Melanie Martinez

old. He's gone, he's really gone. This doesn't look real, this shouldn't feel real bu

busy wasting his life on alcohol is still alive while the teenage boy who had his life ahead of him is dead. And

k h

unclenching my fist. The fact she's the only one who notic

wait for me to give my eulogy. I don't want people to

a sigh. "Wow, 'was' I still can't bel

in and t

ht in my life. He was such a gentleman. He would shower me with gifts when I didn't ask and he would give me complimen

r Swift for months and when he saw the hate people were giving her online he decided to give her a try. Then the next day he called me to say: 'Bab

has been stripped away from us so soon. He had a whole life ahead of him he was so good at soccer." oh no I

wearing a tux and po

k, he would still be comfortable because like I said before. Jason never focused on the negative." I turn to the casket. "Goodbye,

ow it in the casket. The casket is closed now and I can't see h

y name. I see Viv and Nadia walk towa

en't been answer

" Vivian Cross sa

nd she's shorter than me. She's a bit chubby too and I lo

wanted to give you you

es and a thin jaw. Her hair is long and curly and it's in a ponytail right now. She

roduce them to my other best friend Cassie but they can't see her. Cassie loves them and she wishes sh

that has covered the casket. I look around again to see if I'll

"I'll b

v looks at her confused. "What? I'm just saying..." I laugh and I knew I'd laugh when Viv's around.

and Bu

e my head at my two effortlessly funny best friends

k Jason was in a gang or a secret cult," I say to both of

does the same and I'm hit by her strong str

s countlessly today but how a

u guys shouldn't

rried Mel," Bukola says. "

ct little

is your son and the bo

y in panicky unison.

both of them, "You guys have al

not," Kev

rat". Kevin wants to defend him but his face

at," Kevin warns pointing at me

take a look at the trunk of their pickup truck and

are leavin

Says Bukola. "we c

rush? It's not

're talking about here Mel." Kevin says and I

them and I feel

re two years older than me. These two are supposed to have graduated last year but they started school late. I don't know about Kevin but I do know th

and try to agree. We're not saying you two should be frie

ll

im. They both close the door after they've gotten in and I watch the pickup truck as it drives away, I watch

ds then I see Cynthia Louie hugging th

of Vogue. She has long bright red hair, a slim waist, full lips,

all but I'm a bit jealous of her, she always knows what to say and she

Bells has made me overthink a l

on's ex the beautiful girl

occer field. The argument looked pretty heated and when I asked Jason w

everyone and her smile makes the dark hallways of Lancaster Academy shine when she walk

she was in tears. That face, I did not recognize at all

ery time I see her I remember. Cynthia and I aren't friends we've never spoken before but we have excha

rupting my thoughts. I avert my ey

goo

t to go home now it's fine I'm s

I'd like to stay

u s

my h

sweet

f it means looking at Cynthia. I have to see

re you,

, please just