I Don't Love

rted to change. He was tired of this life, th

sn't the life I wanted with him. I was more

g Creed, I wanted to c

desired to be with our family, and aft

ted to learn wha

I stayed in Creed's pack, whi

seeker. I know

e, I'm sure I would be the

job, one of the many things written was that a pack needed t

ing my first pup with Creed, we

nancy, I read

rth to a son, it gives hope to

duced to the pack

his Beta knows about me. This

ons as their Alpha because they believe Cre

t. I have done ma

sons, and I know that by staying away, I am do

ble for all of them to have a life, for

ne or with Cloud, but every time I am with C

th my mate that mak

is

ave to hide from my pack are the secret

ecause of some old hag who

the things I try to hide, that I keep as secrets

y that I'm a mo

ps are

I need to hol

healthy because they are real, they are alive, and they are stron

put something on, he lets

e you stay here without our family and me, like the family w

in the end. I turned to see h

e was

d wanting to be with you, but if you have to give me somethin

ding his hands to help

parks in my body ran through me, calming me

ve Colton and Caden Claudia. They are just like you i

in good spirits, and I smile as I f

tes his lower lip. He knows I won't spea

, and they don't deserve to die when both Cloud an

audia. It's like meeting my most addictive drug. I can't stop myself from havi

feel heavy; not even the spark

ealize I'm not trying to break u

is to pull him away from

his to keep you away for crying out. I hate this mo

om him when he

se kill my pups? Let it kill you because of some du

d my ha

but I'm here. I mean well to you, and I know we wi

ows, as well as I do, that

wasn't like the other

th talk to

do that, and I know they are blessed

id the question of

omething I was going to ask her again, but at leas

I care about, and so far, you three are alive while I suffer being away to keep

s many pups together as possible without fearing some old hag is going to kill me, either! For fucks sake, Claudia, I want our pack to know, a

I'm causing him because it's hurting me to

way from them

grab his hand, pulling him to me when I ki

him see what I see; my only cure, my cure to living, my cure to loving, my cure to breathing every day, is only yo

ng of working this way with me? Why was h

y. I had to try

fe will never be at peace, and

k and started to k

in a raspy voice, almost as if he we

and I want my life with my mate. I want to live with my rightful

in fact, being selfish, but when I decided to be selfish, the

he chance and go to Evergreen Pack was when we ar

eath of a young Alpha. The news was that the boy was

did nothing but bury his body, the Lycans turned against th

t killed me to know my family had family in such a dis

d a wired relationship with those Lycans, and if my parents

eir arguments o

asn't my

n't find somewhere else, we were limited. It seemed like a good idea si

it was perfect because I was my fated

he Moon Pack when I had no idea; she told us about the

where the curse could probably continue

it used to exist b

landed in the Evergreen Pack because we didn't have a lot of time to find any other place after

, including how the king runs the islan

at same day, I had arri

nd then dodging questions, not telling Creed why w

as I have a lot on my mind with gri