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urning. I could feel my throat dried and it's getting painful. And my lips were quivering. I groan

one. I forced myself to open my eyes, he was sitting on the edge

ttered, eyes st

helped me to lift my head enough to drink the water.

alis siya sa kama ko at pumasok sa loob ng aking banyo. Seconds late

..." I qui

ong atay na may itlog." he said and smiled warmly. "Sabi ni papa, pag

gamot para mabilis na mawala ang lagnat ko. After I finished eating, I went inside the bathroom and take a cold shower to refresh myself and also to release my heat. G

ito. Humiga ulit ako sa kama at nagbukas ng cellphone.

bby De

sick, Dori. I can't a

naman ay absent din kagaya ko, siya raw umano ang mag aalaga sa akin. I t

ulam sa labas at kanin. Nanghihinayang ako sa klase pero biyer

." ginulo ko a

kasimula pa lang ng lagnat ko. He really took good

kunot noong

g makabawi ay napangiti ako

Nasanay na kasi ako simula nang mamatay si mama, wala ng nag aalaga

re naman, kapatid kita, e

iya 'to, dapat hindi ako basta basta nagpapasok ng mga tao rito. Nakita ko siya sa loob ng kusina't nagkaka

unshine?" tanong niya sa akin

nakaraang araw dahil pinapasok ko dito si Sir Helios. Hindi ko po kasi ala

good care of you and your brother. I'm sorry if I had to hurt you. Just... don't let it happen again, okay?" nahihirapang aniya at umigting ang mga panga. "You don't have to push yourself to him. Hindi mo kailangang magmakaawa sa atensyon at pagmamahal niya. You don't need his m

nawala na ang sakit sa dibdib ko. Papa may hurt me often times but I know he loves me. Even though I'm not really his daughter, he takes good care of me. He's just hurt an

was my

ed. "H-Hindi ko na po uulitin... Mah

bago bumalik sa kwar

ter even tho we were not blood related. He treated me like his own princess

st a man with a good looks, but a man with pure heart. I was the c

ctim blamed, he still chose to side me. Defended me. Stood with me during the time when I almost gave up. When I was traumatized,

d na kulay puting medyas at isang schook shoes. It's Monday morning today and I felt a o

beautiful. Maraming humahanga sa kaniya, at isa na ako roon. They are not rich nor poor but she looks classy and admirable. Ang ganda rin ng taste niya about fasion. When o

," Her voice was so swee

gandang umaga rin."I me

nakikita kapag naglu-lunch si Dori, ah? Bakit hindi ka na

na kasi akong iba, eh."

Eleazar na kapit bahay

ango. Chismosa rin ang isa

iya, oh!" she teased, ear

bait naman si Grettle sa'kin. Bukod sa magkapit-bahay

iya?" tanong niya

the mention of Eleazar. Because I admit it or not, I

ad boy lang iyon pero takot iyonsa mama niya at mga k

tered and blus

, mabait pa!" she said with conviction,

kami

ag-d-develop din iyon. I think it's not that bad to give him a chance. To give ourselves a shot. Afterall, we were teenagers wh

give ourselves contentment, secu

n exchange of my hard work and perseverance. Small or not, it matters to me. Kaya habang naglalakad sa dagat n

. I felt so proud. I felt so happy. But maybe, it would be more happier if

rs on our school and they congr

ngilid ang luha ko. At least, my brother came. Wala m

you. And I know our mother are also pro

o ang bu

kasama kami. "Congrats to us!

ox sa akin at tinanggap ko iyon.

