I can to put you behi
en I was quacking inside. All I could think a
s who were looking at e
lly spoke up on behalf of the group
and I swear I broke into a co
ing see you anymore.' Ty grit
y sane mind when I started glari
s not a good time. We were outnumbered and my bluff was actually working. I didn't w
ople will go, mate. The w
r with unnecessary extra force
one hand on his arm and the other o
re they don't change their minds and turn around to beat us up. When t
had a light bruise forming on the side of his lips but the pain etched on the look on
arted patting down his pockets, lookin
y watch, fe
to search himself. Panic and desperation laced his vo
u looking for?' I
ig
could think of after getting punche
ever thought that running out of cigs was that big of a deal until I saw Alex break
e cigs. I started to see the familiar sign
ving a pa
ling to his knees and gasping, hitting his chest and claw
hand on his back and another on h
I sucked in a deep breath slowly and exhaled, my chest rising and falling as I breathed. I maintained eye contact the entire time because I've
he fear in his eyes spoke volumes, it was so loud that it shook my core when I look
red times in my therapist's eyes and provide the same comfor
il all traces of the panic attack wa
and waited fo
has ever witnessed his panic attack. Smoking cigs seems to be his alternative
dly; the embarrassment, humiliation, the anger directed at myself. I knew, more or less, what was going to circula
hat he almost fell to the ground a
m but he scuffled backwards as if
h staying put, lettin
ew that people react differently to the emotions
but I tried to not let whatever he
and dismay I felt when he got to his fe
k disappear from sight, wondering what
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