Unwanted

How many changes can occur in your life within the time span of 4 months?

How many times do you need to cry to numb yourself and to not feel the tiredness and pain?

How long does it take before all the suffering comes to an end?

It was an everyday question for her. When everything changed, she had been wondering how many more days or weeks she would have to endure alone. Sometimes, she wanted to run and escape everything but of course, she won't do that. Everything might change but Alexandra will keep on fighting and promise to not give up.

It was 10:15 in the morning but she was already sweating and tired. But Alexandra's natural beauty shone through. Anyone who saw her in any scenario couldn't dispute that she was stunning.

"Alex, room 417 is asking for a room cleaner," one of her coworkers reminded her. She nodded her head and smiled.

She was currently cleaning on one of the biggest rooms on the 3rd floor. It was a man who stayed in the room for 2 days so there were only a few messes. But Alexandra still needs to clean the room to assure that all the rooms are clean and their service was good.

It was almost lunchtime when she finished cleaning the rooms on the 3rd floor that was assigned to her. She plans on cleaning 3 more rooms before taking her lunch break.

She was pushing the cart with all the cleaning materials when a mosquito bit her in her arms that shocked her. Unfortunately, she lost her focus that she bumped into someone.

Some of the liquid detergents spilled into the woman's dress. Both of them was shocked.

"Fuck," she heard the woman curse.

Alexandra bowed her head, "I'm so sorry ma'am."

She bowed many times, hoping that the woman would forgive her. But of course, no wealthy person will let someone like her to go away with this kind of stupidity and mistakes.

Of course, she knew, she was once like them and the memories made her want to cry.

"What kind of stupidity is that?! Can you fucking use your eyes and look where you are going?!" the woman shouted while Alexandra chose to remain silent.

"Where is your manager? Why are you letting idiots work here?! Gosh, my outfit is ruined!"

"M-ma'am, I'm sorry. I'll take care of it. Please, don't let my management know about this. Please ma'am," Alexandra pleaded and couldn't help but to go near the woman and touch its hands.

"Don't fucking touch me, you, stupid trash! Argh, iw!" the woman pushed her, causing her to fall down. Alexandra immediately stood up and plead again but the woman kept on screaming. They start to get attention. Alexandra was also nervous because it might even reach their management.

The woman was still shouting when the assistant manager approached them.

"Ma'am, what happened?" the assistant manager asked the woman Alexandra bumped into before taking a glance at her and looking at her.

"That fucking stupid bitch," the woman pointed towards Alexandra's direction, "bumped into me! My outfit is now ruined, do you know how much it costs? Argh, what a big stupid! She's going to push the cart and used her eyes, still she managed to cause this mess!" the woman replied to the assistant manager while looking at her.

"On behalf of our workers, I am the one who apologizes. Our manager is requesting you to go to her office to discuss the damages," the manager bowed her head to the woman. The woman that Alexandra bumped into rolled her eyes before marching up to the elevator.

The assistant manager looked at Alexandra.

She remained silent while bowing her head.

"Next time, be careful. Not because you're related to the owner means you are allowed to spread your shitty attitude here. You are causing so much trouble. What a brat," The assistant manager spitted out while raising her eyebrow. Alexandra wanted to speak back and defend herself but she remained silent. She doesn't have the rights because she was a simple hotel stewardess and fighting back won't give her any good.

One of Alexandra's co-workers, Mika, approached her, "Are you okay? You can take a rest for a while, I'll take care of the assigned room to you," Mika said with a concerned voice. Alexandra appreciated it but she smiled before shaking her head.

"No need to worry, I'm fine. I can handle this, thank you," Alexandra answered with a smile. Everyone who had a chance to see her knows that it is a fake smile. Mika hugged her assured her that she can always come and talk to her.

"If you need someone, come and find me, okay? Don't forget to eat your lunch. Please, take care of yourself," Mika's last words before proceeding to the next room.

Alexandra took a deep breath. Then she arranged some of the materials that has been scattered due to the collision earlier.

After she finished picking the cleaning materials, she pushed the cart again. But this time she was pushing it with care, afraid that she might bumped into someone again.

Workers like her are not allowed to use the elevators. So, she proceeds to the door at the end of every hallway where you can find the stairs. She needs to clean the room number 417 that was on the 4th floor.

She was in the middle of walking upstairs when she felt her foot hurt. She couldn't help but to sit down on the staircase, letting herself to rest for a while before continuing her work.

The scenario earlier comes across her mind. She felt nervous and afraid. If she was the same Alexandra 4 months ago, she will definitely fight back. No one can shout at her like that and call her stupid but of course, that was all in the past.

Then she thought about all the changes to her life and to herself.

It was a total of 4 months before her life completely turned upside down. From a party girl to a hotel stewardess.

It was exhausting that she couldn't help to compare her old life to the situation she had right now. It seems like her everyday work is never-ending that she wanted to run and escape.

She needed to clean all the room that was assigned to her. She needed to please the customers. From going to work in 8:00 in the morning, from going home late at night at 10:00. She felt so done with it.

She misses her old life where she doesn't need to think of anything like this. Where there was no suffering. She was the boss and the princess in her own world, what happened?

She was used to this kind of life and routine. She was used to the feeling of exhaustion and pain. At first, it was hard but she can't do anything but to accept the fact that she had no choice. But does she have no choice?

Her train of thoughts stopped when a guy spoke.

She was nervous because they weren't allowed to take a rest during work hours. And the guy might be one of the guests and he might report her to their manager.

She had done enough stupidity for this day and she can't afford to make another one.

She stood up and was ready to apologize but she was surprised when she saw the guy's face. It was so familiar she went pale when she realized who the guy is.

"Surprise?" the guy spoke while wiggling his eyebrows. She felt annoyed but she immediately composed herself.

"Sir, guests are not allowed on this part of the hotel," she calms herself. She doesn't want to be rude in front of others especially when she was at work. Ah, some circumstances in life can change a person.

"Guest? Hmm..." the guy walked towards her direction. This kind of scene was familiar to her. "Am I a guest? Are you sure?" the guy mumbled in her ear and she realized, everything hasn't changed. That there are still some things about her that won't change. And this guy in front of her still can make her feel confused.

"What are you doing here?" she asked in disbelief while looking to his eyes. Her voice was weak and her hands are shaking. But most of all, she was embarrassed.

"Should I be the one asking that? What are you doing here?" it was full of pain and resentment and it made her feel uncomfortable. She doesn't know and she doesn't want to answer him so she gulped and bitted her lips.

"I tried to find you everywhere. No one gave me the answers. I tried my very best to find you but I didn't want to see you in this kind of place, doing shitty works and stuff." the guy looked at her in her eyes. Their closeness was making her feel the warmth but it was uncomfortable for her.

'Why?" she asked, "I don't need you. I don't need any of you. So please, leave me alone," Alexandra stood up, ready to push the cart again and leave, but what the guy said made her stop.

"Running again? Can't you do something aside from running?"

"Mind you, I am not running from anything," that was her final remarks before pushing the cart again.

Her thoughts are still in the unexpected scenario with the guy when she reached the 4th floor.

She went inside an empty room that is scheduled for her to clean. She felt so breathless. can't control herself she couldn't help but to sit on the floor.

A tear escape from her eyes before memories started to flash inside her mind.