Reckless

t's bed-not knowing whether to consider it a former possession of theirs or something current. Naturally, she knew that her mother

t that her brothers felt the same as they seemed to have already come to terms with the idea of taking up the mantle in providin

erms with the idea of giving up quite a bit to help raise Reina. Dallas didn't want that..she didn't want her sister giving up her young life to grow u

o return home indefinitely, but now she didn't know if she had a choice. At this point, it would be selfish

on her face as she watched her baby sister. "Guess you'll have me for a lot longer t

retched arm, her hazel eyes on Reina for a few silen

ullaby that her mother would sing to all of her children when they were young to calm them down. "Fica...bem bem..." Her words were barely a whisper

tem bich

at it was her aunt standing there. She looked up to see Mariella standing near the do

e smiled. "I did not in

on the bed as she hurriedly wiped her tears away. "

n, but we did have that song. It was a common one among Brazilian culture but...her singing it to us was something far more special than we could ever imagine. You know why?" She asked Dallas, to which Dallas simply shook her head. Mariella shrugged. "Simply because she was mamãe," She chuckled softly. "That was all that mattered to

could not bear them. It broke her heart to find this out. Why she never adopted or tried to find other means of having a child,

a sing-song voice of Portuguese as she fid

s in her aunt's arms, she couldn't resist co

he four of you," She chortled. "I'd li

azing mother, tia," Dallas said

indirectly mentioning her inability to have children of her own. She

her way next to her aunt, laying her he

Bea?" Sh

iend's house. It was hard for her to be in the

ng," Mari

n her own. This making Dallas feeling guilty about having not been home in the first place. If n

urden on yourself," She told Dallas. "You're going through grief just like everyone else, do not add guilt to that grief. Your m

Dallas to feel that she should feel guiltless about leaving home. She was fifteen at the time and whil

was curly and at the nape of her neck, never growing much longer than that. Ironically enough, her siste

joking, but Dallas knew that it was true. No one ever wanted to really be around or play with Dallas-most reasons being she was 'too big' or 'frumpy' or ev

n particular. He seemed to be far more relentless than anyone that she was around. His words do

weren't, it wasn't the outside appearance that they thought was beautiful but the inside. Thing is, they actually took the time to know Dallas as a person-not that she felt that they had

Ovarian Syndrome, a hormonal disorder that completely threw her body out of wack. It made it significantly harder to lose weight and wh

alone, watching as the world kept going forward while she sat stagnate, with no reassurance of worth. What was worse what the fact that she hated herself even more for feeling as if she neede

herapist suggested that Dallas have a change of scenery is when

lly before. It was only shortly after that she begged her parents as well as Mariella and Gael to stay there. Yes, there were a

wanted in life. That was something that she could never regret but it did not diminish the guilt of feeling like she was weak

lied. "Thanks, tia," She said and k

d headed out of the room. "Wher

dn't know really where she was going but she knew that she needed t

for a walk,

re in particul

she have forgotten about her? The only girl that was ever truly kind to Dallas when she was a

to Dallas, but after she saw some kids picking on her, she decided to defend her. Afterward, they were pra

e best. At that point, Dallas was so emotionally damaged from all of the things that she had gone through, she assumed that no friend would ever be permanent in her

as said and completely understood. "I'd b

ocked Reina in her arms. "Never h

one, mama Mariell

would I be if I wer

he stairs, where she noticed her bro

eaded?" Link

as still in his back pocket and for some reason that relieved Dallas. She gla

k," She finally answe

ed in understanding. "You talk to Cat?"

s my mind until a moment ago, bu

that she wouldn't,"

ough, when she's around

brother's voice. "Is...that a ba

it was obvious that

ostility then?

oesn't really...get al

you do is because she

is head. "Cat's

bad news, jellybean. I can tell...so, if s

not that bad," D

your

ing the little back and forth she'd have with

," Gael kis

o for her walk, and maybe find the coura