r, maybe, with the right words, the ones that would
to lock up if you get in late
he universe wasn't
eeded o
lying, which was inconvenient because I was doing it constantl
atever else she was, she loved me. That made
"Notes to organize. My aunt will
my cheek and left a fingerprint of glit
t fa
the whole world and then ap
also because it was easier than saying, I
gged her like a celebrity meet-and-greet. I ordered a Bolt and p
. Streetlights slipped over my face in gold bars, flipping the city into slides. I watched people on sidewalks, couples leaning into ea
and "Are you with Viv?" and "What do you mean by too quiet," and deleted th
t I kept forgetting to bring inside when it rained. I let myself in quietly, toed off my shoes, and dropped
called from the bedroom
id. "Stew sm
mumbled. "D
ll
'd cleaned it with the wrong cloth. My desk was a graveyard of half-finished note
corners softened by being shoved into bags, pages wrinkled from tears I would not be confessing to
now. If I lose him, I lose the part
de me want to cross them out. I didn't. I underlined "
on the bedspre
Nigh
bandage you slap over a wound so you don't have to look. I typed "Night" and stared at it until the le
my hand. It didn't all come away. Glitter never really does. You find it for days, weeks, in places it ha
. I lay down and stared at the ceiling like it might offe
et. Not
ls hear more. I wished, for onc
ne that if I stood really still, t
n't cruel. They weren't absent, either. They just... lived in their own storm clouds, loud argume
d daughter. The ghost who didn't a
y was a kind of power
ook. Something with horses, probably. My escape was always galloping somewhere else.) Kids streamed past me in loud clusters, ponytails
t walk past me
rown hair slid like water over one shoulder. She was ten, like me, but she
I muttered, half-
g her long legs like she owned the concrete.
ed that before, like lateness was just s
spiratorial. "Wanna wait t
ng my shadows into somet
tion always raising her hand in class not just because she knew the answer, but because
ard. If I stayed home, she dragged me to the sleepover. She'd introduce me like I was the punchline to som
le laughed anyway because Vivienne had a
things like that
, there w
just one of many orbiting moons. At birthday parties, I'd watch her float between groups, laughing with the b
ine, pulling me into the spotlight. "There you are," sh
e, because that's what ghosts
eshman year, that still bur
, hers was bright coral, me soft pink when she
because what do yo
watched me with those pi
I admitted. "You're
ctory. "Exactly. I make thin
t... true, in the way that ma
coral polish. "Here. Try th
ed at my hands, they look
vienne and I were a packaged deal. If you go
new the ending, that sooner or later, the boy wh
g a ghost girl, people notice you o
ne? She's
when I found Victor's message glowing on Vivienne's phone last night, the
have seen
don't see.
ing my own life for
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