FORBIDDEN DESIRES IN THE FAMILY

moment now. The guilt that had been gnawing at me ever since I had slept with Alexande

re?" I asked, trying t

ander replied, his voice

He came closer, and I could feel his breath on my neck. I wanted to pus

bout you," Alexander said sof

ful reminder of what had happened at the reception, and I knew that I had

together," I said, try

ving closer, his lips b

k on the door. My heart jumped into my

o compose myself as I opened the door. James came

e said, kissing me

ping up on me now almost unbearable. I didn't know how lon

y luggage, anything to keep my mind off of what had happened with

est. All I could think about was what had happened w

mes asked, his eye

lied, trying to

t look him in the eye. I felt like I was living a

ch, every kiss, reminded me of what I had done, and I felt like I was drowning in guilt. Alexander still in our bathroom listening to

e feeling of guilt and anxiety that had been creeping up on me since Alex

lmost too much to bear. I couldn't imagine how James would react if he found out what ha

the truth came out, it would destroy their relationship. It would ruin

e on edge. I couldn't sleep, couldn't relax, and I

lf down. I thought about what I would do if the worst happened, if Alexand

on the here and now, but it was impossible. The guil

wake James. I needed to be alone, to think,

me to be so reckless, so stupid? I knew that I had to marry James, that I aggreed to spend the r

silent - It was Alexander, I ans

ll

softly. "I didn't mean to

d ruined everything, but I couldn't find the word

" Alexander said. "Plea

There's nothin

much he loved me, how he wished that things were different. He told me t

. He was playing on my emotions, using my guilt against me.

r. This has t

was better this way. I couldn't keep living like this, always

at the corners of my eyes, but I didn't let them fall. I ha

e touched me, I felt a wave of guilt wash over me. I knew that