On The Border

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1 diabetes you ge

ttle or no insulin. Insulin is a hormone needed to al

y fights harmful bacteria and viruses, mistakenly destroys the insulin-producing cells in the pancr

ironmental factors, namely living in this

sugar levels with insulin, diet an

ht stand, became filled with different insulin pens,

times a day; sometimes more or less doses wer

ontinuously through out each day to kee

to keep the condition from further r

ed my eye sight durin

deteriorated despite wearing the glasses all the time and monitoring my blood sugar levels obsessively. But when you ha

e at risk for heart and blood vessel d

pan was not loo

betes, I discovered my pass

gh and release a

esn’t really count, I had to rely a lot on YouTube at first. But gradually, I

henever I am not in the m

to through my headphones and get

have any illness, I don’t have a father I always wish he would drop dea

il the day I die. Just like everyone did in this place

was out of the question. My father would never let me leave the town on my own to pursue

ill I leave

ave it a dead

ling in love…

cking

seen my mom go throu

d all me

ng in love with at my high school. None of

at any of them, I see on

sit on my bed as I check my

24/7 blood sugar

ng daily to check my levels wi

er invented i

recorder, a fitness and exercise recorder, and most importantly, it triggers a

ymptoms; which include sweating, dizziness, feeling hungry, tingling lips, trembling, increasing heartbeat, blurry vision, and anxiousnes

tal. Because I would need to be given an inject

shot in my purse at a

the watch com

drates; sugary foods without protein or fat that could be easily converted into

emia (high blood sugar), I inject

ulin pen in my pur

ted disease that alway

highest normal range. It is always like this in the morning due to sleep

et the dosage at 2 units as I prime the pen to get any air bubbles out through the needle b

eas. The abdomen, front and side of the t

e same injection site over and over again, I may develop hardened

f my abdomen at a 90 degree angle, and slowly push the knob of the pen all the way in

and put the pen cap

d close with a loud noise, ind

cue to get out

sts these days because of hi

here I hear mom cleaning

out this time?” I ask

od morning to her, there was

he table in an answ

a wedding invitation

get a closer

Alex Snow’s wedding, I

children. Three sons and one daughter. The oldest

h school. She was seventeen years old, a year younger than me. The boys were all older, that

nd ask “So he got mad over a we

dy beforehand. When he came into the kitchen and saw me reading it, he just flipped out on me. Said we were not allowed to atten

ently the arguments they’ve been

fast silently as I kept staring at the invitatio

was buzzing with this news for the past month

eing as it is Alex Snow; the next in line to take the leadership aft

ose name on the invitation said to be Melanie Sullivan. Why would s

the time. They were a danger magnet. They had a lot of enemies, police aside, that w

es to carrying guns and attracting danger, but at

n my father, uncle, and cousin. They

n of his own, he woul

agine what a mini version of him would do to me. I think a part of his hatred towards me and my mother was that we were a disap

cussing their problem with convincing Isaac Snow to let drug

g lord I assume. He managed to convince my father and uncle to allo

used his offer despite the huge amount of

before that drug lord handled Isaac, becau

vers down my spine when I h

the Snows were currently star

arry Alex Snow, will regret ever l

lling herself by marrying into his fam

re it out someday, and it wi