la's
k, though I couldn't be sure. Everything felt unfamiliar in a way that pressed against my ski
ment as I crossed the street, my fingers tightening around
undo, yet it lingered in the way my chest refused to settle. In the way my thou
thm without asking who I used to be. I walked through it like someone learning how to exist again, st
ell
I looked up and found her standing on the corner, waving with both hands like
ough to breathe properly, but enough
ning my face before she pulled me into a hug th
sting lightly on my arms, her gaze searching in a
n't quite reach where it used
al ease. "I was going to say you look like you haven'
n accurate," I said
fingers brushing mine for a second before taking
something fragile. I didn't respond, I just follo
pavement. Reflections slid across the glass like shif
ds, a new café she'd been insisting I would love. I nodded where it seemed appropriate, smil
e said eventually, though t
her. "You said something about a restaurant
, but it's close enough." She studied me again, more carefu
back to the window.
er. "You're answering like some
st my coat. "I just don't want to
d feel her watching me, waiting, givi
?" she asked
ed slowl
An
dn't a
seat, her arms crossing loose
ok ever
n us, heavy with things w
nd that made the city lights feel warmer than they were. She led me up the narrow staircase, her st
apping around me the moment I stepped inside. It felt lived-
pushing open a door. "I changed the sheets t
her. "You ha
d like someone standing on the edg
pping into the ro
o know you." She ti
d. "Yes.
ll ho
ll ho
y hands pressing into the comforter as I stared at my reflection in the window. The city stretched behind i
my cheek as if I could smooth out the exhaus
n with two mugs, steam curling into the air between us. She han
say anything tonig
mug, letting the heat seep into
e that for a while, the only sound the faint hum of the city ou
m?" she asked eventual
, like it needed time to rea
se anything else woul
ngers tapping once against he
Ye
icking briefly to my stomach before returni
mug tightened
second before lifting again. "That's a c
choice," I said, my voic
id it fe
ly fragments. "Like staying would have brok
. She studied me, as if measuring
the only option,"
t realized I'd been holding
does," she r
ence again, I unpacked slowly, placing my things into unfamiliar spaces. Each
one, I moved
ter drifted up from the street, a siren cut briefly through the night before fading into so
zed against t
mmediately. I kn
a moment, I
own n
ssage w
iss
made it harder to stand still. I read the words again, as if
wer that," Clara sa
heard he
my voice steady in a
loosely across her chest. "Knowing a
placing it face down on
second longer before nod
s i
s a s
her to say more, then gave a small, understanding
ill
r," she admitted.
gh I wasn't sur
ceiling above me unfamiliar in its stillness. The city light filtered thro
y stomach, resting th
I murmured, my voice barely audi
ing into the space between
buzzed o
each for it
ty fill the room. Laughter in the distance. A car door s
that slipped through my grasp eac
ought I heard his voice, threaded with
me h
diately, my body sti
blanket closer as the first light of
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