Finding Her: A Tale of Tragedy which leads to Love

vered it on the news channel. We had an empty burial for him because there were no

dinner. I was sitting in my car, parked close to Brian's house, contemplating whether

before leaving the house, however, I

ot get better, I kept getting worse. Fortuna

arents as well. My support syst

ecting my feelings toward her and lashing out at her. It got

I got into my car and drove to the beach, Brian's favorite place. I had been going there often since he died. He and I went to the beach countless times. A lot of unforgettable memories were made at the beach with him. Our first date was at the beach, our first kiss was at the beach, and he

I tried so hard to control the tears but I lost the battle. I started wailing loudly, it was so hard to reduce my voice. I wailed and wailed till my

h

work saying she would be at my place because

e you been?". She asked with conc

ed into the kitchen, helpin

up your calls, I called work and was told that you

tremely tired, my eyes were puffy, and I was so famishe

ands akimbo. "Why aren't you

a, I am exhausted, and I don't fe

days. It is so hard to reach you. Most times, you aren't home. Yo

ed up at her, she stared at me in disbelief. "Please lea

been looking out for you. We both lost someone dear to us, an

my fiance. I lost the love of my life!".

t? How selfish can you be?? I am trying to loo

o look out for me An

center table, dropped my extra house keys on the sofa, and walked away without saying a word. I ran to the kitchen and grabbed a bottle of vodka which

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t 5 pm, and I'd been sitting in the car for 2 hours. I had alread

d I l

r a year now, and I already acknowledged their

aled

s do

the security opened the g

," He said with so m

ked with a sincere smile. I missed

eply when we hear

a. I could tell from her face that she wasn't happy to see me. "Oh, you

ed. "How is th

"Quite well, they have been expecting you". She said and started walking

please. I don't want us

ear low murmurs coming from the dining room

nced as she walked in with me

d. Ben, his dad, still looked better than ever. I felt a pain in my chest as I stared at Ben, he reminded me so much of Brian, because they looked so identical. I glanced a

I go home? What am I doing

ny?" Ben asked. I heard snickering coming

eel unwanted." I

not ours." Martha said wi

Anna

year Jenny, what did we do to you? Tell us!" She

cause I couldn't take more of this. I could feel the tears coming but I

h you, I only wanted t

he pointed at Brian's friends, "They lost their best friend," She pointed at Ben, "He lost his only son," She poin

his, not on this day." Ben said calml

ther, because no one can bear this alone. Then you suddenly decided

. I was still standing. Th

o it anymore. It

spond and I could tell from her facial expressions that I was g

e. "Look," I followed his finger which pointed at the table. Brian's picture - which I did not notice when I walked in. I took that picture at the beach. He looked so good that day and I decided to take the picture with our P

have been extremely disappointed if you weren't. You are here because despite

th pain; so much pain, and right there and

ind each other that we were always available. However, I stopped. I just didn't care anymore. It got worse after tha

ack to his seat. I looked at all of them "I am extremely sorry. I am".

anding, all ey

m was s

at that point. I looked at Brian's picture one last ti

t". I concluded and walked out of the house, hiding my fac

e words that Kenneth and Brian's mother s

every singl

f it all, I los

n the stee

hat cared about me, whic

ll is wrong

hone buzzed on my lap which caused me to jerk, I received a message from th

t through at Brian's place. The unsolicited intervention, the anger in th

ve off to the only place that gave

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lose to a coconut tree, grabbed my bottle of vodka, and got out of the car. I start

rn to. My mum and I have not been talking that

Maybe I deserved this, I deserved all tha

nd and downed the remnants of the bottle before

with tears as I st

n you ever know. I miss you every d

sand, and threw it across the beach as I cried ou

get better? When am I

times. Then I felt a drop

t is about

nt but the rain was dealing with me seriously. I slowly got my tipsy self up and sighed. I was far from