She was all alone, wallowing in divine grief and lamenting her losses. She had nothing to call her own, and all her wounds had refused to heal. She yearned for just one thing now-to disconnect from the cruel world. In the darkness, she closed her eyes, hoping to awaken in a place of tranquility-in heaven, surrounded by the beautiful souls she had lost. But to her bewilder, she found herself in bed the next morning with someone she would never have anticipated seeing again, especially in the darkest moment of her life-Liam Morgan Adams. Her ex. And he came with his own overflowing bucket of surprisal and sorrows that, for reasons best known to him, only Lynn could help him carry. "Bear me a child, Lynn. The price is yours to name." He spoke, and everything in Lynn froze. A child! Her head spun some degrees, and when it settled, she squinted as the raw memories of her past pains surged in, fused with the memories of what they once had. And his constant, desperate plea left her between a rock and a hard place. Can she do this? Can this be her redemption? And Liam, why would a filthy, married billionaire ask for a child out of wedlock? And why Lynn, of all people?
Chapter 1 SURROWS
I stamp my imprints on the cold floor, my head throbbing with rebounds of immense pain. My eyes are overflowing pools of tears. I can't even see well despite the orange lanterns illuminating my white-themed room. My eyebags are bulging out so heavily from all the crying.
How long has it been again?
Four days?
Yes! Four days that feel like an eternity of an inferno of heart-wrecking pains. Four days that I haven't eaten nor stepped out of this room. For days of pure crying, moaning, but not even all that crying has been able to alleviate this pain. Four days that I haven't dared to even breathe the outside aura, but now I want to.
Descending through the stairway, I can only hearken to one irritatingly paralyzing voice echoing in my ears, stroking through the shuttered barricades of my heart - dreadful lull. Silence. And it sucks! It stings! It is banging all the corners of this house and surging in me so savagely as if to mock me, reminding me that despite my loathing towards it, it is, and will be, my only companion from now on.
I curse this life! I curse this shit they call fate! And if there really is someone perched on the throne of heaven, as they say, I don't know what to think of him.
I drag my wasted, dejected self outside, meeting with the darkness as it overtakes the light. Now this rhymes my actual state - my whole entirety is clogged with dearness. The light left my life a long time ago, that is, if there ever was any light in my life.
I shuffle my feeble legs through the darkness, wandering to the backyard just behind the house.
Three graves stare at me!
More tears flow!
Pain stings twofold!
All the energy leaves me abruptly!
I find myself slamming to the misty grass before the graves.
My whole family is all gone - gone for good.
Life is cruel! Fate is cruel! Everything is just cruel to me!
It was not enough that my brother died in a road accident two years ago. It was hell, one bitter hell. Being the only sibling I ever had, I felt like a part of me died with him. I felt so alone and empty, so did my parents. But we had to accept the cruel however hard to was - first grave.
As if that was not enough pain, months later, found out that I was pregnant, and my fiance of three years saw it right to ditch me at the most worst moment. He didn't know of the seed that was joyously growing inside of me, and I didn't see any need of letting him know. He was bound to marry someone of his pedigree, and I was not even a shadow to match his class. I was cognizant of that fact from day one of our relationship, but the flames of love that were burning us made me believe that it would burn all barriers blocking our way to our happy ending. But it didn't. Time came, and we had to amicably part ways. I understood him, you know. I am not mad at him for not fighting hard for what we had. Maybe that was beyond him, but God? Why did he have to take my poor baby away from me?
Why did our baby had die and leave me so empty and shuttered and hopeless?
For nine good months I carried my baby in my womb. Nine months that were filled with pure euphoric raptures and unfathomable anticipations of how complete my life was about to be. Nine months of anticipation and eagerness. I had even started dreaming big for my sweet child. I could foresee how cute it would be, and how great it would become in the future. The news of my baby felt like divine completion. I couldn't have asked for anything more. But all the doors to my dreams were slammed shut to my face in the most cruel way possible. After minutes of labour that felt like an entirety, all the pains were washed away with the sweet cry of an angel announcing its arrival to the earth, but little did I know, that my baby was saying hello, and goodbye, Mommy.
One cry, and everything went dreary quiet. I can't explain what I felt back then, but it was a feeling that made me blackout, only to wake up to the news that the baby didn't breathe again after that one cry.
The ground beneath me trembled, and everything in me broke into the tiniest pieces. I sunk into depression. Honestly, I don't even know how I pulled through that shit, but all credits go to my sweet parents. They stood with me through it all for those few weeks I was lost. Now, I didn't deserve any of that, right? My baby didn't deserve to die for no reason at all, right?