Mula sa mga magulang, lolo at lola,

ang magkabilang pisngi ko mang ginulo niya ang aking buhok. Behind his cold eyes, I see the genu

onica smiled motherly at me. "I kn

you p

e really looks like Dori. M

, congrats!" Kali

at the same time. "Dra

d hugged me tight. "I know we're not that close but I wanna hug you, Sunshine. Congratulations. I know

She's so pretty. Para talaga siyang

e from my back. Lumingon ako rito at nak

me effect on me. Domodoble pa rin ang pagtibok ng puso ko sa tuwi

tremble. Lumunok ako ng dalawang

I ackno

ng pair of his was directly fixed on mine as he stood handsomely in front of me. Ha

pulang labi. Icarus never really fails to make me

he said with a smal

cheeks were burnin

s at tumikhim. "Uhm... I have

siya sa kan

ibabaw ng aking palad. Nanatiling nakatingin

towered over me. Natulala ako saglit. I never imagined Icarus would s

udly. Parang gusto na atan

ang ulo ko sa kaniyang dibdib at rinig n

ng to the thing he gave. "Congratula

ng aking puso. The sides of my eyes burn. Hanggang sa lumayo na siy

o niyang papalayo. Napa

Icarus De

rateful to know you and to love you... even

et of flowers with balloons for me. Nasa may field siya, kasama ang

ed in unison. Nangunguna na roon si Ele

be to true. He made me feel my worth. He made me feel so special. He made me feel like I am the most especial

kaming nagkikita. He also introduced me to his family. Sobrang hiya ko pa nga noong una lalong lalo na sa mga

tayo ni mama noong bata pa ako. Isang white sand beach na resort. Hindi ito masydong pinupuntahan ng mga tao pero sobrang ganda ng lugar na ito.

na

sa'yo ang isang tao. About sa gift sa akin ni Icarus, it was a customized necklace. Matapos koniyong masuot ay hin

n I was still grade nine at siya naman ay grade ten. We also won the Miss and Mister Intramurals of the year. Our parents also allowed us to have go outside for a date. Minsan ay nagtatravel pa kami using his duc

r high school student. Things were so busy for me. Da

me on my shoulder. Babalik na sana ako ng room mu

abangga ko. Nahulog ang mga bitbit niya

y!" pauli-ulit niyang sa

and rolle

sinasadya." I said and smiled.

. I licked my lower lip. Mukhang newbie pa lang siya. She h

aan ko." mahinang saad niya. I gave her her books. Pi

smiled again. "Be

th a nervous on her

ako sa pagtatanong nang tumun

l

ok ng klase ngayon, masam

k

od ng matindi. Ayan tuloy. Btw, inom ka muna ng water at kumai

l

Muah! Love

k

Rest well. R

. He

after se

ako nang

sa akin ang nerd na babae. Tumikhim ako. "Sor

n eyes met mine befo

ssroom namin na na

t na transferee, 'no? Palaging

ba doon? 'Yo

alang araw na inaaway si

?" narinig kong usap-us

g ko Quinn daw ang pangalan niy

ndi kaya... siya iyong anak ni Sir Helios. Iyong bunso? I haven't mee

kasi ito halos ng buong campus, mga iilang linggo na rin ang nakakaraan. Madrigal. She

pumapasok. Malaking posibilid

uilding ng mga gra

gawan kaya tinawag ko ang isa sa kanila. Lum

aiintimida n

Madrigal?" I asked

ng lalaki. "Yu

ako su

n sa l-library. Sige, una na

ed my

hanap ko. Una kong pinuntahan ang library ngunit wala ito roon. Tiningnan ko ri

nd pangit! Just like your face! Fashion gu

'yang noteb

, eh." The next thing I heard was a scraping sound of a paper at

icture and walked towards the bullied

at pinatayo. I looked at he

as she looked at me w

a estudyanteng biglang natam

lamig kong tanong na siyang

g sum

, Sandara." sabi nang isang lalaki

still remember, she was the one who lose

mataray niyang

her a sh

malamig k

mga kasamahan naman

maogdog ang

nt. Sandara's

pan. I was never been this violent my whole life. But this bitch deserves this. Hindi l

d?" malamig kong sabi at tiningnan sila isa-isa. Napai

bay nilang sagot at bi

ang nanlambot ang aking mga tuhod nang marinig siyang umiiyak. I be

el Park M

apakagat ng ibabang labi. She'