As soon as I entered the house, I immediately saw Axlle sitting on the sofa while a woman I just saw was staring at me. He looked at me with no emotion before returning his gaze to the girl on his right. I held my breath before passing them. I'm used to being like this all the time. There wasn't a day or night that Axlle didn't bring another woman into the house. But it's not because I love him, I'll just let it be like this forever. I entered my room and there my tears fell spontaneously. I promise that this will be the last time I cry to him. I went to my drawer and took out a brown envelope that he gave me. He gave it to me a long time ago but only now did I dare to open it. I was depressed by what I saw. An annulment paper with his signature. So he has been putting up with me for a long time. He has been waiting for a long time to get rid of me. I wiped my tears and immediately took a ballpen from my bag. Even if it hurts, even if it's hard, I'll still do it. I hurt myself too much just because of loving him. After I signed everything, I packed up. I don't care where I end up. As soon as I came down, I couldn't help but feel hurt because of what I saw. The way he kissed the girl. The way he moon. That I have never experienced from him. I sighed again before approaching them. Even though it hurt, I put a brown envelope on the table. They stopped and gave me a bad look. "What's this?!.."Axlle asked me angrily. I didn't answer him but I just turned around with my suitcases. "I know you've been waiting for this for a long time. I know you have put up with me for a long time. Forgive me, I was too blind in my love for you. I don't even think about how you feel . So now, I've set you free. You're free.." words I told him before I completely left him. It hurts me but it's necessary. I lived then without him by my side and with me. And I will make sure that I will live like the times when he was not in my life.
CHAPTER 1
DILLION'S POV
I left our house crying. It hurt so much, I thought I wouldn't cry anymore. But this treacherous tear of mine fell on its own. I just let it go until it stopped on its own.
It hurts so much to leave someone you love so much. I looked around our house for a while before leaving the place completely.
I could hardly see the road because of the tears blocking my eyes. I didn't think it really hurts like this to let go of the person you love just for their happiness.
I sat on the side of the road because of the sudden tightness in my chest. I feel like I can't breathe. Is it really like this when you are hurt so much?
He calmed himself before standing up. But all of a sudden it started to rain, which seemed to join me in my grief.
I let my tears flow with the rain. I just experienced this pain.
Even then I was still in pain, but not like this where I couldn't breathe.
I just keep walking regardless of the heavy rain. I don't know where I'm going anymore. I just kept walking while carrying the worst pain I've ever experienced.
I saw with my own two eyes how people ran for shelter because of the force of the rain. Some looked at me, some felt sorry and some took pictures of me. I don't care what they did.
I want to relieve the pain in my heart.
I stopped when suddenly someone helped me. I was about to walk again when he suddenly grabbed my wrist and forced me to face him.
"What is your problem!?" with an angry tone. I didn't look at him and forcefully removed his grip on my hand.
"Let go of me!, I don't need you and who are you?!.."I said angrily to him and still didn't look at him.
I felt his grip loosen and I thought he was going to let me go but suddenly he picked me up and put me in his car.
"Stay!!" he said angrily. That's when I looked at his face
"A-ace?" I could barely pronounce his name because I was shaking.
"Just stay.. I'll just get your stuff.." now his voice is calm. I nodded and just let him go.
I kept staring at Ace's face as we drove down the road to his house. It happened so fast and in an instant I saw my best friend again. I saw again the person who loved me so much but I didn't even reciprocate that.
"A-ace?" I called his name. But it didn't say anything so I just let it go. My body is shivering because of the extreme cold.
I looked again at Ace who now held my hand and squeezed it tightly.
After I got dressed, I immediately went out of the bathroom.
"Hurry up there and we'll eat first.." I just nodded at Ace. Even though it was too embarrassing to go with him, there was nothing I could do.
We just stared at each other. I was the first to let go because I couldn't keep up with him because of his sharp gaze.
"Eat first. We'll talk about that later.." as if he read my mind. I nodded again in no time.
After we ate, he immediately took me to his room.
"Now tell me, Why are you walking in the middle of the road while letting the rain get you wet?" he immediately asked when we entered his room.
"Let me guess.. Did my brother do that to you?. Did he raise his hand?" he asked in front of me.
