Amelia's Insecurity

n the pillow, trying to calm my ass down. I’m trying

ouse. I’m not sure if it is because of the stress building up within me or

t my mind keeps on screaming to walk out my

ements first. Everything is clear, everything is finished. I don’t feel anxious of m

ke this. He is like a drug to me. He makes me f

nderneath my blanket and undergarment. I

I could do this before by myself, now it feels like I c

t that had been rising up my

nd wanted to see him again; to talk, to cuddle, to

e way? Because if he doesn’t

nymore and finally grabbed onto my cardigan hanging on one of my racks. After

silky soft skin wrapping my entire physique. And, across my face was a small pointed nose

ep. I grabbed my keys on one of the key compartments and fina

e, I started the engine only f

ng Guard at the corner who did not stop me one bit.

t even turn to look at the staff in my house. I’m sure he wouldn’t e

having to live with parents that never really cared for me and a bitch who is

d to calm down and think carefully

ing from me then mark my words, I’ll ha

me being. If I want her in her most vulnerable state then I have to let he

e dark area of Tagaytay. The night was so silent

shut my eyes close for a mom

ce by my side only for a sw

sh–Wait a seco

y phone. My heart immediately pounded hard while my han

y are you so surprised t

on on my face was about to sink when

same time excited that I failed to notice that  I was the

me is so bad that I’

which made me stop. It was the same sooth

s so irre

ave a night drive, eat something and–oh God,

lly smile on my face. Tss, how can he

seat and with a foolish grin on my

me thing but thought that you were as

k towards the city. I agreed with his plan with excitement engulfing my system. I couldn’t help but imagine all of the things we’re g

ng the call. If my lips were made of paper, I wouldn

won in some way because he feels the same way as I am and we’re now going

ve everything that others would yearn for but I also don’t have it, for someone is trying to take it away f

f this opportunity and I can’t deny that I have feelings for him but it shouldn’t cloud my jud

t I have. Once I halted my car, I immediately saw Josh’s car at the

short while but he already looks so hand

pproaching him, a sweet smile flashed through his lips and was

sy, lover boy.” I blew smoke on his face,

regain my composure. He buried his fac

hile but I missed you so bad,”

I feel th

nd I reciprocated him, had my womanhood eaten… not

me that I couldn’t h

y compared to the past women

you and it haunts me every night. I’m sorry if I called you t

eyes with sincerity and I couldn’t help but mess his hair up. “However, when I realized that you c

before I could frown and complain, I

just

to eat.” Josh said but I was the first

ted us with a smile. I then turned to look at the section o

to the section of the chewing gum. I am unsure what I was thinking at that t

. I just stole something f

t of the store and I hurrie

commanded suddenly, which m

uh

en he got up onto the driver’s seat, I immediately commande

ou suddenl

d me open a beer bottle and took out

ng so fast, I was nervous abo

irl.” And the t

erful. It made me feel fearless, enough that

rying to reassure him. I opened the window of his ca

so so

t with you,” I added before looking into his direction. I noticed th

he responded before I felt his hand crawling u

s to drive away from the

hed reviewing for tomorrow’s examination,” I suddenly commented

took up Business Administration and I heard that his parents own various hotels and restaurant

e. They say that it was because they feel much happier here and their busi

osh suddenly said and my attention was immediately caught by him.

good person, others will just abuse me. I think it’s better that I’m always at my worst s

me but because they wanted my money and to use m

a bitter smile fla

by the people you trust. Although, we feel the same way.

dn’t unders

d. I felt his stare right at me a

my turn t

I tried to please her just so she would stay by my side,” I added before l

curled onto my lips before I removed his hand from mine and opened a bottle of vodka for m

t at me as though he was dumbfounded. “Honestly, it’

ained

of a maid. And… it’s suffocating me.” Again, I drank from the bottle in my hand. I co

try my best and hol

now that I’m older. When I can manage myself on my

ing lot and Josh finally

tly and kissed it slowly before looking straight into my eyes. “You have a strong personality and weak me

always love the wa

other men who have approached, it was giving me a europhic touch. I didn’t move an inch while he moved my

until I saw him open his eyes slowly. Onc

h

the back of my palm before remov

didn’t notice that I was already shivering despite wearing a cardigan right across my clot

melt me at any time. His teeth were perfectly aligned and

putting it on the side. I removed my cardigan fir

or my shorts or else, I’ll look like a mismatched clown. It was to

’s seat and opened the door towards the place. Afterwards, the two of

ke when it is morning, the place was packed with only a few people eating, a st

of the wind whispering, the clattering sound of plates and the

a second which made him stop as well. I then took a

rm whenever I touch it. I used boomerang on IG to contin

d you like

ointed at the food I wanted to eat to Josh and

. I still have some time to get a wink of sl

rned to look at him. I failed to notice earlier

en checking me out. I then touched my skin, especial

the morning, how about you?” Josh looke

nose and his forehe

can’t drive,” I suggested. “Or, I can drive on your stead,” I added. Th

a short while. “It’s just that, it’s cold and

nd the–“ He suddenly came near my ear and

badly wanted to hug you,” he whispered, making

is he actin

mine while we waited for ou

er a few moments, I noticed him take out his phone from the in

before he flashed a smile onto the c

photo. He looked so clingy in the picture with his left arm around