Loving Jude
as K
't seen
oor when all I want
dre
nating,
e suitcase standing between them. "
r him, and his ey
ulls the luggage into
rinkles noisily as my f
hing, but I do
threshold. His blue eyes bore int
? More l
ng poke
waves in fro
ude to find Eli tryin
a confused
the paper to the floor. "Bathro
nce to the bathroom-which is, in this situati
the toilet bowl. Out of nowhere, my stomach is q
g my back to the wall between th
ortunately, I don't
eal. It's
Jude at
u
Eli's new
his not
, but it proves futile. My hear
an think of right now is getting out of here. Once I'm out of here, maybe I can process
self. Probably a long time because I don't move until
re you
wipe my clammy hands o
lly open. I meet Eli's worried gaze th
akfast. And you haven't
an eme
's wr
e lie flies off my lips effortles
like this? Let me get them for you
I'll be fine until
you s
no
y. U
me my phone
s and disappears. I pul
n reach my foot out to bring my shoes closer. After I put them on
d kisses my fo
for me. This time around, the distance between
threshold into the hallway. With a f
print down
number as I t
l, he grunts into the ph
g over," I
her
is b
le
ha
inally
*
ss of water, his finge
you're maki
ur hangove
me up at eight o'clock after a n
nine o
the p
should
I don't know.
two
his feet. "I
the bathroom bef
il biting until he reappears, h
mon shares a two-bedroom apartment with Isaac. But,
w you can
ready to
ead. "No. Tell
w how I feel! Totally c
ock
s expe
im
slept with El
es
ly over Jude, and had waited long e
eat beside him. "And
without saying
ything I cou
"How did
pris
ly one way
ich
t. You need to talk to him
managed to let him
re? Because him showing
e back. Everything I've done to hea
confirms my
never so much as sent a text message. T
up with was that he let me go and
n the first place? I was bad for him. If he had to cut
g him. My feelings festered long after I had giv
en more attuned to what was going on in his mi
e and couldn't care less. Would it not have been less cru
being in the dark. I wouldn't have waited for so long
r truly loved me. That all along,
nless you plan on ignoring him forever.
Simon i
escape him when he
oving on. I'm sure he won't hold that against me. Jus
start on a
is bottom lip. "
ut w
eelings for
ke El
now,
't matter
too far to
"What is he doi
lso be joining the football team
be seeing a
no
know you
e bothered to
r so long, and now here he i
Maybe because he's the one who was there whenever I broke dow
and
u should,
, I let
rough only because Jude chose silence.
beside Simon a
Eli that h
he's the person I've been
now what to do unt