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y nineteenth birthda

g why's she so freaked abou

going to be on my nineteenth birthday. I dunno how we came up with that, but I guess it was just

town and was my neighbour, but we never got togethe

I'd be wearing for the day, I'm the kind of person that picks

for a pair of big sweatpants I got from my big b

mory of my not-so-successful

ealing hi

'm wearing ordinary clothes

always me, all alone in my room. Sometimes it's interesting if Chance is around

get to spend with Deshawn later. My smile broadens as

shower, my bathe was so quick it almost

me down for breakfast or even wished me a

r I exist not to ta

just our distant relatives and not our

might be mad at him for ditching me or something of the sort, but he's my brother a

u've not seen

r y

I mutter to myself as if saying

t messages. I mean what did I expect, but at least I

ten to it ring repeatedly

ims, he sounds comp

ogether in confusion

Birthday babe" he says making me forget

or a moment there I

went to Micheal's party last night and got back completely wasted so I

at's what made

ut of breath

ey babe I'm gonna call you bac

o you later,

efore I could fin

I have no idea what to do now, fee

strong, you're

n my head trying t

roll through TikTok, it was the least I

eos, pets, dance, and comedy and none of them seems to be

favourite person in the whole world is out there somew

he's like my best friend, the o

e, or even be friends with them. High school students can be annoying sometimes

Deshawn s

car, part of me knew I wasn't thinking straight righ

g to Desha

r because I can hear music, and see numerous beer cans who has a party by

g TikTok for

d knocking but I doubt anyone will hear me with

k and someone I'm very sure does not

mutter to th

ressed, I brush the feeling off, close the doo

uy started it then the rest joined in and I notice all eyes on someone,

d I hear footsteps and

die down "Hey princess" I smile

they cl

remember?" he laughs

I kno

ere cheering I was upstairs looking for

f people that I didn't know and a lot of beer cans and weird substanc

osed to be a

unable to even utte

s at me as he leads

ed but it smells weird and is scattered so I

w

ing me to run for the heels and not look back. And usua

telling me to run and get out of this

wn whom you've been dating for a long time now and

tupid as I was, I

what's

thi

he said patting be

a r

ng your sheets firs

e got up to grab

I guess this is what I am getting for n

claimed and I coul

down beside

re you want

no

ove

you to

ould feel his hands move around slowly on my body. Hi

it feels the same

Nova? Do you wa

n't

e having a chat, good to see you'

iss, no exact reason f

's wr

dun

that the first time you don't need

ell list the number of

MY

et out of his bed an

ha

going

o go home?" Deshawn got up from

n by, why do I w

or a long time, you

use

can't stop now!" I as

Don't you love me, Nova? I t

year, you can wait again yeah? I r

e're stil

door and I he

ooking everybody downstairs, I igno

!" I stop and turn around to

ice comes out

you think after all this time I spent d

hawn

nd it felt as if his voic

that earned him a couple of laughs and answers from the

ere even recording and I just stood th

e we

ke skinn

st your virgi

I heard from all around m

voice was loud enough or if they just kept quiet ag

I looked at him too, hoping to God that one p

replied and the

way to the door my eyesi

with a smirk " Oh before I forget, I fucked

haking some of his friends as if he just won one of those games he

me it was a

car, I try my possible best to consol

ed, I can't help but let out tears again I grab

o leave this g

sh to my small bedside mirror, my eyes

hone to check

ber, probably someone trying to con

brought tears

life, I

e person I trusted the most had shattered my heart into a mill

message again, from t