Her devilishly handsome boss was every girl's heart stealer untill she stole his She's not perfect but she's everything in his existence Being a plus sized ,She was abused and bullied through out her childhood and the present Unlucky in her past relationships, was so toxic and sad because of her imperfect body ,her self hate stepped on another level coupled alot of sucide attempts Years later ,she got a job in a Fashion/modelling company but then the pleasure to be the perfect beauty standard as requested by the company was a very high expectation,her imperfect self can't to fit in Only to find herself having a one sided crush on her boss,the every lady's dream man ,the billionaire son of the former ruthless CEO and soon to be the CEO of their fashion company After giving up on her hopeless dream of being with her Mr perfect and able to find true love She stole his heart unaware
"If you aren't so fat!!! maybe the ring would have been your size!"
I tried to conceal my tears
Embarrassed as everyone in the shop eyes were on me
"We have larger ones for you to try sir"the jewelry owner said to him politely
My fiance maybe hot tempered but am sure he does loves me
as much as I love him but...
"Baby can we try another one please"
I managed to say that with a smile on my face
It was my engagement ring,he didn't know my size so he asked the big question I said yes before we went out to get the ring
"Am done"he snapped and walked out angrily
My feet turned cold,my blood drained and my skin turned pale
"Dont worry,he will change his mind"the jewelry woman consoled me
I nodded and walked out slowly from the jewelry shop
My heart pounding and my palms sweaty
"He isn't fed up about the ring not fitting, he is fed up with me,just like tim,like nathan,and now andres,they dumped me with any slightest chance"
I felt a drop from my left eye,I dried it off immediately
It started raining heavily ,I was almost pushed down by the crowd running towards a shelter and running from the rain,I didn't mind getting wet from the rain,its the least of my problems now
I had the flashback of tim
He was my first love,he loved me...maybe I thought so
after our first night
He made known his intentions to me,I thought I was gonna die back then
"Its my first time"
I told me as we both laid down exhausted, sweats dripping down our necks
"I can see that"he sneered
I expected more than that reply,but I shouldn't make a deal out of it,I smiled back at him trying to hide my disappointment
"Am glad its you"
"Am done"
"Huh...
I chuckled rather confused, I thought I heard him wrong, or maybe he was pulling my leg
"I only dated you because i wanted to know how it feels like being with a plus size'"
"Tim what are you saying.."I asked confused
"Do you think I will ever walk hand in hand with someone ,three times my size "
"Tim what the f**k are you saying to me?"
I sobbed loudly
"Look shit happens sometimes, I had to go,please clean up the stains before leaving "
He got up and started dressing up
"Tim....
My heart pounding,as my tears flow endlessly
He left and slammed the door after him
I lost words, I cant think or say anything that moment, I didn't even cry out loud,I dont even know if I can breathe anymore, I loved tim so much that it hurts alot ..... well you know ,a first love
I was only 16 when I got dumped by tim,my parents said am going to heal and find someone better
I tried to forget tim,but it was not so easy
2 yes later ,I met nathan, he made me believe ,I was beautiful, thick and sexy, he flaunt me in front kf his friends, i was happy,very happy, finally found love ,someone to love me the way I am
I was visibly glowing and happy ,but I was only just a mere object of satisfaction
That day I walked into his,a surprise visit only to find him in bed with some girl
He didnt even apologize or ran after me, after some few days of not calling eachother ,I decided to go patch things up with him
Getting to the door
I overheard heard horrible things ,nathan spill out to his friends about me,I was called fat and senseless by the same man who called me beautiful and bold
He brag on how,I cant do without him because I lack love and dying for some love and affection
"She's sick of being alone men,bitch got me and can't afford losing me"
His friends chuckled
"But how good she skips "
"Jaut a heavy bag of pudding, nothing interesting though she got skills I must confess,she can take you to that level, you know what I mean"
"So you are ditching her for kira"another asked
"Well you can't blame me,Kira is a whole upgrade than the fat cum bag"
They laughed loudly
I freezed staring at my reflection on the glass door,my tears were flowing ceaselessly and hand glued to the door handle
I won't blame him, if I got to choose a girlfriend by myself,as a guy ....I won't choose me
I slowly let go of the door handle and head home,there's no need wasting my life qoth a man who sees me as just an object of satisfaction and mockery
And ,now there's andre,whom I opened my heart to and shared my past with
He unapologetically dumped me same day he proposed ,wow what a lady you are beauty,am so sad for you
I kick off the stuffed toys on my bed and buried my face on a pillow ,crying my soul out
I fling the pillow and sat up , ried loudly again
"I hate my existence, I hate everything about me"i screamed out bitterly
"If...only ..I was as beautiful as anyone else
That night my mom came into my room
"Honey you are going to starve to death, you are still young to worry about him,you will still have a lot of suitors in the future "
"Why am I fat and ugly!!,I have been bullied from my primary school till date,mom,you are ageless,tall and beautiful, why am I not like you?"
