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An Original Belle

Chapter 3 A NEW FRIEND.

Word Count: 4083    |    Released on: 29/11/2017

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been but a little girl to you all the time. Do you know the t

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mate. My thought is this,-we are

ted with you, Marian,

I was capable of this 'moo

were evidently satisfied so to remain. You see I speak frankly, and reveal to you my habit of making quick practical estimates, and of taking the world as I find it. You say you were capable of this mood-let us call it an aspiration-before. I do not deny this, yet doubt it. When people change it is because they are ripe, or ready for change, as are things in nature. One can force or retard nature; but I don't believe much in intervention. With many I doubt whether there is even much opportunity for it. They are capable of only the gradual modification of time and circumstances. Young people are apt to have spasms of enthusia

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t it would be useless for me to attempt to drag, drive, or coax you out of old ways. I am too busy a man to attempt the useless. But until you tell me

me step by step. Papa, if this is a mood, and I go back to my old, shallow life, with its motives, its petty and unworthy triumphs, I shall despise myself, and ever have the humiliating consciousness that I am doing what is contemptible. No matter how one obtains the k

and remarked, "Pat did put the

writhing in self-contempt ever since. When to be conventional is to be

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ly way? It was a coarse, rude hand that awakened me, papa, but I am awake. Since I have met you I have had another humiliation. As I said, I am not even acquainted wi

yself on exhibition. But it would be a heavenly joy to me-I might add surprise-if my own daughter became like some of the women of whom I have read and dreamed; and I do read and dream of that in which you little imagine me to be interested. To the world I am a stern, reticent, practical man I must be such in my calling. In my home I have tried to be good-natured, affectionate, and philosophical. I have seen little opportunity for anything more. I do not complain, but merely state a f

gest the ideals of your fancy, dressed, no doubt,

e is herself. No two leaves are alike on the same tree, but they are all enough alike to make but one impression. Some are more shapely than others, and flutter from their support with a fairer and more conspicuous grace to the closely observant; but there is nothing independent about them, nothing to distinguish them especially from their companions. They fulfil their

in, flirtatious daughter, how I can be unconven

er and more enlightened human nature. We almost at this moment hear the echoes of a strife in which specimens of the best manhood of the age are arrayed agai

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d to let things go on quietly as long as they will. Thus far I have merely gone to an office as I did before the war, or else have been absent on trips that were apparently civilian in character, and it has been essential that I should have as little distraction of mind as possible. I have lived long in hope that some decisive victory might occur; but the future grows darker, instead of lighter, and the struggle, instead of culminating speedily, promises to become more deadly and to be prolonged. There is but one way out of it for me, and that is through the final triumph of the old flag. Therefore, what a day will bring forth God only knows. There have been times when I wished to tell you something of thi

blind, heartless

ll be better for you to face life in the height and depth of its reality, trusting in God and your own womanhood for strength to meet whatever comes. Those who live on this higher plane have deeper sorrows, but also far richer joys, than those who exist from hand to mouth, as it were, in the immediate and material present. What's more, they cease to be plebeian in the meaner sense of the word, and achi

hical for me. How sha

rcely

thing shall I

olds good down to you, my little girl. You have an impulse which is akin to that of genius. Instead of continuing your old indolent, strolling gait on the dead level of life, you have left the beaten track and faced the mountain of achievement. Every resolute step forward takes you higher, even though it be but an inch; yet I cannot see the path by which you will climb, or tell you the height you may

mma used to say years ago,-'You must be a good little girl, and then you will

usual way. Voluntary eccentrics are even worse than the imitators of some model or the careless souls which take their coloring from chance surroundings. Conventionality ceases when a human being begins the resolute development of his own natural law of growth to the utmost extent. This is true because nature in her higher work is not stereotyped. I will now be as definite as you can desire. You, for instance, Marian Vosburgh, are as yet, even to yourself, an unknown quantity. You scarcely know what you are, much less what you may become. This conversation, and the feeling which led to it, prove this. There are traits and possibilities in your nature due to ancestors of whom you have not even heard. These combine with your own individual endowments by n