After managing depression, I thought all was over. That I will not have to go through the pain of losing another soul. At least not in the near future. I was still bleeding heavily, and I believed that the heavens could see that and spare me from another pain. But as the screw that life is, it was then that it dropped another horrific bombshell. My poor mother was diagnosed with lung cancer. All hell came crumbling down on me and my poor parents.
The pain of losing another soul was a threat to my sanity, and the pain of watching my mother wallow in pain weighed down on me. But I had to play the strong gem. The back-and-forth treatment and chemo weren't for the faint-hearted, and I learnt that through the hard way. The desire to help my mother beat the monstrous disease drove me to doing some things that I, myself, am not so proud of. But I had to, because what else was I supposed to do when everyone left me when bills started accruing? Nobody ever wants to be burdened. They say you only know your true friends when you are in a dilemma and need their help badly. Well, I am a living testimony of that because they all disappeared like vapour the moment the news of my mother's illness got to them. All of them, even that one soul that I never expected could do that to us. He left me to care for my mother all alone.
And again, as if I am a seed of pain, or a cursed soul, none of my efforts bore any fruits. Neither my sacrifices nor my prayers were worth anything. Because just a week before today, my mother breathed her last. In front of my eyes. And in my arms. I felt all my nerves die with her. All my hopes and the will to live died with her-last grave.
Everything I had in life is all gone - gone for good. I am nothing but pain. I have nothing to cling to. Nothing to call mine. Even the house that is serving as my roof right now isn't mine anyone. I mortgaged it in the battle to source the medical bills. I have no one. I have nowhere to go. And this pain? I can't bear it anymore.
As I lay flat in this death-screaming pain and darkness, I wish that the heavens could take me to where all these three soles are peacefully resting so that I can have a rest too.
I have had enough.
I need peace.
I crave peace.
I deserve peace!
Chapter 1 SURROWS
04/07/2023
Chapter 2 STRANGE MORNING
04/07/2023
Chapter 3 AN UNBELIEVABLE PLEA
04/07/2023
Chapter 4 DIVING DEEP INTO THE PROPOSAL
08/07/2023
Chapter 5 THE STRANGER
08/07/2023
Chapter 6 MAKING A DECISION
08/07/2023
Chapter 7 A TANGLED ARRIVAL
10/07/2023
Chapter 8 MEETING THE WIFE
10/07/2023
Chapter 9 THE FEAR OF THE UNKNOWN
11/07/2023
Chapter 10 THE BEEF
11/07/2023
Chapter 11 URGE FOR THE TRUTH
19/07/2023
Chapter 12 BEMUSING TRUTHS
19/07/2023
Chapter 13 SUSPICIONS
20/07/2023
Chapter 14 SOUL TANGLE
21/07/2023
Chapter 15 BURNING REMORSE
22/07/2023
Chapter 16 SWEET PROMISES AND TEASES
22/07/2023
Chapter 17 INDEBTED
23/07/2023
Chapter 18 BONDING
23/07/2023
Chapter 19 ACCIDENT
24/07/2023
Chapter 20 WARNING
08/08/2023
Chapter 21 ACCUSATIONS
09/08/2023
Chapter 22 BAFFLES AND BURNING DESIRES
11/08/2023
Chapter 23 THE FIGHT
12/08/2023
Chapter 24 THE RIFT DEEPENS
16/08/2023
Chapter 25 SAVING LIAM
21/08/2023
Chapter 26 DIFFERENT OPINIONS
31/08/2023
Chapter 27 THE ARRANGEMENTS
05/09/2023
Chapter 28 PREGNANCE BAFFLES
21/09/2023
Chapter 29 GOOD NEWS
21/09/2023
Chapter 30 STILL HELL
23/09/2023
Chapter 31 HER DOSE
23/09/2023
Chapter 32 BLAME FIGHTS
23/09/2023
Chapter 33 CONTRACT FIGHT
23/09/2023
Chapter 34 RUINED PLANS
03/10/2023
Chapter 35 NOT APOLOGETIC
03/10/2023
Chapter 36 SHORT AND SWEET
03/10/2023
Chapter 37 GROSS RECEPTION
10/10/2023
Chapter 38 DISGRACED
10/10/2023
Chapter 39 THE KISS FEUD
12/10/2023
Chapter 40 BLACKMAIL
12/10/2023
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