He just sighed.
"Just answer that tomorrow. Get some rest now.." he told me. "I know you will ask where you will sleep. Do not worry. Because we will sleep next to each other here in my room.."
I was distracted when I heard a voice below me that sounded like shouting. I looked next to me and Ace was gone.
I slowly got up and left the room.
"I told you! Don't hurt my best friend again!" I heard Ace shout downstairs.
I stopped walking when I heard Axlle's voice accompanying Ace's shout.
"I don't care about him. I don't care if he's hurt! I don't care about a gay man like him!! I'm almost deaf because of the strength. I covered my mouth and prevented myself from doing anything noise
Very painful. I was very hurt by what I heard.
"Fvck you, brother. Fuck you!!!. If you don't even care about him, then why did you steal him from me!?.." Ace sobbed and promised Axlle. "Why did you take him from the person who truly loves him!?" Ace added.
I wanted to go down but I felt stuck and couldn't move.
"To repay you!. You are the reason why my girlfriend broke up with me! You are the reason why my world is completely falling apart!!. It's all your fault.." Axlle also growled angrily at Ace.
"So you took Dillion from me? Why? What is Dillion's fault and why did you sympathize with him in our mess?!. Dillion is out of here, but you hurt him more than me!!"
I never heard Axlle answer again. I took a heavy step back to the room and shed the tears that I had been holding back.
It's so painful that he only looks at me like that. He just used me to get revenge on his brother.
I'm crying non-stop. I tried to stop it, but these treacherous tears came out on their own.
It's not my fault that I love him. It's not my fault that I fell into his traps. But why is this his revenge? Why does he take all his anger out on me?
I was surprised when the door opened.
"D-dillion?..." Ace asked me tremblingly. I smiled bitterly at him and wiped away the tears.
He immediately hugged me and that's when I heard his soft sobs.
"Forgive me. I didn't intend to hurt you and get involved in our fight.."
I smiled bitterly.
"You're not guilty. No one is guilty. It's never a sin to love. Yes, it hurts me that he thinks of me like that. But there's nothing we can do, it's happened..." I tried to cheer up my voice I and rubbed his back.
Several days have passed since that happened at Ace's house. But until now, the hurtful words of Axlle have come to my mind again and again.
Even though I promised that I won't cry to him anymore, but I still can't. I was still secretly crying and released all the pain in my heart.
"Dillion?" I immediately wiped my tears when I heard Ace's voice.
I faced him with a smile.
"Hmmm?"
"The dinner is ready. Come and let's eat.." he promised with a smile and immediately extended his hand.
I immediately accepted it and we went down together. But I stopped immediately when Axlle's eyes met.
"D-dillion?" I looked back at him and immediately looked at Ace.
"I'll be right later. I'll just follow you..." I said to Ace and immediately removed my hand that was holding him.
I didn't wait for his answer and immediately ran upstairs.
Suddenly the room opened and Ace entered.
"We'll just eat here. I want us to eat together." he promised with a smile and immediately placed the food he brought on the mini table here.
"T-thank you.."
After we ate, I pretended that I would be the one to wash up, and Axlle left.
And he also said that's why Axlle came here to personally say goodbye to him and apologize.
Days, months, and years passed. Until little by little this wound in my heart is healed. There is still a little pain but not as much as it used to feel like I can't breathe because it hurts so much.
I left Ace's house. Because I have savings again and I told him that I want to be able to cook first.
I still remember our last conversation before I left it.
"Can you really leave alone?" he asked worriedly. I laughed at him.
"Of course. I'm not young anymore and I'm a person with big savings.." I replied to him.
I was just surprised when he suddenly pulled me and kissed my lips without hesitation.
I still blinked because of what he did.
"I will wait for you, Dillion".."words he said to me.
I just came back from my trance when my phone suddenly rang.
I wasn't going to answer it because it was an unknown number. But it's still annoying and it rings again and again.
I held my breath before answering it.
"Hello?" seemed to be annoyed when I answered the other side.
"D-dillion..." I dropped my phone because after a while I heard his voice again.
I just sat on the bench while waiting for his arrival. To be honest, I had no intention of meeting him yet because my heart had not completely healed.
