MISERABLE AT BEST

ur lullaby for all the times hop

t makes us miserable, yet

how to win them over. Otherwise, why would we love the things that k

that doesn't give me a choice. Well, sometimes it doe

ys told me that I've fought for this career, so I d

ead. It's killing me, considering the fact that it wasn't an hour ago since I closed my e

of accident and have some time to actually make themsel

that's how life works. Someone needs to be below, so others ca

Lauyton, a resident like me, dema

to take," I l

r. I don't even know why she gave me a blanket when I certainly don't need it. Well, I gu

he stopped his phone from ringing. He rolled over h

October 1st,

ue. I could only curse as I fought against my will. W

d to the ringtone I set for one specific person, Dr. Sead - our fellow.

ssed in frustration. I counted one to fi

ped from the top of our bed, pulled his scru

self twice before getti

room. Lauyton was right.

cted. "That's

an ten people injured. Chaos were all over the place. Hospital staf

happened here

d while holding the leg of the guy

n

a hand i

blood

e any avai

y call m

here?" Dr. Sead, the fellow I was talking abou

the penlight between his finge

and ran to the nearest patient who starte

start the day," I shook my

t used to this kind of moment. But, this is the path I've

starvation. I wanted to eat, but my body couldn't move. I sat on the floor a

t hard to breathe. My hands were numb and my mouth w

ent straight to the residents' quarter and wash

in my mind, I told the interns to pick the groceri

order food, so I picked my phon

I drank the cold water. I rested my back on the co

ck of banana milk towards me. It's my favorite

re's a good cardio case. Do

case that he probably stole, and started sayin

allow you to scr

hat I want to try. I remembered watching the procedure when I was still an intern, and hoped that one day I will be able to get my hands on

o stop that heart from beating, and a heart-lung bypass machine will take over the heart's function and maintain the circulation then you'll replace the da

for that. It's obvious," I added. "So, giv

knowing Lauyton stole the case without even telli

he fun in that?

hru

cup of coffee to sip when

ant to sleep!" I screamed in

as he grabbed his penlight. "C'

pray I still h

re seen in the faces of the victims as the team carried them inside. There'

ose to death rushing inside the emergency room. It was suffocating me

t when I am only a fourth-year resident and our attending surgeons wer

to the medics and met

were rushed to other hospitals. We got more than 50 patients coming in, and also the captain of the plane is on his way here. He's critical. It took them

ot and three flight a

y hair and thought of a plan, yet there's no plan, just

aptain and the others. Professor Argazon, the head of General Surgery is still in the operating room with Dr. Sead.

attending. I've done solo surgeries, but they're not major surgeries, so I am hoping I don't get to do a major one. No, erase that!

ncy room. We ran to meet them. They pulled the stretche

. "Get the captain. They call

s no tissue contraction from the heart muscle, so there's no blood flow to the rest of the body, whi

lane crash? It's not e

houted while still doing CPR.

ordered. "Let's get him in

fr

lost its motion

em. It felt like the world was shut down fo

ning his body lying on the bed because I missed him, and I always remember hi

in my head, but the words were empty. The wind babbled through my ears, whisperin

y name. "What are you doing?" They tappe

ater crawled in my skin as

ment I knew I'm m