LOVE ME OR HATE ME

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our minutes when I stopped pret

The city stretched below me in its usual indifferent vastness. Glass buildings catching afternoon light. Traffic moving in patterns that made sen

gave me

contracts or the forty seven unread emails sitting in my inbox demanding the

Aria Blackwood walk

nderneath the professional surface. Something careful and exposed and genuinely uncertain. And I had told her

g the safe thin

e first time in a very long time I allowed myself to

have my files organized and my schedule updated before I had even taken my jacket off. She had sneezed twice during our morning briefing and apologized for it like

that refused to cooperate and she had stayed without being asked. She had not hovered. She had not offered empty reassurances or tried to fill the silence wit

like that with

a person that way

o something professional and safe. The way everything she felt had been completely visible for those few unguarded s

oom full of cameras and how something had moved through m

professio

e of an employer managing an un

ezzanine and seen another man reaching for something that he

tairs because I could n

as the

s accepting every single thing she offered while hiding behind the memory of a woman who had taught me that warmth w

had done

d le

was not

ria Blackwood every single day for eight months and what I had found every single time was the same thing. Consistency. Si

make a g

ce that surprised me with its steadiness. Not a wish. Not a maybe. A simple clear re

g to lose her

ing to lose

y chair and put it on and walked out of my office with the particular calm o

s at he

arranged it back into professional neutrality. She raised one hand in a small wave a

. Cole," she

Miss Blackw

into th

ntire body responded in that way I had grown tired of before I had ever learned her name. I walked past her without breaking m

ng at

had already le

waved goodbye like it was the smallest thing in the world and had no

almost taken h

mo

lence of it and felt something I had not felt in two years settle into

oing fo