My mom was an ex beauty queen,people said am the fat version of her
"Well having your father's body isn't a curse,you are beautiful the way you are,look at those flesh most of them bullies envy them,you dont even have belly fat,you're thick..and chubby but definitely not fat"
She's trying to cheer me up I know, no one will ever envy a fat lady
I jsut went mute ,my lios shivering holding back from crying in her presence
"You know am gonna tell you a secret "
I gaze at her with interest
"What secret?"
I asked curiously ,wiping my face with my palm
"Promise you won't tell you wont tell your dad"
I hesitated
"Okay, yes,I promise"i nodded impatiently
"Well i.....
She pressed her lips together like she was about to say something really heavy
"I..kissed my cousin"
"Well...
"Fresh kiss,we made out!!"
My jaw dropped
"You did what?"
"Had sex,sont act so innocent to me"
I never imagined mom to be that type
covered my ear
"I dont want to hear about it"
"Well,almost had sex,we got all smoochy smoochy... "
"What the...,he is your couz mom!!!,that's rough,and so grossing me out now"
She chuckled
"I was a wild teenager got drunk at my sixteen birthday, you know my couz Edward?"
"The one with a weird mustache "
She nodded with a satisfactory smile
"Yep,that was him"
"How could you!!"
I snapped loudly with a triggered anger
"Calm down,we didn't actually get into it completely, I was drunk and asked him to kiss me,we both tight and you know ,we kissed and ended up in the bedroom"
"Ewww!!"
"Well he was a bad kisser and his baby mustache was there,remembering it now,it disgusts me"
I slapped my forehead
"Mom you are really ...
"Oh did i mention before we get all naked and stuff ypur dad found us
"Whaaaaaat!!!,you knew dad then?
"He was my first and only love"
She said it like a voice actor in one of those fairy tale movies
"Dad's gonna kill him"
"No he was like.."what in the holy f**k is going on here,vanessa you fuckin your couz?"
I was dead drink to even get those words right
"Wait he did not kill Edward?"
"Of course not,I mean he is still alive right,he wont be living now ,if your dad killed him years ago,Well the next week ,they're still to discharge him from the hospital,your dad vistired6him out of puty only to dislocate more bones the nurses saved him,poor edward"
I cracked up
"Just look at the mirror reflection and tell me how could anyone who isnt bitter call this angel ugly"
My face clouded,as I stare at my reflection, eyes slowly getting wet with tears
"I hope one day you will realize how beautiful and precious you are and flaunt your charms without giving a f**k what they say"
"Mom...
She brushed my hair with her fingers
"Can you let me be alone for now mom?"
She sighed out loudly
"Alright ,take care,don't take anything harmful you may not be so lucky like last times, and please know that i and your dad loves you more than anything in pur existence,please,see yourself the way I see you"
As soon as she shut the door,I cried loudly,I vowed to save money for surgery,that the only way to fit into the world beauty standard,and escape from their hatred,bullying, shaming and judgemental nature
**3 years later**
Location:F&F fashion company ,usa
She showed me a pic on her phone
"Wha'ya think?"
"Wow jessie this is perfect, you're so perfect "
I exclaimed, admiring her everything in the picture,she's a runaway queen for sure
"Oh please ,its just the editing "
Jessie chuckled blushing
"You are a natural jessie"
I continued
"Stop it already"
She got all red
"Let me see the second one"
I requested,she swiped and showed me
"Isnt this from our last year summer collection?"
"Yup,am keeping then cus they look so good on me"
I shook my head smiling
Our company's lucky to have her as their model,she was the first friend I made in the company actually more like my only friend
I smiled at her as she went through the pics,showing me each of her favorite piece asking about what I think of it
After a while she got busy with chats
I faced my designs and at a point ,confused in making a choice
I got her to help fortunately
"Which do you think will be nice jessie, the purple or red?"
I showed jessi my designs
"I will go for the purple,it's elegant but red romantic and suits the theme"
We got a call to the meet with the CEO
Just last minute,Mr hathaway announced his son Bruno as the new Ceo
"Am sorry father,but I dont deserve to be the CEO,I appreciate the offer as your child but j will love to work my way to the top,please let ferd be the CEO he got more experience than me,for the good of our company, when I am qualified for it,i can take your place"
He stated
"Bruno ,I think you are being silly"
His father snapped
"Silly?"
I muttered to myself, he made a lot of sense,
Mr bruno's the only child of the owner of our fashion company but he is soo humble and sometimes suprisely very humble for a young billionaire
Mr Hathaway seem not welcoming the idea of bruno not taking over the company today, but he had no choice than dance to his tone
I stole a quick haze at mr bruno
He will never notice me,am the ugliest in the company
I don't have that body that most of girls have
"When are you going to tell him you been crushing for 3 years! girl not your fault though,he is every lady's dream man ,rich ,calm,humble,caring,and overall handsomeness,gush,he is so handsome for this world,I gave up a year ago though....