apply your words to one definite problem,-How

upon which the future of a nation depends, they are pre-eminent. You see I am a German at heart, and must have my world of thought and imagination, as well as the world in which men look at me with cold, hard, and even hostile eyes. Thus far this ideal world has been peopled chiefly by the shadows of those who have lived in the past or by the characters of the great creators in poetry. Now if my blue-eyed daughter can prove to me that she has too much heart and brain to be an ordinary society-girl like half a million of others, and will share my interest in the great thoughts and achievements of the past and the greater questions of to-day,-if she can prove that when I have time I may enjoy a tryst with her in regions far remote from shallow, coarse, commonplace minds,-is not my whole life enriched? We can read some of my favorite authors together and trace their influence on the thought of the world. We can take up history and see how to-day's struggle is the result of the past. I think I could soon give you an intelligent idea of the questions of the time, for which men are hourly dying. The line of battle stretches across the continent, and so many are engaged that every few moments a man, and too often a woman from heart-break, dies that the beloved cause may triumph. Southern girls and women, as a rule, are

le to me? Men down town think I am hard as a rock, but your touch of sympathy has been as potent as the stroke of

n lack of in

this outpouring of my heart seem as natural as breathing, for when you look as you do to-night, I can almost think aloud to you. You have a sympathetic face, my child,

s side, resting her arm

world is indeed a new one, and a better one than mine. But

ever finer for shadows and depth of perspective. You can't get anythi

er even the wish to do so base. No, I feel now that I would rather be a woman, even though it involves a crown of thorns, than

arling. As I said before, no one can tell what you

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1 Chapter 1 A RUDE AWAKENING.2 Chapter 2 A NEW ACQUAINTANCE.3 Chapter 3 A NEW FRIEND.4 Chapter 4 WOMAN'S CHIEF RIGHT.5 Chapter 5 BE HOPEFUL, THAT I MAY HOPE. 6 Chapter 6 A SCHEME OF LIFE.7 Chapter 7 SURPRISES.8 Chapter 8 CHARMED BY A CRITIC.9 Chapter 9 A GIRL'S LIGHT HAND.10 Chapter 10 WILLARD MERWYN.11 Chapter 11 AN OATH AND A GLANCE.12 Chapter 12 A VOW. 13 Chapter 13 A SIEGE BEGUN.14 Chapter 14 OMINOUS.15 Chapter 15 SCORN.16 Chapter 16 AWAKENED AT LAST.17 Chapter 17 COMING TO THE POINT.18 Chapter 18 A GIRL'S STANDARD.19 Chapter 19 PROBATION PROMISED.20 Chapter 20 YOU THINK ME A COWARD. 21 Chapter 21 FEARS AND PERPLEXITIES.22 Chapter 22 MY FRIENDSHIP IS MINE TO GIVE. 23 Chapter 23 A FATHER'S FORETHOUGHT.24 Chapter 24 A CHAINED WILL.25 Chapter 25 MARIAN'S INTERPRETATION OF MERWYN.26 Chapter 26 DE HEAD LINKUM MAN WAS CAP'N LANE. 27 Chapter 27 No.2728 Chapter 28 MARIAN CONTRASTS LANE AND MERWYN.29 Chapter 29 THE NORTH INVADED.30 Chapter 30 I'VE LOST MY CHANCE. 31 Chapter 31 BLAUVELT.32 Chapter 32 A GLIMPSE OF WAR.33 Chapter 33 A GLIMPSE OF WAR, CONTINUED.34 Chapter 34 THE GRAND ASSAULT.35 Chapter 35 BLAUVELT'S SEARCH FOR STRAHAN.36 Chapter 36 STRAHAN'S ESCAPE.37 Chapter 37 A LITTLE REBEL.38 Chapter 38 THE CURE OF CAPTAIN LANE.39 Chapter 39 LOVE'S TRIUMPH.40 Chapter 40 SUNDAY'S LULL AND MONDAY'S STORM.41 Chapter 41 THAT WORST OF MONSTERS, A MOB.42 Chapter 42 THE COWARD. 43 Chapter 43 A WIFE'S EMBRACE.44 Chapter 44 THE DECISIVE BATTLE.45 Chapter 45 I HAVE SEEN THAT YOU DETEST ME. 46 Chapter 46 A FAIR FRIEND AND FOUL FOES.47 Chapter 47 DESPERATE FIGHTING.48 Chapter 48 ONE FACING HUNDREDS.49 Chapter 49 ZEB.50 Chapter 50 A TRAGEDY.51 Chapter 51 MOTHER AND SON.52 Chapter 52 MISSY S'WANEE.