After

without Mommy. I just don't know how he feels every time he s

't have these things anymore, and besides, he likes her

ve?" my Mom asked me. Yeah, he

say good luck to him, Mom?" I asked her, h

face. I know that's his passion and sure, he will w

heer him up, Mot

e said goodbye and didn't wait for me to answer because he imme

t dizzy again, Daddy

ut me when he saw my paleness. I'm not like this before, I don't get dizzy easi

nd nodded. He came to m

me and kissed my cheek. At that gesture from Dad, I couldn't s

im, just a gift, because he is the one who often does this. But I already told him where we are going again since Dad let me

o this day was perfect even though we were going home

of dress and color that I wear, but because this day is special, I didn'

here we will meet or where he will pick me up. It can't be at our

have remembered what this day was like, right? B

. Red came with me to drive the car. He knew whe

off. Red left the car, after he also took me to the exit. Because we don't ha

the strength of my voice I immediately got people's at

I could hear her crying in the background, I just couldn't make

you?" I ask

e condo,"

condo? I'm going there and wa

his unit because he was right

e. He even looked at me from head to toe. Yeah, I prepared for y

nd Lervin and Jillian on the sofa. The

ed them without emotion. Jillian was

ai grabbed my arm but I quickly to

gain?" I asked emphatically

end for your officially break up," Lervin said and my senses just pulsa

ai disobeyed and I felt like I had no more

n we both got o

d you should let them out, not me!" I'm interested in his face. My chest heav

ry," he

is?" I asked coldly and he bowed. Still sighing. "What now? Answer me," I said and

rsary," he stammered.

I seem to know what he will do next. Just what his friend said b

t your friend is saying," I p

She needs me

you for?!" I shouted and hit his chest. I rep

he joking? What break up is he talking about? What does

h me again? Are you fed up? Are you suffocating me too much? Why is

as far as I remember, our relationship is still good. That we didn't fight, got f

want your free

ou love that girl enough to marry her? I'

d there was no joke in his voice. He is serious. Little by little

ur fourth anniversary. Then... T-Then... Are you just playing with me

d with a sharp blade and it seems non-

s voice was raspy. I want to believe. I want to belie

hoosing Jillian? Where do I believe

me and that Jillian is exactly who you want to be with and not me!" I screamed and my tears started falling down my

ems I'm having trouble breathing again. Fe

but I want to help J

ot to me! So, you can hurt me like this! You are only doing this because of

it his lower lip. His fist was tight so his veins came out there. Can he hurt me like this?

hat he said made

years and I admit to myself, I never felt the l

use otherwise... If he really loves me he will

u and wasting my time just to love you. What a cowa

slapped his hands. "D-Don't touch me!" I promise to cry. I have no f

I'm so sorry..." he sa

you choose her? W-Do you love her? W-Do you already?" The pain

u... I love

. The hem of his shirt was almost wri

o.

th and pushed him again. My knees are getting weak and my visi

eh

d even though it hurts, I will try to forget him for

Bab

p so much of your time that should only be his

-no ba

rsary," I said and gave him the gift I had prepared then turned away from him

losed completely and I leaned against its cold wall.

just surprised because he was als

led at him. "I'm fine, Red," I said even though deep inside my heart was so broken

any people could see me. I d

urt me? Is that the kind of love that man has? It hurts and it doesn't Can I feel it? M-Except for my heart whi

ll be fine, Mi

everything he destroyed me is fixed... I-It will be hard for me, Red... I regret