Life stood still

didn't realize it until I put both men on their asses. Levi trained me so well, probably regretted how diligently he trained me

o care a great deal about. I understood that they both have made mistakes because of jealous. I was willing to start fresh and see where the road leads us. I didn't know if these two idiots could do that though. Once the realization hit Levi of me having feelings for the both of them he might not even want me anymore. Some people believe that you can't truly care about two

know I'm following you." Astrid

plain to myself." I finally forced myself to look at her and to

is. How confusing is must be to have feelings for two men." Astrid smiled at me and

e so to myself then her but I knew she

the cost was. I'm just glad I can be here for you through this all. I know you are going to need me and I will be here. I may want you with Levi but I will be as

my mind raced with every single possible outcome

r sister. It is so much more then that Sylvi. It reall

ould kill the both of you if I didn't do what he said. He is used to getting whatever he wants Astrid, he is the son of the king. Every moment I was away from you wa

never this raw with Levi or Schrine, this was something that only Astrid got. She understood me, the angr

en brave enough to approach Levis sister." I could feel the loneliness that was behind those words. She was so very right; no man has been brave enough to ever approach Levis sister. They never cared to get to

ings out by myself and I will never walk

against the world." I

and I against

d. A place where we can just be alone with our thoughts and fears and just have each other there for support. We drank a bunch of mead and just drank in silence. That is before Levi came barging thru the door. I looked up at

d my shoulders. I didn't trust my mouth at the moment to not s

and didn't utter words. I could tell me not answering him was about to push him

" Levi said, he was trying to get me to break th

e of you at the moment Levi. You broke me, he shattered the pieces I was trying to put back together from you breaking me. Neither one of you are per

ly made me feel a certain way. I jumped into his arms and kissed him passionately. It might have been because of the alcohol, it might have been because of the feelings I had for him for years, it might have been just to feel something else besides broken. He kissed me back with so

or years." Levi nodded and walked with me on him for who knows how long. We finally s

't going to like this you know." I rolled my eyes and pushed him down onto the ground. I l

i, I would never want to hurt you ever a

evi. We've trained for months. I pretended that I wasn't turned on by the training for months. Plea

." I nodded and he smiled at me before he put a finger inside of me. I groaned probably a little too loud and he smiled a

ed and Levi sto

w days ago, my mom was a whore and no one knew who my father was. I was shattered and so confused. I went back into the hut and laid down with Astrid and passed out before I could even cry myself to sleep. I woke up with a big headache and any sort of light hurting my eyes. I wasn't one to drink becaus

d to hide and not face Levi ever but that was the cowards' way out. I knew he would want to talk about last night so that would happen but I hope it didn't happen toda

at I can only imagine what is making you close your

ver after you

ickly and immediately regre

's your brother." I still kept my eyes closed and I felt

uted a litt

ckle you all hungover." Astrid said and I could tell that she was smiling at m

t have sex

id what?" A

lt myself getting bright red. This isn't something I wanted to share

l" She ask

ng me to explain my feelings to them and I most certainly could not do so at the time being. Levi was already in the lake, I thought about turning around and running away again but I couldn't do that to him. We've both made mistakes but I couldn't run away from him again. Somehow I knew how much it hurt him when I ran away from him before. I too

ee so much sorrow behind them sorrow and pain that I've never seen

could have been so different if you just told me how you felt before you left. I was holding onto you like a life vest Levi and you just took that away and let me drown. I am now trying to find my way back to land but it's so very hard. Everything has added up and I'm shattered Levi, I don't

will make it my mission to show you how much you mean to me. I will do my best to help you make yourself whole again." Levi went to hug me but I moved just a little bit away so he couldn't. I know what I did just hurt him but I wasn't ready for a hug, I wasn't

ore then my virtue but having sex with someone. Letting them so deep inside my body and soul i

t I will always be your life vest. I will always be here to remind you how smart, strong and beautiful you are. I will never make the mistake of not telling you things because you are not ready. I will never make decisions for you ever again without asking you first. I've messed up and I hope you don't hold the grudge of that forever." I could feel how sorry he was; I could see that he regretted that decision he made without asking me what I wanted. I c

d asked smiling at Levi a

a raid with Schrine and I don't know when I will be back." Levi s

g dressed and now it was day light out and Levi and I had quit the audie

that I am leaving." Levi said with his chest puffed

e I am not of your blood and as you made clear I am not your wife. You don't own me, so you can go raid and I can go do wha

I am better at this than you are. I felt my eyes widen and forced my mouth to not open up wide in disbelief. I just nodded and tried not to panic. He finally got dressed which made me realize I was yell

guy?" I nudged Levi with my sho

ou think you have romantic feeli

I asked

y love another man." L

Levi is so blessed an

w you well enough to know you couldn't love two people at the same time." Levi looked at me and I could tell he wasn't as confide

to go on this raid

his Sylvi, you are strong enough to conquer the world, we are stronger together Sylvi than when we are apart." Lev

bout As

. I followed him and stayed quiet and wasn't sure what was going on around me to be honest. It was like my soul left my body but I could move and follow Levi but do nothing else. I don't know how long this lasted before Levi

you all st

may not truly love Schrine. I may have convinced myself I did because I didn't want Astrid or Levi to die. I also may truly have feelings for him. It really didn't matter though because it will always

three pairs of eyeballs look

pologizing for?

this out on my own. I am sorry Schrine but I don't care about you like you want me too." Everyone on the