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ide and busy road. I almost lost my soul as I saw how t

ted, "

y lips and palmed my face, thinking about what had happened in that hotel

that, as if she were an expert when it came to such things. She acts as if she is a whore and

ll be ending up naked in someone's bed! That's bullshit! I massaged the bridge of my nose, trying to calm myself dow

alone with offensive words, accusing her as if she's not clean and such. Fuck myself because I know everything

-up, so why would I do her when I know she is just caught up with that "contract" I'm reasoning out? I respect her, and I'm trying to protect her at

f her. How can she bewitch me

spered to myself, full of admiration, wh

don't do relationships, and romance has never been in my veins or blood. If I decide to bed her I can do it right away l

rent and she holds

om the bank. Angela just transferred a money in my bank, I gave her million and she gave back almost everything

worried. But it's also better for me to be not in there because I might not gonna have control with my

la's

fter he left, I cried so hard because of pain and offense

that kind of person. Just when I was almost ready to give myself

ople like him have no other problem but to have a child. Because while I was aspiring to be able

eturn the money he gave me. I never thought about the co

my college tuition and the first three months of my rent. Yes, I rented a tiny apartment for

ar what happened a few days ago. Not even a single text I received from him. N

ppened, I have not forgotten at all. His lips, his touch... how rough he is, but it feels

stopped for a while remembering how gentle he was that ni

e dumb things. I was startled when my phone suddenly rang. The bus I was

ey

said, soundin

se I knew immediately where

ymore?" she hissed. I gulped and blinked a lot of times. He h

mind, I will come to

around in embarrassment. Other people

!" she sh

aid that the people around me might hear m

mean you'

I feel guilty that he doesn't know what's goin

dorm and rented a plac

even had to check the screen to se

here?" she confusedly as

either waitress, cashier, s

now you can just ask for E

ious, Rachel. I s

ng now?" She asked like sh

. This is now my reality, it all sunk in as of the moment. But with that darkness, all I could see was a s

use

e," I said, acc