Silent Hearts, Golden Lies

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eat in the back row,

ff the cap of her pen, and glan

too hard. She remembered the moment it happened, the splash of water fr

d to a bl

voice, precise and cutting. She would not think about feeling trapped in a

napkin a boy had quietly placed on the

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n with someone in the hall, nodding seriously. As he ent

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catching the leg of Elara's desk

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a said, "Excellen

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, she always tracked the minutes until she could go home, a hab

st the adjacent locker with both arms crossed. "Very impr

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bag. She turned to look at Mi

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id, but it came out mean. "It's

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throw the

library at 3:40 when he

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left page was about physics, quantum mechanics, the kind not on the senior syllabus, written in small, clean

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