Lightless Sunshine

pte

awang nilalang. It made my blood boils. Literally. They didn't knew a thing. Wala silang alam sa anong mararamdaman ng mga taong binubully nila. Sa mga taong nakakaranas ng pang aabuso, w

oon, Sunshine." nag-aalalang saad niya, tinutukoy ay

niya ang nangyari kani-kanina lang. "

lingid sa kaalaman ko na may gusto siya sa ka

abi lang ng ro

g ang professor namin at nagsimula nang nagklase. Sunod sunod ang mga pumas

om ni Ryela, nasa third floor kasi ang building

he said. Tumango ako at huminto kami sa 2n

nong ko kay Diamond na kak

somewhere on her fingers. "Na

Diyamante." saad ni

a text

k

wer

ply. Binasa ko ito habang

o

den gurl c

lakad. When we reached the garden, a familiar voic

this into two, then add one and then substitute this

beat with its

xclaimed as she clapped her hands. P

ea

ke a cough, napalingon sila

at Dori

s!" she exclaimed and

g ginagawa mo rito?" Kahit na alam ko ang rason

away. "Ku

asp. "Oh? R-Really

niya ang direksyon kung nasaan si

tense his hazel brown pierce thr

nd waved my hand.

ad at me. He licked his l

o, Dori?" mahinang t

luto ni mommy tapos nagpaturo n

lp you with that su

ating mag lunch si kuya ngayon."I gasped. I was shocked

nauutal k

eh. Kawawa naman ang broth

." I shrugged

h you two? Na isa

with me."sa

lase? Iba ang s-schedule ng klase nila kump

nama

d? Hindi ba sila sasaba

asagot ang mga tanong ko. Nakatingin ako kay Icarus

etext niya

pigilang ma

gether-ako ang nasa gitna sa aming tatlong bab

s at isang maliit restaurant. Pe

elementary hanggang college ay meron i

ng payong. Meron ding payong s

is na pawis si Icarus at mukhang nai

and slightly s

s ok

ako ng inis. Ayaw ba

ainit pa nama

siyang mainitan siya riyan. Ayaw niya akong maka

aman ko ang kaniyang kamay

aasan ng kilay. Napahin

air upwards as he licked his

smile. "O

cheeks turned p

hen I saw how his express

his brows and looked a

ak ako n

time, the food was delivered. Umuusok pa ito sa init na siyang nagpapalaway sa

, magana kaming kumain lahat. Minsan ay nagnanakaw ako ng ti

to take after high scho

actually won the Miss Intramural this school year, dagdag pa ang mga beauty search na sinalihan niya. And she's not skinny at a

M and HUMSS strands. Hindi ko pa sure. Ikaw ba, Dori, a

I'll take ABM? Just like you, Rey, I haven't d

said whil

liin mo?" t

kay Icarus. Nakatingin lang din siya

I said non

s coughed. Nasamid ito a

ed his back. Para siyang nakuryente nang hawakan ko s

arus!" a

my gosh!" t

s throat, sti

led. "The fuck, Araw..." he whi

ng sinabi niya. Nag aalalang binigyan ko siya ng isan

niyang makainom ng tubig. Napangiti ako

dito ka la

hen I heard Grettle'

Why the hell did I stopped? I slowly looked down on my plat

na ba?" Icarus cold voice softened

apos na ba kayong kumain?" she asked

kong kaibigan. I pursed my lips

ls." she wa

a, may dala na siyang isang tray ng pagk

babe!" sh

g sentido. Pinalobo ko nalang ang pisngi ko bago dinuko

ot he'

k

you e

after a f

l

kain ka na rin. Wag magpap

am ko namang nagpapaaw

k

, okay? Take good care of yourself, Ele.

l

y kung ikaw magpa

k

Kain ka na

l

ako ng gamot kahit mahirap lumunok ng tabletas

ss. Ah, Eleazar. You're so cute

k

ove u. Res

ing ki

y so thoughtful. I didn't regret giving ourselves a chance. He's eve

seems like penetrating my soul. His aura was so grim I'm scared if he was posse

minom ng tubig. Al

kunot noong tanon

use me," I said while my

s hardly c

kami ngayon sa loob ng kwarto ko dahil inimbitahan ko siya. Quinn and I became close ever since I started noticing her as my sister. Hindi niya pa alam at wala

inn." said by the familiar voice, it wa

led at

zar?" she ask

f course, ang ganda mo.

nahihiyang ngumiti. I smiled back at he

softly and protruded my

owed wha

ng nakita ko na siya dati, eh. 'Di ko lang maa

Maybe some of her features comes from our father... and to be honest, whenever I look myself in fr

nonsense,

ako. Dahan dahan siyang bumangon at hinawakan ang magkabilang pisngi ko. He pushed his tongue inside of

lips traveled on my cheek,

sucking me there. Napapikit ako

ine, magan

my cheeks burning. My boyfriend groaned and laughed afterwards. Nakangising umupo siya sa li

o any further than that. He respects me as much as he respects his mother an

looks regal. A Queen indeed. She wasn't wearing her roun

uide her through the vanity mirror. Sh

tion, I uttered, "Look at y

eddened. "T-

"You're very much

o nang mga tao sa kaniya. Hindi na rin siya binubully dahil bukod sa akin, palagi ring n

suddenly felt this guilty on my chest. Napalunok ako at nap

o back in the room when I heard a commotion o

s the senior high building with her chin up, cold yet full of confidence eyes that would probably sends you chills w

scroll nalang sa fb. Not long after, the profe

o siyang may kausap na classmates niya rin. Her smiles were price

ar and I's direction and sh

ka akbay naman

ced us. "Uhm... bakit p

klase niyo?" naka

, kakatapos lang. I was actually going hom

me happy.

tumango siy

ust stopped by to check on you." I kissed her cheek and was

siya ni Ele. While waiting, I

and smiled swe

eyes glistening on emo

d and tiptoed to

ay sabay kaming tatlong na

ass, Quinn?" tan

kay lang

naaway?" he asked,

hook her head.

nila." he said with conviction kaya natawa ako. "At kung na

ight red as she nodded

a ni Quinn. Eleazar kissed me on my temple, cheeks and a peck on my lips kaya ako naman ang namu

at na, lodicakes!" h

I stomped my feet. Inabot ko si

a bata sa bahay. Hinahanap na nila ang Inang

. Napadyak ako at

o ear. Kinabig niya ako at niyakap. Napasandal

mp

ong natulala si Quinn. I smiled apologetically. Nagpatulo

e na pala!" I he

tubig. Like a prey who just caught off guard by its predator. Like how the sun and moon meet each o

ss?" He was looking at

how his eyes scintillate with love, gentleness, and fa

got to see that. I got to see how proud and happy

face and sparkling eyes,

ears on the side of my lips. My bi

n mine... but to the girl beside me. His daughter

f being Quinn. Being her... How does it feels li

y tears at bay and excused myself out from Eleazar's grip

on

ng, I crie

sympathetic girl living with her fake smiles and laughs. Helios, my father, dislikes

akin kung gaano sila kasaya ng pamilya niya. At sa bawat oras na sinasabi niya iyon, hindi ko mapigilang magselos at

sinubsob ang mukha sa a

ritonong boses ang aking narinig at kasunod nito ay ang

tingin at napalunok nang makit

nito. He was squatting on the ground in f

.." I wh

n eyes were so gentle as he lif