Marriage without love

"William Jackson, do you love me?"

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"If that Madison comes back...will you leave me?"

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Jennifer continued to insist:

"Please answer me."

He grudgingly replied,

"Go out!"

She nodded quietly and turned to leave. The door closed, she dared to cry. How many times had she caused her eyes to swell up because of this. Even though she told herself she was just a substitute for his first love, why did her heart ache just thinking about it?

She loves him and he loves Madison. She came to him when Madison had just abandoned him. Tried so, but why didn't he open up to her?

The question "do you love me?" she asked him for the tenth time but still got no answer. After all, in his heart, where is she?

He sat in his room still holding the contract, but his mind was on her. If three years ago, he would have answered no, but now when she asked him that question again, he didn't have the courage to answer "no". Maybe you love her already? Even he himself did not have the correct answer.

*****

"I'm pregnant, can you stay with me? Just a little bit. I really need you. Please!"

The two words "please" are like her last pleas and at the same time the only hope holding him back. She thought he would come back to her for the sake of the child in her belly, but she was wrong. He remained silent and coldly walked away. She watched him disappear behind the large door, her heart breaking into a hundred pieces. This time, she couldn't hold back anymore. How much frustration, bitterness, and pain broke out. She sat down on the cold ground, clutching her face and sobbing. Are you... so cruel? For so many years she had tried in the end, but only his silence was received in return. She unconsciously looked down at her belly, this child he probably didn't need either.

Jennifer Martinez smiled wryly, her eyes red from crying. She crouched down in a corner and absentmindedly recalled the time she spent. She realizes that trying is not enough, but also needs luck. Unfortunately, that luck is only for his first love and not hers. Time passed like that, she didn't know when she became like this. She just knew it was time to stop. Without him, she had to continue living not only for her sake but also for the child that was forming in her belly.

After understanding, Jennifer put her hand on the ground and stood up. Reaching out to wipe the tears from her eyes, she gave up. Even though it hurts, She can't continue. Le took heavy steps towards the stairs. Suddenly, the ringing of her phone made her stop. Opening the phone, my eyelids tiredly looked at the screen.

It's his number!

Jennifer Martinez's eyes widened in surprise. In the three years of living together, this was the first time she received a call from him. Her hands were shaking, her heart was both happy and worried. Even though she knew it was time to give up, she was still happy when he called her. However, she was also afraid, afraid that this would be their last call.

She quickly picked up the phone. His voice was heard on the other end of the line. Different from the usual cold, irritable intonation, instead, it was an unprecedented gentleness.

"I went out to buy some things. You eat rice first, don't wait for me. You haven't eaten all night. I will try to leave early!"

She didn't seem to believe her ears, so surprised that she was speechless. He said he'd be home with her soon, and he reminded her gently. She wondered if what was happening was real or was she just dreaming?

On the other side did not see her reply, he worriedly asked:

"Jennifer! Can you hear me?"

His voice jerked her out of her thoughts. She gradually returned to reality, retracted her dazed eyes, and quickly replied:

"I...I heard you. When are you coming back?"

He replied:

"Soon."

"So... you should be careful on the road."

"I know. You don't have to worry, eat first, don't let your stomach go hungry."

She meekly nodded.

"I know."

"Okay, I'll hang up."

"Bye!"

Then, she hung up the phone with a bright smile on her lips. She had intended to leave just now, but now that thought was gone. His words just now took her by surprise. He thought he would leave her, but in fact it was the exact opposite. There are no words to describe her feeling right now. Isn't this the reward after all her efforts? She should be happy but why are she crying? Crying because she was too happy or crying because she just realized something.

Jennifer Martinez took a deep breath and wiped her tears with her hand, then walked over to the sofa and waited for him. Although he repeatedly reminded her to eat dinner first, she still wanted to have a family meal with him. Married for three years, they have never had a meal together, sat at the same table. No matter how long she waited today, she would wait. Wait for him to come back to her.

12 pm.

It had been more than an hour since he left the house, although it was late, she was still waiting for him. In Jennifer's heart, she was extremely worried, she was not secure but went back and forth many times, her eyes always directed to the main door. This late at night, if you go out, will there be anything unexpected? Feeling insecure, she picked up the phone and dialed his number. The ringtone on the other end of the line rang, she waited patiently but he didn't pick up the phone. Hesitating for a long time, she reached for a temporary windbreaker, locked the door carefully, and hurriedly went to find him.

In the middle of the night, the streets of Hanoi were deserted, she was a single girl walking alone in a place where few people passed, very dangerous. She understands that, so she knows how to protect herself. It's just that her anxiety overwhelms everything. The only thing she wanted to do now was find him. She looked around, there was not a taxi here, not even a motorbike taxi driver. The phone in her hand is always on because she has called and texted him many times.

Jennifer Martinez wandering in the middle of an empty street. The only place she thought of was his company, but if she walked, when would she arrive? From where she is standing to the company is also a few kilometers away. But she didn't think much of it, her feet kept walking involuntarily. After going a long way, she caught sight of a man sleeping on a motorbike on the side of the road. Thinking it was a motorbike taxi, she quickly went to inquire.

"Uncle! Uncle!"

The other man was awakened by her call. She tried to wake the man up.