"Jessi..."I whispered
I tried not to make it obvious,but she wont stop
"I dont know if he's gay,he can't be seduced,I tried and failed,try your luck though"jessie whispered into my ears cutting into my thoughts
"Jessie!"i snapped out loud,it attracted others attention
"Am sorry sor"
Boss is completely the opposite of his quiet son
"I allowed you in this company because of your talents and skills, normally you don't belong here,I risk the face of this company keeping a bag of beans like you here,so dont ever interrupt me when am saying something again"
I felt that in my bone,I knew this or something close to this is gonna happen
Others were silent ,I heard some silent chuckles ,most from the ladies side
"Am sorry sir"i couldn't look up
I felt a wet drop on my feet, its from my eyes,I had to rub it off my eyes with a thumb
"As I was saying... .
Mr Bruno interrupted
"Father please, those words are harsh ,very harsh actually"
"
There was a moment of silence after
"Am so sorry beauty"jessie whispered
"Its okay am used to this"i whispered back and smiled at her with wet eyes,she wasn't convinced, she patted the back on my hand gently,I closed them eyes and exhale deeply
"Now ladies our theme for the weekend show is bikini ,try your best to showcase your beauties and of course most importantly our designs"
"Yes boss"other models chorused
Jessie wasn't in the mood,because of what happened ,so she kept mute,grumbling silently
***somewhere in Europe**
**Shell's pov**
"I had a twin?"
"Yes"mrs joyce my supposed mother replied
"She's just like me but fat..she's so cute and gorgeous"
I stare at the image of h er on my screen,its like looking into the mirror,well a mirror that can make you appear fatter
"Actually you two are very identical same birthmarks but you are lucky to have your mom's body and she got your dad's fat,funny you two got same name,beauty,isn't that interesting"
"She's also lucky.....she does't look so happy in this photo,I wonder how she is coping,wh er e is she how do I meet her "
"Calm down young lady,you gonna meet her someday,I promise"
"But why..are you telling me this mom?
"I promised your birth mom I will tell you when you came of age,so ,am fulfilling that promise"
I smiled at her and huggled her tightly
"Thanks mother you don't know how happy this made me,having those strange feelings and all the twin effect,I thought I was going crazy"
"When you are done,come join us ,for dinner"
She pecked my forehead and left the room
I jumped happily, tossing my pillow here and there,taking a closer look at the pic
I bacame very worried,the pic was a happy graduation pic,everyone was laughing except her,with wet eyes,two students were pointing at her
"She's with her real parents,so she will be good I guess"i thought out loud but still I got this feeling that everything isn't good with her
I mean in this judgemental world,its obvious she was bullied or body shamed by the photographer,I feel her emotions in this pic and had the scene flash back
sometimes it happens like flashes, my finger was injured with a ring mark when I've ever wore a ring on my engagement finger,I thought it's just me,overthinking but its now clear
Another me is out there,and I am going to help her boost her confidence
"Shell!!,you coming?"
Mom's voice called
"Will be there in a minute "
I yelled out,I smiled back once again at the picture and got up,arranged my bed and walked out of the room,heading to the dining
Chapter 1 BROKEN
23/02/2022
Chapter 2 A NIGHT WITH MR BRUNO
23/02/2022
Chapter 3 A NIGHT WITH MR BRUNO
23/02/2022
Chapter 4 INTIMIDATED
23/02/2022
Chapter 5 BUMPED INTO AN EX
23/02/2022
Chapter 6 ENEMIES TO ROOMMATES
25/02/2022
Chapter 7 CONFESSIONS
25/02/2022
Chapter 8 LOVE IN THE WOODS
28/02/2022
Chapter 9 LOVE ME LIKE YOU DO
28/02/2022
Chapter 10 AN EX RETURNS
28/02/2022
Chapter 11 THE SLEEP OVER
21/03/2022
Chapter 12 SKIN DEEP ( WARNING ADULT CONTENT)
21/03/2022
Chapter 13 HOT SEAT
30/03/2022
Chapter 14 THE NEW BIRTH
02/04/2022
Chapter 15 BRUNO HAD A BABY (Exposed)
08/04/2022
Chapter 16 His Father's request
10/05/2022
Chapter 17 Workaholic
10/05/2022
Chapter 18 SUCIDAL
10/05/2022
Chapter 19 THE BLACKMAIL
10/05/2022
Chapter 20 WHO DIED
10/05/2022
Chapter 21 A new beginning
10/05/2022
Chapter 22 ANOTHER BRUNO
15/05/2022
Chapter 23 LOVE AGAIN
15/05/2022
Chapter 24 THE FEELS
15/05/2022
Chapter 25 The surprise
15/05/2022
Chapter 26 Beano is back
15/05/2022
Chapter 27 CRAZY IN LOVE
15/05/2022
Chapter 28 Happy beginning
15/05/2022
Chapter 29 THE END
22/05/2022
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