Because I promised him that when it completely heals, I will come back to him immediately. But this, I'm waiting because he says he has something important to tell me.
I looked at my watch and I've been here for an hour but he still isn't there.
I held my breath and was about to stand and was about to leave because he arrived just in time.
"I'm sorry if I'm late because I was driving Ivy to her work.." I looked at him questioningly.
I invited him to sit first.
"I'm sorry, Dillion. I'm sorry because I made a mistake. I didn't mean it. I just woke up in another room that was completely naked. Sorry I didn't mean to. But it happened and I had to he is responsible.." he suddenly promised me.
Even though I didn't ask, he answered it immediately. I held his hand.
"You don't have to apologize to me, Ace. I'm actually happy for you..." I said and tried to smile at him.
He smiled back at me but I knew it was forced. I calmed myself first so that he wouldn't notice that I was affected.
"Is that all you're going to tell me? Why didn't you just say it on the phone when you called? You just wasted my time." this place.
"I want to tell you personally and to personally apologize to you. And one more thing.. I-i miss you so much, Dillion.." I smiled at him and immediately let go of his hand.
"I wish it would be a little while and I will come back to you. But it seems that we are not really compatible with each other.." I said to him with a little regret.
"I'm sorry, because I didn't like the incident either. But I can't do anything about it. I'm going to be a father soon." my heart. That I can never give to him or any man that I can love.
"How's that? I have to go.. because I still have work to do.." I lied to him and immediately turned away. That's when I realized that there were tears in my eyes.
"Dillion.."
"Hmmm
"Thank you.." I just nodded to him and immediately left.
I could hardly stand the people dancing on the stage or maybe it was because of my drunkenness.
After Ace and I talked earlier, I immediately came here. I don't know how many hours I stayed in this bar.
I want to get drunk and drink away all the pain. It still really hurts. But there is nothing I can do. It happened. And fortunately, my feelings for him were not that deep.
I drank the wine again. My throat seems to have gotten used to its bitterness.
I was really dizzy while leaving the bar. I staggered to my car, but before I got there, I bumped into someone.
"Shit!!" I looked at him but my vision was really blurry. That's why I didn't feel his face very well.
"D-dillion?.." was the last thing I heard and darkness engulfed me completely.
I just woke up when the sun's rays hit my face.
I groaned and immediately opened my eyes.
"Where am I?" I only asked myself as an unfamiliar room opened up to me. I was about to get up but suddenly my head hurt so I laid down again.
"Fuck!!" I mumbled as my forehead was covered.
I looked at the door when it suddenly opened.
"Good morning, sir.." greeted me a lady who had just entered
I looked at what he brought.
"Where am I?" I asked here.
"Oh, sir. Because sir says that when you ask, we are not allowed to answer..." he replied.
"But if you want to know. He's just there in his room. I'll teach him later. And just tap him when you're done eating..." I smiled at my brother and immediately thanked him.
After I ate, manang immediately showed me his master's room.
I went home again holding my breath before knocking three times on the door. But it didn't open yet, I was about to turn back, maybe because it was still sleeping.
But I didn't completely turn my back when it opened.
"You should thank me because I was the first to see you. If it wasn't me, maybe you might have been raped on the way. You're gay.." he immediately let go of the words.
Even though it turned its back, I know and know who it is. I clenched my fist.
"Thank you and I'm drunk. If it happens that I'm not. I might have missed you.." I responded coldly to him and immediately left.
I even heard him laugh which made my head shake even more.
His mother's. Thanks to him and I was drunk last night. If it doesn't happen, I might have ordered it.
To be continued....
Chapter 1 The tears
16/11/2023
Chapter 2 Boss
16/11/2023
Chapter 3 my bad dream
16/11/2023
Chapter 4 after the incident
16/11/2023
Chapter 5 Home
16/11/2023
Chapter 6 the divorce paper
16/11/2023
Chapter 7 Our kisses
16/11/2023
Chapter 8 Pregnant
16/11/2023
Chapter 9 modeling company
17/11/2023
Chapter 10 personal doctor
17/11/2023
Chapter 11 The situation
01/03/2024
Chapter 12 Mission happened
02/03/2024
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