LOVE ME OR HATE ME

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mouth before I had fu

en measured and deliberate and chosen with the precision of someone who understood that words were not just sounds. They were commitment

sked Blackwood if sh

own

e door

ion that threatened to show me for what I actually was underneath all of this. Composed. Unreachable. The m

ot behaving like c

tween my last breath and the next one, holding itself in complete stillness for the answer of a woman wh

me and for a moment s

were still at her sides and her chin was lifted with that particular dignity she carried everywhere and her eyes were doing that thing again. That thin

howing it

of

she

wo

landed in the center of my chest with a weight that I felt in

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ot love M

is office right now including the fact that the air between us had shifted into something that had nothing to do with Singapor

t about

time to process the danger. Vivienne had stood in a room very much like this one two years ago and looked at me with eyes that I had believ

housand

that had n

e down to nothing but fury and t

ck into something that made people lower their voices when they said my name and I had done it without love

been sitting outside my

watching her wi

nnecessary. The way she handled every difficult situation with a quiet steadiness that made the entire floor function better simply because she w

ne something to me that I d

lled

I was not reading and let my voice return to the register I used when I nee

lackwood," I said. "You

ot move i

eyes on

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aid. Clean and

you s

because she des

ay Aria,

ing more fragile than relief. She nodded once and then s

e door close

the fi

ed through and felt the truth of something settle over me with the particular heavine

s o

what I ha

s against my desk an

as not